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Podcast Episode 64: Danny Miller

The wonderful Danny Miller is the author of the best-selling, award winning books, Losing Control, Finding Serenity and The Gifts of Acceptance. He speaks with Jean and Alison about his newest book The Way of the Wave- Nature’s Model for Navigating Life’s Current. He is also an artist, poet, and professional real estate investor with a passion for tennis.

Learn more at DanielaMiller.com

Transcript

Alison: Click click click. We’re like waiting.

Jean: And we’re off and running. There we are.

Alison: How are you?

Jean: I’m great. I love seeing you.

Alison: I love seeing you. And we’ve both been a little busy.

Jean: We have been. Yeah. But you are redoing your home.

Alison: Yeah, I’m redoing bits and pieces of my home to make sure that, um, it stays lovely.

Jean: Well, it is lovely. And what you’re doing is, is some extra zhuzhing. And it looks beautiful, Alison I love what you’re doing.

Alison: Thank you. I think homes are so important.

Jean: Yeah.

Alison: Because, uh, you know, you want to feel cozy.

Jean: And you want to come home to something that, you know,

Alison: Makes you feel happy, right… Even if it’s just little changes.

Jean: Yes.

Alison: And speaking of happy ……

Jean: And changes,

Alison: ..Right. I really enjoy this man. Um, Danny Miller. And I know him because I have acted, actually, and am friends with his wife because we were both at the same theater company.

Jean: Right. I remember going to her one woman show, which was very powerful.

Alison: Oh my gosh, he talks about it in this book… I love her and she’s such a wonderful person. Just like him.

Jean: Yes. So Danny Miller has authored three wonderful books. Um,  “The Gifts of Acceptance”, “Losing Control, Finding Serenity”, and “The Way of the Wave”, which is what we’re going to talk to him about this afternoon.

Alison: Yeah. And he really he’s very comforting because he allows you to feel your feelings and gives you options.

Jean: Yes. And he also really exposes his own struggles and, um, brings so much wisdom to to what he went through after after great reflection over his life. And it shows you that, you know, you can take whatever it is going on in your life and make it something that can transform your thinking, transform your consciousness..

Alison: And, scene–  that was excellent. That’s exactly right, that was excellent.

Jean: Well thank you, Alison, it’s hanging out with you.

Alison: Oh no. I can only tell you about tiles and flooring. That’s all I’m good for. Um, but here he is, Dan Miller. Well, Danny. Danny miller.

Danny: Hello.

Alison: Oh,HI!

Danny: Hi. How you doing?

Alison: Great.

Jean: Okay, well, Danny, you have authored another beautiful transformational book called “The Way of the Wave. And congratulations.

Danny: Thank you so much. Thank you, I appreciate that.

Alison: Reading it was such a pleasure because I, um, I see so much of you in it. Not not because, uh, we know each other a little, but because you’re so vulnerable in it and you really express, uh, things that you’ve gone through. How was that for you? Like, was that how was that to be that vulnerable?

Danny: It was a decision I made. I, I intended it and wanted it to be a more personal book. Um, and so I did make the decision that I’m going to share, um, my struggles, uh, the challenges that I’ve had, um. The shortcomings and how I managed to improve upon those or reduce those shortcomings. And so I did use mainly my personal stories, whereas in the other books, uh, I would interview and talk to people about their stories and maybe 1 or 2 of mine. So I wanted this to be a personal book. Uh, I intended it to be, uh, short chapters. I didn’t want them to be extensive chapters. And I looked at it sort of like, uh, more of a guide, uh, and more more from the intention that this is what’s worked for me. Maybe it can work for you. You know, I, I feel that I’m sort of a typical, normal person. And I made that assumption that there’s others like me that struggle with the same issues, their fears, their anxieties, things like that. So that’s why at the end of each chapter, I have some prompts, uh, that include a few prompts. So the idea is that people can, um, look at their own lives from the perspective of what I’ve shared in the chapters, and see if it applies to them or how it may apply to them.

Danny: So that was the idea of the book. And, uh, I am very happy about it. It’s, uh, there was a journey that started almost 40 years ago with this book. Um, after I had undergone a five year period of some pretty traumatic events. Um, and I went to the beach one day and just started looking at the waves. Uh, just to get away and find some peace. And it was that day. And seeing the waves that I just instinctively, intuitively connected with them, that this could be the keys for my healing, because I really needed a lot of healing. And that was the beginning, uh, of a book. I did some writings, and the book was called, “The Wave” and and during Covid, you know, we’re moving boxes to storage and we have all this time on our hands. Uh, I came across 15 chapters of the book that, uh, I wrote in the late 1980s, and I thought, wow, I couldn’t complete it then because I didn’t know enough about it. I felt and understood it, but it sharing it, explaining it, articulating it, uh, was one thing, and I don’t think I had enough life experiences. So, uh, during Covid, I started writing and it just sort of flowed and came together and, uh, it was just a great joy in doing it.

Alison: That’s fantastic.

Jean: It is and and it’s so clever to use a body surfer.

Alison: Yeah.

Jean: The metaphor of the wave, the ocean, the body surfer to address all these human tendencies that that we all go through. And and I just want to say, Danny, I and I think Alison was alluding to this, your vulnerability, to really share that with your audience, because that gave us like gave me permission to say, yeah, I do that too. I do that too.

Danny: yeah,

Jean: Uh, you know, sometimes, well my mother used to say, and it’s a quote, you know, you see the plank in someone’s..NO, it’s, “You see the speck in someone’s eye, but you don’t see the plank in your own eye.” And I’m thinking that when I was reading your book, I’m like, yep, I’ve gone through that.

Alison: And I love that you, um, the controlling Danny I could relate to so much. And I think the most interesting part was the controlling of people you love– thinking you’re helping. Could you talk a little bit about that?

Danny: Sure… As I shared in the book, is I was a major controller, uh, in so many ways, not only work, but also also at home. It was like with my son, i was father knows best and didn’t hesitate to let him know –until he got older and got a little dismissive of that. Right? Um, but the idea behind the control is, first of all, there’s there’s a shortage of humility. There’s a feeling that, um, I know what’s best for others or I know what they should do, and while sometimes that may be true, but most, most of the time it’s not okay because I’m not them. And so there’s I say there’s there’s a lack of humility. And I’ve learned this so many times that I don’t often know what’s best for me. So who am I to share that with others? Right. But controllers tend to do that because they they have expectations and they want people to do certain things, especially their loved ones, their family. Um, and, you know, and as I’ve analyzed it myself, you know, you can say, well, it’s because I’m being benevolent, because I want what’s best for them. But I don’t, you know, if I really looked at it honestly, and that’s what I try to do. It’s mainly because I want what’s best for me. Yeah. See, and that’s why if I expect someone to do certain things a certain way is because I’m going to like that better. I’m going to feel better about that. Right. So, um, giving up control, letting go of control. And that’s why, you know, the body surfing and the waves. The waves are in control, not us. I used to body surf. You learn that right away. They are in control. And. Well, the best thing we can try to do is align with them. You know, and that’s why I get into the idea and the concept of acceptance.

Alison: Yeah.

Danny: We need to accept those waves as they are if we’re going to be able to align and flow with them in any meaningful way. So the whole idea of the wave in a, in a very over essence is when you let go of control, it releases the currents, the life currents in this case. And when we accept them, we can accept their the reality and try to align with the ones that are best for us, or to make the choices that are best for us under those circumstances. So we got to, in a way, let go but we also have to accept both of those things.

Alison: Or how are they.. How letting go of your own control and accepting what is in control or or  somebody else? Is that what you mean? Like, it’s interesting that you’re seeing them as two separate things, I like that.

Danny: I’m not quite. Can you say that again?

Alison: You’re saying, you’re saying, “letting go” and I always equated “letting go” as the same thing as “acceptance.”

Danny: Oh, okay.

Alison: Do you know, and I think it’s interesting that you’re showing me an option that maybe it’s two separate things.

Danny: I think so, in other words, I look at acceptance as the antidote for control. When we’re accepting people as they are things they are, we don’t need to try to control them. So in that sense, the more accepting we are, the less controlling we are. They’re almost like two sides of the same coin. And what interferes with that quite a bit, or what I refer to in the book or the wave obstacles. Right, so the idea is, is I was sitting watching the waves, i said, yeah, I want to go with the flow, you know, and but how do you do that? You know, and I didn’t know, you know, you always hear about it. And so that was really part of the journey is, is, uh, what can, um, get me on the flow and maintain the flow longer than what I normally could? And to that, it comes into the idea not only letting go of control. Um, I have to reduce my expectations and my judgments. Because when when I’m judging others or expecting too much of others, my focus is on them and not on me, you know? And the whole thing to me is I’ve looked at expectations, is there’s a perceived need, i think that I’m looking to others to fulfill a need of mine. And look, only I, I truly can, can fulfill my own needs. Someone can support me and maybe love me. Uh, but it’s up to me, you know, to fulfill my needs in any really true, meaningful way, you know? So those are some of the obstacles I have other, you know, others, you know, fear and anger and limited thinking. That’s why I call the obstacles there.

Alison: Wonderful chapter. That was that was a great part of the book. Yeah.

Jean: I mean, we could spend all afternoon just talking about.

Danny: Yeah.

Jean: Breaking down each one of them. And, um, I think Alison and I wanted to touch upon one that spoke to her.

Danny: Okay.

Jean: And while I’m speaking, I’ll just say the one about…well They’re were all so great, Danny, but when you talk about the lull wave, you know, I thought that was so interesting for me because I have a couple of friends that are going through a time in their life where not much is happening.

Danny: Yes.

Jean:  and and what do you do with that time? So can you talk about.

Danny: Sure. Because I as I share in the book, after the publication of,.. The Gifts of Acceptance, there was all that lead up and all the excitement. I had a lull, you know, or you it happens often with something that we’re intensely involved with, you know. And then it ends or eases it up, and then what then? And, uh, at first, you know, I included under the obstacles. Okay. But it’s not really necessary. An obstacle, I don’t think. Uh, it could be as much an enhancer and obviously a lot of lulls during Covid and things like that, and I like, like what you just shared. Um, I had a friend not long ago, he just retired from a very, uh, active career, uh, environmental world and for worked for the state of California in which he was going everywhere doing everything. And then he retired. And so he was the first time we got together, um, with our wives as well,  he was sharing, you know, he’s just feeling this discomfort, you know, and he’s it’s just sort of reanalyze, I think. And, I said, Stanley, you’re having a low and he said, what’s that?, first of all, it’s normal. It’s normal. Everybody has it. It’s part of life. So try to embrace that and accept that, you know, and the equation is sort of like if, if, uh, if surfers are out surfing and all of a sudden there’s no waves, you know, what do they do? Right.

Danny: Uh, a lot of them go home and wait for another day. You know, and so, uh, I think if we look at lulls as a means of, uh, a time when we can explore, learn more about ourselves, uh, try new, new things, maybe that we didn’t try or have the time for before. Um, and just trust. And that’s one of the big enhancers I talk about is trusting the flow, uh, which I’m learning to apply more and more. It’s becoming bigger and bigger. Acceptance is big, but trust goes right along with that is. So when I’m in a low, I just will trust that things are going to be okay. You know? Trust trust is maybe I’m going to wait around, wait in the water a little bit and wait for new currents to come. But that’s okay. That’s just part of life. Um, not that it’s not, uh, that there’s not discomfort, but it reduces that, when you put it in that perspective and that there’s nothing wrong with this. I don’t know if you ever, I used to get into this thing, is that I’m being unproductive…That feeling of being unproductive is. What is that exactly? I mean, in the sense that we have to be productive all the time? Right. And so it’s sort of with that idea that it’s okay to be unproductive for a while. Yeah. Okay.

Jean: My my beloved late husband, Alex, used to have a very hard time when the show was on hiatus. Hiatus?

Danny: Yeah, right.

Jean: He would come into the kitchen and he’d say, oh, Jeannie, I feel like I’m just “fumping” around.

Danny: Right.

Jean: Like, I’m not being productive. And we’re so geared to to be to do do do and.

Danny: Yes.

Jean: Yeah. It’s great to take these times and just Be a little bit.

Danny: Right

Alison: There’s a certain amount of guilt with being unproductive for me.

Danny: A guilt. Yeah.

Alison: You know, I feel like you should do something, organize something, clean something. If you’re not auditioning…do something.. Do you know, it’s a guilty feeling?

Danny: You know what’s a good a good thing to do during those times is to do something. Well, you’re an actress, so do something creative. Doesn’t have to be acting right. But, um, you know, I’ve painted a lot, but more in the past since I started writing. So, uh, during Covid, I started painting again, you know, and so it just being in that creative realm, whatever it might be, writing, painting, performing, um, and also just being in nature more, you know, nature is so healing to me, you know. So, um.

Alison: My favorite thing that you talked about, about painting is when you said you kept turning the canvas, keep painting. And I was like, that’s fantastic, because it almost made me want to try to paint and do that.

Danny: You should.  yeah, you know it’s so interesting when you and that one painting you do it. You see things from a totally different perspective, right? It’s like looking at it from sideways or upside down and so on that one painting, I kept doing it, and then all of a sudden it was like, you know, I think it’s done. And that’s always a challenge when to know when to stop. Yeah. You know, uh, when I painted more, I would so often over paint, you know, and my wife would stay, stop. Don’t go back. It’s good like it is. I’ve improved, I’ve improved. But that’s still a tendency. But I’m much more aware of it now.

Alison: And I wanted to talk with you about boundaries.

Danny: Yes.

Alison: Because I think people, women that we talk to, have a hard time setting up boundaries that feel comfortable to them. Could you just talk about your view of boundaries?

Danny: Yes, yes. The way I look at boundaries, first of all, I guess we all need to set certain boundaries, right? Okay. And I look at that as sort of like, uh, when you have body surfers or surfers that are….and it’s a busy day out in the water. They’re going to set some boundaries so they’re not going to collide with each other or their waves are not going to come together. And I think that’s the same with with people, you know. And it’s it’s harder I think for and maybe it’s women are more so is maybe women are more giving in in general, I’m just generalization, you know, uh, especially and for me, to set boundaries, there’s a couple of ways of doing it, and one way I just don’t like and I’ve had this happen – is I’m going to set a boundary. People express it, I’m going to set a boundary with you or with that. And I don’t think that’s the way to do it. It’s a little harsh and it can be a little divisive, but the way I look at it is – if I express my needs or desires or wishes in a thoughtful, clear manner, I am letting people know in a way that this is my boundary, right? So if whatever they may be asking me to do possibly or whatever they may be doing, if I share my needs or express my needs, I think it’s a kinder, gentler way of setting the boundaries. And I think a lot of us, and myself included, sometimes we’re afraid to express those needs. Or maybe we, like you say, maybe you feel guilty saying something like that, you know? But I really think it’s more that when we do that for ourselves, we’re also letting others know, because a lot of times people don’t know that there may be intrusive or invading our currents or our ways, uh, so we let them know. But, you know, through a communication, um, if they keep doing it, which some people will, they’re overly persistent. Then we have some choices. You know, we can remove ourselves literally or physically, you know, uh, or express our dislike or as I say in the book, it in the challenging difficulties, difficult cases, we can choose to swim in other waters. Right? Again, using the wave, we can go surfing somewhere else.

Alison: Right.  We talked to so many women and people that, um, are torn between the caretaking and being totally available and boundaries, and they’re they that those two things. Do you agree that have become very mixed?

Danny: Yes.

Alison: I thought that your book was really great in sort of you, approach one thing and you’re very clear about options to help you through it. Yeah. You know, because I think we’re living in a very, um, it’s a challenging time.

Danny: Yes, yes. Especially now. Yeah. Especially now.

Jean: Talk about riding the waves. Yeah, yeah. And, you know, I think women that have been mothers, now when you come into the empty nest now, you’re just finding out what your needs are.. Like you really, you just kind of are just taking care, taking care, and then all of a sudden, you get into an age where you can focus more on yourself.

Danny: Yes.

Jean: And you’re like, oh, you know what? I don’t think I enjoy that and I’m going to, you know, it’s like a whole new way of being expressing your boundaries. But something I love Danny, which made me feel good about the whole boundary thing is you said it’s a win win for both people.

Danny: I think so. I think I think it can be. I think it can lead to a deeper relationship or connection with the person. I really do. And a more authentic truth basis where each feels okay to express their views on things. You know, and it’s sort of interesting as you were sharing. There’s a little bit especially, uh, for women and being mothers, is that… Well fathers too, is the idea of enabling, you know, when we enable our, our children by, in a way, giving too much or doing too much for them, or we can be actually by doing that, taking away, you know, with their own life journey, experiences, um, development, independence and things like that. So in a way, when we’re doing that, we’re we’re invading their currents. It’s just sort of sort of the opposite. Right. But we do it. Why do we do it? I think mostly because of fear. You know, a lot of it’s because of fear. We’re fearful, uh, for them. And, uh, will it be okay? How will they be? Etcetera, cetera, et cetera. And so a lot of it is, is processing our own fears. Right?

Alison: Right, Very much. Danny, when you write these type of books, does it put pressure on you to be really good?

Danny: Pressure?

Alison: Yeah.

Jean: Great question.

Danny: No, um, I, I mean, I would obviously like it to be good, but I don’t think of it in that terms…

Alison: I mean for like you to be good. Like like you write this book that is so great, and your book about acceptance, does it put pressure on you?

Danny: Oh I see. To live it.

Alison: Yeah. To to always be living it. And what happens when you don’t?

Danny: Good question. Um. It doesn’t put pressure on me. Um, because I’m not holding myself out as an expert, and I don’t try to, but what it does, uh, is I can look to my own writings and try to live by that. Okay. So they’re they’re tools. Like, if I’m going through a difficult or challenging time, I might, might say, okay, well, what would I say in my book about that? Right. So I they become my own self-help guides. And I actually start by writing them in that with that feeling or that sense, so that I am exploring, uh, as I’m writing and trying to live as I’m writing and seeing how it works and what maybe doesn’t work. So they’re, um, they’re just an ongoing continuing means for me to live, I guess, a more peaceful, helpful and joyful life.

Alison: Yeah.

Danny: And seems to be working. Yeah. Uh, I feel I feel very blessed. I feel very, very blessed. And, uh. Yeah. So I’m glad that, i’m glad that the books, um, thus far have been, you know, nicely received and resonates… And I’m so happy that that’s resonated with the two of you as well, of course.

Jean: It really has. Can you share with us , well we know because we read the book, but can you share with our listeners your morning practice?

Danny: Sure. My my morning process, um, is upon out of bed. I get on my on my knees and say the serenity prayer. Um. Before breakfast or go in the next room and before eating, I go outside and I have this beautiful Olive tree, and I will put my arms up and say the serenity, Serenity Prayer again. And I will then offer and ask for guidance. Whatever I may be dealing with, whether you want to say God or Higher Power or nature…. Uh, I ask to be receptive to the guidance that may come my way. I may not know what it is, but I want to be available and accessible. So I start my day from a very peaceful place every day. And, you know, things can happen during the day, obviously, when I, when I when that happens, when I remember to unfortunately, I work at home, I just go up my olive trees right out there. I can just go out there again, uh,or go or take a walk or whatever it is. And when I’m saying, the Serenity prayer, what I’ve learned is to think about it more specifically. Like whatever things I may be dealing with, God grant me the serenity to accept what I can and  what I can’t accept, uh, what’s happening right now. Right. And the courage to change the things I can. So that in a way, what that sort of means is to acknowledge the areas where I’m powerless over, that I can’t meaningfully change, like a lot of what’s going on now.

Alison: Yes.

Danny: But courage to change the things I can, is like telling me what power do I have within that context to make things better for myself, hopefully for others, and think about those more specific things, you know, and the wisdom to know the difference is sort of like sometimes I don’t know the difference. Sometimes I don’t know whether I can have any influence. So maybe I’ll try it a little bit. But if I, if I sense a resistance, then I know that I’m overreaching. Then I have to go more into acceptance and to acknowledge I’m powerless over this. So that’s just my daily prayer, my most significant prayer that’s really helped me a lot.

Alison: That’s so wonderful. And I wanted to, um, talk about the chapter The Great Divide.

Danny: Okay.

Alison: Because we are in a time right now that feels that discourse has stopped between people with differing ideas or beliefs.

Danny: Yes.

Alison: And, um, I wanted to, uh, enlighten our listeners to like what you’re feeling about that. And what you’re thinking is, I thought that chapter was fantastic.

Danny: Thank you, thank you. It’s sort of interesting. I wrote that chapter, believe it or not, the genesis of it five years ago.

Alison: Really?

Danny: Yeah, just a little bit before Covid, because I sensed it. Even then, the divide, the divisiveness, you know, and, uh, I didn’t know where to publish it or what to do with it. But then I started writing the book. I started thinking, okay, if the LA times is not going to publish it, I’m going to publish it in my book. And that’s what and that’s what was meant to be that way. Um, but anyways, getting to the subject is. There’s there’s several things I use the word acceptance conversations in a very broad thing that the idea is if we can have what I call acceptance conversations with “the other side”, you know, um, and what what do those entail, uh, so that we can have some kind of connection or some kind of understanding? You know, if you look at, you know, you hear the two different worlds or alternate universes and I’m, I have two circles, if those circles could just merge a little bit. So there’s a little overlap. It starts with trying to maybe get to there. So how does that happen?..   It could be also with uh family members that are fallen, fallen out or friends or whatever, right? It doesn’t have to be the whole nation or universe.

Danny: Um, but one of the, one of the keys, I think in these conversations is we need to, uh, accept others as they are and or their views as they are. That doesn’t mean I agree with them or condone them, right, I just need okay, that’s what they are. And that they are not necessarily trying to harm me or hurt me. That they are more than likely serving their own best interests, as we often do. When I can sort of look at it a little bit from that perspective, it can be less heated, less argumentative. So these conversations are not intended to convince or to win your point. Once you start doing that, it’s not going to go very far. It’s to try to find some common grounds about raising our children, taking care of our elder parents, um, um, what we enjoy in entertainment, food, sports so that we can begin to see what I call the humanness in the other. We need to try to see the humanness in the other. And then there are other parts as I write about it. Another one is, we need to be civil, you know, and not loud and argumentative.

Danny: But another part is try to, uh, get a conception of what fears might be behind the views. Uh, it’s been established and there’s books written on it, uh, that people are not going to change based on facts because, there’s so many different channels and universes of facts right now. So discussing the facts or they’re misreading the facts or misinterpreting is not going to carry us very far. It’s more on the emotional, Intuitive level. So and maybe the fear level, if we can sort of understand what fears lie behind their strong judgments, maybe we can talk and share about those. So, you know, those are some of the things and they’re they’re not always going to be productive. Some people may not want to have those conversations. Um, but there are what they call bridging organizations. And there’s a lot of them. And I’ve gotten involved a little bit with them. And that’s what what their aim is, is trying to find ways to bridge the divide by having these constructive conversations, you know, and it’s beginning. It’s sort of like what I say in the book, uh, Lao Tzu,  A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. It’s either that or do nothing. Right?

Alison: Yeah, right.

Jean: And I think that feeling uncomfortable…. becoming Comfortable those uncomfortable conversations. Actually, they’re good in a way, good for our soul growth. Because  no one likes to have these conversations that make you feel, oh, am I being judged, am I right? And to really look at look at our beliefs… You know, and have humility like you, you talk about, um, and yeah,  you have so much wisdom in any one of these chapters.

Alison: I think that’s a perfect chapter to read before Thanksgiving dinner….You know, when you’re sitting down with your family, I’m going to, you know, and people, all different types…. I thought that chapter was great.

Jean: Yeah.

Danny: Well, thank you. I really appreciate that. Uh, it’s just so important. And, um, but thank you, I appreciate that. It’s, uh, there’s got to be some changes, you know? And, uh, hopefully the more that we can, uh, as I say, see the common ground, see the humanity in the other, it certainly will help, because when we don’t, you’re not going to have a conversation. You know, it’s not going to happen.

Alison: No exactly. Right… Exactly.  And that’s where I think, unfortunately, we are at a lot of times, you know, where when you’re talking to somebody that maybe has a different idea or different beliefs, it goes from 0 to 60..it feels and I thought some of your tips were so great. And I was thinking about conversations I’ve had with relatives where I could have calmed down.

Danny: Yes. Right, right. Yeah.

Jean: And that was really a great, uh. I tried to make it more about me when I was reading your book. I didn’t want it to be like, see what you do… See, that’s what they do. And I really loved it because your book really let me focus on what I’m doing.

Danny: Wonderful.

Alison: And me which was great. And so it was a real gift.

Danny: Well thank you. I appreciate it.

Jean: I was focusing on you, Alison when was reading the book…hahah

Alison: She was picking on me.  hahah

Jean: That’s right.  hah

Jean: It’s so true… Those questions are so great at the end. And, um,  it’s just a beautiful, well written, wise, humble meaning.

Danny: Oh, wonderful. You know, it’s sort of interesting, I had a a friend read a draft copy of the book, and when I met with him he says, well, that’s a wonderful, intimate memoir. And I said, what? …you know, I didn’t think of it as such. But he, you know, everybody can interpret it. But he, and what you say, like the vulnerable, and the intimate and, um, uncomfortable with intimacy. The more I can be intimate, I think it’s better. I feel, you know.

Alison: It’ll be great, like, for your great grandchildren to have that.

Danny: Thank you.

Alison: It’ll be fun for them to get to know you through these words. And  I hope you find another box from 40 years ago with more writing in it….I would love that.

Danny: Thank you.

Alison: Danny, as we just wrap up, can you tell me what…  our podcast is called InsideWink…

Danny: Right.

Alison: What do you think insidewink means thank you?

Danny: I thought about that. And for me, um, I think it’s telling myself not to be so serious. Like, lighten up, because I tend to be really serious. Too serious. I’m smiling a lot because I just enjoy our conversation, but my tendency is, is to be a little too serious so that, the insight wink says, come on, Danny, lighten up. So I mean,that’s sort of like winking to myself.

Danny: And it’s and it’s so true…there was something I read, that said, don’t take all this too seriously.

Danny: Yeah.

Jean: Don’t take everything so seriously where you lose your joy.

Alison: Yes.

Jean: because then you’ve really disconnected from… So i love that you say that.

Alison: But it’s so funny, Danny. Whenever I’ve seen you, you always strike me as such a like a happy sprite. Thank you. I never see you as serious. Like you’re just always seeing…

Danny: I think it’s because you are as well. I think maybe.

Alison: Maybe we’re just goofy together.

Danny: Yeah. Goofy? Yeah.

Alison: But, um, I think that’s… I think that’s great. Jean will ask my favorite question ever.

Danny: Okay.

Speaker1: Okay. Do you prefer cake? Pie or ice cream?

Danny: Ice cream. I’m an ice cream guy.

Jean: What flavor?

Danny: Um. I like different ones. I like pistachio, coffee.

Jean: We love pistachio.

Alison: You’re fancy. Most people like chocolate, you know. So.

Danny: No, I’m not a, I like chocolate, but not for some reason for ice cream… Not as much. I don’t know why.

Alison: Yeah. Yeah. Danny, it’s such a joy to talk to you and just to have this time with you.

Danny: I thank you. Same. Same here. Same here. You two are doing so great.

Jean: Thank you. Your book is wonderful. It’s it’s very meaningful. And and, um, thank you for taking the time to write it and share your heart.

Alison: And I just want to put a little pitchfork to Seguda’s show…  that show is amazing. Is it called?

Danny:  Tragic magic.

Alison: It’s it’s absolutely beautiful. So if you’re ever seeing that coming around again, please go see it because you and your wife are a powerhouse of….

Danny: Thank you. It’s a wonderful show. It really is. Yeah.

Alison: Yeah. Okay. Well, give her our love. And we send you our love.

Danny: Okay. Thank you. Be well. Stay well.

Jean: You too.

Alison: Bye bye.

Jean: Bye bye.

Jean: He is so great. What a lovely man. Yes, because he’s done… Look at you.

Alison: I’m just thinking about our interview. He’s so… I just felt very. It felt very cozy to me, and.

Jean: Yeah, well, we both have met him before, so that was nice. But there’s something really light and bright about Danny, and I think it’s because he’s done the inner work at looking at parts of himself that, you know, don’t really bring a lot of joy and love to others or himself.

Alison: Right. And the book seems surprisingly simple and light. And then as you keep reading it, you realize, oh, I’m really getting something. Like I read a couple of the segments to Brady and I thought, listen to this. And he’s like, oh, mom, that’s great. Like it’s it seems like, um, like light in a way, in the very beginning. And then all of a sudden you’re in it and you’re like, wow, this is very powerful stuff. I really I can relate to so much of this. Yeah.

Jean: I think for me, one of one of the great things is that wherever you are in your thinking process, this book will meet you there.

Alison: Yes. That’s great.

Jean: You know, whether you’re like a longtime student of Self-inquiry and self, you know, awareness or you’re just starting to go, why is my life so, so hard?

Alison: Yeah.

Jean: So wherever you are, it’s a beautiful book.

Alison: You’re you’re batting a million today with your with your things.

Jean: look at you with your great questions.

Alison: I got a good question because I thought, God the pressure I’m not going to, I’m not even going to be nice anymore. Too much pressure, right. Um, well thank you. We hope we hope you go out. And buy, “The way of the wave”, because it’s just it’s really fun. It’s really great.

Jean: It’s a beautiful book. Thank you. Danny. Thank you. And thank you, listeners.

Alison: And thank you, Jean.

Jean: And thank you Allison.

Alison: Okay, bye.

Podcast Episode 63: Julie Kramer

Julie was introduced to core shamanism in 2000, which enabled her to begin cultivating direct relationships with compassionate helping spirits using the practice of shamanic journeying. Julie is passionate about training committed practitioners as a way to contribute to the restoration of spiritual healing to its rightful place alongside Western and Eastern Medicine; Energy Medicine; psychiatry and psychotherapy; and hands-on healing. What distinguishes Julie’s orientation is her emphasis on spiritual healing as a catalyst for personal and collective evolution.

Learn more at juliemkramer.com

Transcript

Alison : Okay. Here we are.

Jean : Here we are. Back in my closet.

Alison : That’s right. I love it here. I’m going to live here. And you’re not even going to know, okay?

Jean : And you’re doing your home right now.

Alison : Yes. We’re redoing our home. A little bits and pieces of our house that needed to be done because our sink cracked in a hole. And who wants to live with that? Not me.

Jean : It’s going to be beautiful.

Alison : It’s going to be so lovely. And I realize, my child Em, was saying, mom, you’re veering towards cool colors and the house has warm colors. And I thought, I think Emma is correct. So that was a very interesting talk with that fantastic person. Um, but it’s been wonderful. And every day is a little like Christmas.

Jean : That’s great.

Alison : You’re like, oh look, a faucet came, you know? But it’s fun and it’s nice to it’s nice to even just like, you know, some of the stuff is just paint being done, which is fantastic.

Jean : And it’s a great time to, uh, spruce up your home. It’s springtime. There’s going to be a feeling of newness and beautiful colors, so I know it’s going to be gorgeous.

Alison : I can’t wait for you to see it all. So today…

Jean : Yeah.

Alison : I’m excited.

Jean : I am too. You know, we’ve never interviewed a shaman.

Alison : No.

Jean : Yes.

Alison : And I’m not. I personally am not fully aware, of until now when I was reading on it, what a shaman was? And, um, yeah, I think it’s going to be very interesting. Her name is Julie Kramer, and she is just she’s a shamanic healer.

Jean : She also teaches people how to become shamanic healers.

Alison : Right.

Jean : And, um, I thought she, like her wife, speaks, speaks so beautifully. Listening to her is really, um, beautiful. She’s got a gorgeous command of the English language, and she pronounces everything so beautifully. Well, actually, my husband Alex would have been very impressed with with how Julie speaks. But anyway….

Alison : I think we speak very much like that.

Jean : Yeah.

Alison : But aside from how wonderfully she sounds vocally, she’s very I think it’s going to be very, very interesting to speak to someone that that does this as, um, a calling.

Jean : Yeah. And here again, is that being a bridge between the physical world and the spirit world. So I’m so looking forward to this.

Alison : And so here’s Julie.

Julie: Then suddenly there you are. And it’s so delightful.

Alison : It’s so nice to meet you. I’m Allison.

Jean : And I’m Jean.

Julie: Lovely to meet you both. Thank you for inviting me to have this conversation with you today.

Alison : You are so interesting.

Julie: Oh.

Jean : I’ve read and listened about you for the past few days, and, um, I was really looking forward to meeting you, Julie. And, you know, I, I, I don’t know that much about shamanism. And, um, when I think of the word, I think of, um, like South American people from indigenous countries and healing like in that… And now I look at you and, and, um, and I think, wow, that’s so great that you embarked on this path and are teaching people how to become a shaman.

Julie: Thank you. And I think that would be a wonderful topic to explore. Not by any means to direct you, because of course, I understand that it needs to feel organic and alive for you, but simply to say that it’s a topic I’m more than happy to speak on, because I think there there is a common misapprehension, and people often appreciate hearing my perspective on that.

Alison : We would love.

Julie: Yeah.

Alison : Yeah, but what is what is a shaman and what is what is um, shamanic practices. And then specifically you’re, you’re a you’re a healer.

Julie: Yes. Oh. Are we actually starting our conversation?

Alison : Welcome to us.

Julie: Oh, I apologize. Normally there’s, you know, the lighting check and the sound check.

Alison : And we’re..

Jean : we’re Right out the gate and sort of like it fresh and very conversational, almost like we’re, well, we are girl, women friends having a fun conversation. That brings it down to…

Alison : I think you’re used to Tami– being like, you know, because it’s so she’s so wonderful. But for us, it’s just sort of like, hey, hi… You know, let’s do it…so…

Julie:  wonderful.

Julie: Well, then why don’t I begin by answering the questions that you’ve posed. And so, Jean, first to acknowledge what you were saying a moment ago, yes… I think people do often associate shamans, shamanic practices, shamanic rituals, and so forth with indigenous peoples and communities, I think worldwide. And so oftentimes that’s a narrower perspective because in actual fact there are many more people practicing shamanism, including those lovely people. And what I would say about that, is that, thankfully, there are still lineages of shamans within indigenous contexts, within specific cultural contexts that remain intact. And how beautiful that that remains the case. May that continue to be the case. And interestingly, of course, many people in recent decades have studied shamans and shamanism within many of those different cultural contexts. And there are certain commonalities that have been found to be true. And therein lies I think the reason that you’re wondering about this, and perhaps the explanation for a person like me. So one of the commonalities that shamans worldwide share is being called by the spirit world. And interestingly, although there are still and may there continue to be indigenous shamans or shamans practicing within a specific cultural context, who perhaps also had living teachers, a grandmother or grandfather or aunt or uncle or mother or father or someone outside of their family, but within their community.

Speaker4: Interestingly, not all shamans currently or historically have had living teachers. And so what shamans actually all have in common universally, whether or not they ever had or will ever have a living teacher is being called by spirit, and that call comes from the spirits directly through a variety of means. And so this is how we often hear about people talking about shamanic initiations or even dark nights of the soul. So in other words, the call from spirit can come through messages, it can come through joyful synchronicities, and it can come through illnesses or diseases that can come through near-death experiences. It can come through trauma. And so I represent those folks out there who didn’t have a mother or father or grandmother or grandfather or community member who recognized my affinity for this spirit world as a young person, necessarily…. But I had, by way of a series of synchronicities, the opportunity to learn how to journey at a relatively young age in my 20s, and I met my helping spirit straight away, and that set me off on this course. And subsequently, I did have the great, good fortune of working with two living teachers, Sandra Ingerman and Betsy Bergstrom. So I’ve had a combination, but not since childhood. That all started to happen for me in my early adulthood.

Alison : That’s that’s beautiful. So for you, when you say a calling. Mhm. Um, can you, can you just tell me what that feels like? It sounds very exciting.

Julie: Well, I will say in my case it was quite subtle. It was at first such a personal sense of homecoming because when I first learned how to journey, which is the means by which I contact the helping spirit. So I talk about entering into natural trance states. So using drumming and rattling, I have my rattle right here. And what science has shown us is that when we expose ourselves to continuous percussion, so rattling or drumming as two examples, our brainwave activity changes and we enter into a natural trance state. So without needing to ingest anything, such as a mind altering substance, I can just pick up my rattle right now and enter into a trance state. So support my consciousness as it shifts from a beta state to an alpha state to a theta state, which is more of an expansive state. When we become more, I would say, perceptually aware. And by that what I mean is we’re perceiving the helping spirits from that state or in that state, but they’re with us all the time. And so it isn’t as though they suddenly appear when we’re in that state, but rather that we become aware of their presence, which we may not always be paying attention to in our day to day lives. And so when I first became introduced to journeying and met my helping spirits, there was such a personal sense of homecoming.

Julie: But it was not at all in my awareness or consciousness that this could become my career. The fact that I’ve made a career out of this has been a delightful surprise to me. That has been very organic over time. But if you had told the young Julie, the young 26 year old Julie, that now at the age of almost 52, I would be talking to the two of you about this work and teaching practitioners and teaching teachers, i would not have believed a word you said. So I think for me it’s been less dramatic. Oh. Pardon me, Jean, I think for me it’s been less dramatic, although certainly there are stories of people through illness, as I said, through trauma, through near-death experiences and so forth. I would say that part of my biographical experience, especially as a child, I think helped me hone my sensitivity and hone my compassion, and those things have helped me immensely in my role. But I wasn’t someone who had a lot of experiences with the spirit world. A lot of dramatic experiences with the spirit world. As a child, it was a little bit more quiet for me.

Alison : Lovely.

Jean : Yeah. That’s so beautiful. And Julie, do you notice, um, you call them your helping guides? I love that term. Can you tap into them? Like, if you’re at a store and you’re… And you’re thinking, oh, I need to get this person or or do you have to do a more ritualistic, um, quest for that or, you know, a process? Yeah.

Julie: Yes. Well, I.

Jean : And just sorry, Julie, and because it’s right on the tip. Have they changed over time? Are your helping guides the same ones that you tuned into early on? Early versus now?

Julie: If I may, I’ll start by answering that question. Some of them are the same as all that time ago. It was in 2000 that I first learned how to journey, and I immediately contacted my helping spirits. So there was an immediate sense of connection, belonging, homecoming, familiarity. I would say, of course, I, I feel in my cosmology I was meeting helping spirits with whom I’ve had affiliations over lifetimes. And so that sense of familiarity was predicated upon our shared history, and many of them have endured. So those I met initially, many of them still remain with me. I’ve met more subsequently, and they are long standing relationships that keep deepening, that keep unfolding, much like a marriage, much like a deep, beloved friendship. You continue to learn things about each other, and you continue to learn things about yourself in relationship with the other. And so I continued to discover things about my helping spirits. It feels as though there’s still an enormous amount to discover, even after, in some cases, 25 years of being in relationship with some of them. In a conscious way, in this lifetime as an adult.

Alison : It might be semantics, but our guardian angels guiding spirits.

Julie: Well, I was going to say I used these terms interchangeably helping spirits, helping guides, guardian angels, although they’re very well, maybe people who consider the term guardian angel to be specific to the presence of angelic beings. I would consider angelic beings to be helping spirits, but they’re their own category. They’re angelic beings. Um, but to me, they could all be included under the broad umbrella of Spirit guides or Spirit Helpers or compassionate helping spirits. I use all of those terms interchangeably, including guardian angels.

Alison : And is it when you say that you met your your your friendly guiding spirit early on? Is it like, um, is it an awareness? Is it do you hear a voice or is it a visual?

Julie: Um.

Alison : What is that? You know.

Julie: Yes. Of course. Yes. So when we rattle or drum and catalyze, if you will, or generate if you will, a trance state. As I mentioned before, our perception widens. So it’s an expanded state of consciousness. And what we become aware of are these subtleties. So I would say that we exist within a multidimensional reality, that reality is far more nuanced and mysterious than just the physical world. What we can see and touch and feel with our physical senses and those subtler pathways of perception open when we’re in a trance state, and then we are able, we begin, pardon me, to be able to perceive what lies in the invisible realms. So with another dimensions or spectrums of reality. And so in a way, this answers both of your questions. I can see you both on the screen and and feel you feel our heart connection and feel your warmth and openness to me and to this topic, and at the same time, with what I would describe as my subtle perceptions, i can perceive my helping spirit. So I have one who’s always to my left and one who’s always to my right, and one who’s always behind me. And I can feel them and see them with what I would describe as my inner sight, which we could also say is clairvoyance.

Julie: So being able to see clearly,  clear seeing or clairvoyance in the dark, if you will, in the invisible realm. So for me, these realities are interpenetrating. So I’m here in my physical body, and my helping spirits are right next to me in their non-physical bodies, but they’re in their forms. And so I can see them. I can feel or sense them. I can hear them when I talk to them and they talk to me. So we dialogue. So it feels probably the simplest way of explaining it would be it feels telepathic, the actual communication, and that would be clairaudience. And so that’s when you’re hearing them speak to you. So it’s the subtle version of the auditory sense, just as clairvoyance is the subtle version of site. So each of the physical senses has that subtle correlate so we can journey into or send our awareness into these other dimensions of reality that have their own landscapes and their own resources, and that are rich and fascinating and endless. And that’s where the helping spirits reside, if you will. And then we can experience them, and they show themselves to us in their forms. And so angelic beings will have wings, and there are animal spirits who are helping spirits. So I have a bear who’s always right behind me, a very tall brown bear who’s always behind me as a protector for me.

Julie: And the two helping spirits. To my left and right are my former brother and father from another lifetime. And so they take those forms, although I would argue that those are costumes they put on for our benefit, just as these forms are the costumes that we’re wearing now. I think our spirits are beyond form and transcend and include all of the forms that we take in our different lifetimes. But in answer to your question, Jean, when I’m out in the world at the grocery store or whatever, I can simply turn my attention towards them and thus perceive them because they’re always there. And so it really depends on where my attention lies. But part of my practice and part of what I teach is what would it be like if we were in a continuous relationship with our helping spirits, if we were in continuous contact with them? So if I’m answering an email instead of the answer coming from just my mind, if you will, or even my heart to check in with the helping spirits and ask, how shall I respond to this? What’s needed here? What’s the message? What’s the response? What should my posture be? How can I support this person? So I involve my helping spirits in even small decisions throughout the day.  I mean, maybe not to the extent that I’m saying. What kind of yogurt should I buy at the grocery store? But Tami and I did once ask my helping spirits about a movie recommendation, because we were trying to decide what movie to go to. And my one of my helping spirits said, what do I look like? Siskel and Ebert. So that was the last time I asked for a movie recommendation. But I do consult with them, and that’s part of what I teach, is what would it be like if we were in constant communication, constant connection? And when we are, we look out. I know you can’t see what I’m seeing, but I’m looking into my garden and I can see the ocean from here. I’m in Vancouver, British Columbia, and everything takes on this quality of aliveness because you’re beginning to experience the spirit that animates all of reality. And so everything starts to take on this quality of radiance and aliveness and intelligence and beauty. And then you walk through the world so differently. Other people begin to take on that luminosity as well. And so everything becomes so wakeful, and that’s a very different way of walking through the world.

Jean : Very much so. That’s so beautiful, julie.

Jean : Can can anyone learn to be a shaman?

Julie: I believe anyone can learn to be in relationship with their helping spirits. I believe literally anyone can. There is no special prerequisite or special gift you need to have. I think it’s wired into our DNA. Even if some of us come from ancestral lineages where there may no longer be intact lineages of shamans or healers or medicine people who work in partnership with the spirit world, all of our ancestors did. And so part of what’s been so beautiful for me has been to meet helping spirits who were my ancestors, who have taught me how they worked at the times when they lived. And of course, we can understand lots of different reasons why certain more esoteric practices might have needed to go underground or be hidden, or why certain lineages came to an end, and with them the wisdom and knowledge that was contained within that lineage. And so part of what I am very interested in is how do we access all of the wisdom from the different lineages that we belong to? Because all of us have either recent or distant ancestors who practiced divination and healing and partnership with the spirit world, which is what shamanism is. And so that’s something that I’m very passionate about. And the beginning point is let’s first learn how to contact our helping spirits. Let’s learn how easy it is. Let’s learn how available and accessible they are. Let’s take this out of the realm of romanticization or sensationalisation. This is available to everyone. That’s why I said a moment ago it’s in all of our DNA, because all of our ancestors had ways of entering into trance state, sometimes with  plant, spirit medicine, pardon me. And sometimes using the means that I’m describing for being in communion with the spirit world. And so to me, that’s alive inside of us.

Julie: And it’s less a question of teaching people as it is helping them remember. So I would say that’s the beginning. And then for me, the term shaman is a spiritual honorific. And I wouldn’t I wouldn’t self-proclaim as a shaman. That’s a term that I feel is bestowed upon one, perhaps by the members of one’s community in recognition of your gifts as a healer and how you’re working in partnership with the spirit world to bring about healing and well-being in the community that you serve. And so that’s classically how that term is held. I love saying I’m a shamanic practitioner or a shamanic healer. I would say equally, I’m a spiritual healer. To me, those terms are also interchangeable. But being called by a spirit to serve as a healer requires its own training. And that’s where people often experience a call of some kind that initiates them into the possibility that there is such a thing as spiritual illness and the remedy spiritual healing. And so I do train people to become shamanic practitioners, and that’s become the focus of my work. It’s been that way since 2012, that I train people to become shamanic practitioners who feel they’ve been called by spirit to offer healing to others. But and I love teaching beginners, and so I also devote a certain amount of my time to teaching basic introductory workshops that are three days long, some in person and some remote to teach anyone how to journey and how to begin to form a relationship with their own helping spirits. Because I just love helping people connect with their helping spirits and recognize their existence and begin to live in partnership with them and in relationship with them. It’s so immensely enriching for people. So I love to do that.

Alison : You have a phrase on your website, “Ennobling the Heart.” And when I when I first saw that, it took my breath away a little bit because I’ve never heard those words together. And I was interested to see, um, I would like to discuss that a little bit with you. What is that? What is that for you?

Julie: Yes. Well, the ennobling of the heart, that turn of phrase, came from my helping spirit to describe what happens in my long term trainings. What I’ve observed happens to my students as they form relationships with their helping spirits, and as they become more clear about who they are and what their gifts are and what the medicine is that they carry, and who the helping spirits are, who are devoted to their wellbeing and to their unfolding and their evolution. And I believe everyone has a purpose in life, and I feel that everyone can become ennobled by way of discovering their purpose and embracing it and sharing their beautiful gifts in the world, whatever those are. And for me, in training practitioners, there’s of course, the aspects of the training that are more practical, skills based. I want to teach certain processes and certain practices that these practitioners will eventually offer their own clients. But I also want to train practitioners who carry this work in the world with integrity and with dignity and with humility. I want to train practitioners to become ennobled. And to me, that speaks to the spiritual evolution that happens when you work with helping spirits who have a quality of consciousness that’s truthfully higher than ours, that we can meet and experience when we journey.

Julie: And that lifts us up, that raises our vibration. And it’s interesting because I’ve never been in one of my own trainings, of course, I only ever have the vantage point of being the facilitator or the teacher, and so I can’t know what it’s like to be on the receiving end of all of these practices and rituals that we do, all of which came from my own teachers, Sandra Ingerman and Betsy Bergstrom, or came from my own helping spirit. So I’m synthesizing what I learned from my teachers, plus sharing what what I would say has been spirit taught, what the helping spirits have taught me directly, but I’ve never been on the receiving end of it, i’m always observing what happens to my students as they go through these processes, and they just become more and more radiant and more and more clear and more and more purposeful and more and more devoted to their path of service. And it’s just so gorgeous to bear witness to. And so calling my work in this path the ennobling of the heart, as I say on my website, this is my love letter to my students.

Alison : Beautiful. Could I ask, though, also, um, when we transition, can we become a guiding spirit?

Julie: Yes, yes. So many of us have ancestors, such as someone you might have known earlier in your life, who has since passed away and who has crossed over who’s now a helping spirit or a guardian angel, if you will. Yes, absolutely. And sometimes it can be a more distant ancestor. So someone you didn’t know in your lifetime, maybe your great great great grandmother, but who still a helping spirit for you. So it can be either or you can have a pet who passed away earlier in your life. I do myself, Tami and I both do. Our beloved cocker spaniel who lived to be almost 17. She’s a helping spirit now for both of us, and so she’s one of our allies that we have in common and that we check in with very often.

Alison : I find that so comforting. Yeah, there’s something comforting about that, that, that there’s, um, that we’re all part of it. And that I could be your helping spirit next time around. Or my my, my kid maybe was my helping spirit a while ago like that’s very moving to me.

Julie: Yes. Well, and I think what you’re speaking to is so important and why I’m so passionate about teaching people how to journey, because we never walk in the world alone again.

Jean : Yeah, yeah.

Julie: And I think we often feel alone in our lives. And of course, post pandemic I think is more of life has become virtual, there’s at once a way in which that’s enabling us to have this conversation and how wonderful, and maybe it couldn’t occur otherwise. And so I’m so grateful and reliant upon technology and appreciative of it. And at the same time, of course, many people report not feeling as connected and feeling more isolated, and that there is more of a sense of dislocation. And the ways in which we’re connecting may not feel quite as meaningful. And so it’s a time when I feel that it’s especially crucial for us to be aware of all of the love and support around us. I mean, I just mentioned three of my helping spirits to my left and right and behind, but I have dozens of helping spirits and to walk in the world with all of that love and care and comfort and especially with loved ones that have passed away. But also, as I said, even with helping spirits that we didn’t share this lifetime with, but that we’ve shared other lifetimes with, there can still be a tremendous relationship and sense of connection. And that’s such an emphasis in my work that we don’t have to be alone. In fact, we’re never alone. Our helping spirits are with us, whether we’re aware of them or not. So imagine if we decided to become aware of them, how much richer our lives would be. They’re there anyway. It’s a resource that we’re that we’re underutilizing. I would say it’s like a bank account you didn’t know that you had. And then you suddenly discover, you know, you’re a millionaire, little did you know, but you are, and it’s so enriching.

Jean : And I think that’s so what we need now. And I think the absence of acknowledging the spirit side of our self is, is really what we’re being asked to bring forth. And, um, and I think trainings like what you’re offering, Julie, are so important so that we as we navigate this very chaotic time, that we know that we have angels and guides and helpers that can, can kind of nudge us and, um, but it takes a little bit of it takes time, you know, like you have to slow down your, your for me anyway, i have to like, slow down my life a little bit and make time for that relationship.

Alison : Mhm.

Julie: Mhm.

Jean : Are you doing any like what are you teaching now. Do you have classes.., are you um. Is that all up in British Columbia or…

Julie: No not not all. Some online. I’m in the midst of leading a series of introductory workshops. So those are three days in length. And there’s one coming up in May in British Columbia. There’s one in June in Colorado. Let’s see, there’s one in June in Ontario, Canada. And then in July I’m teaching one virtually. And I have people who join from all over the United States and Canada, from Europe. And some people, bless them, try to join from the Southern hemisphere, although it’s very tricky in terms of the time difference. Yeah. But I am starting a new training program in September. So these introductory workshops are. Stand alone workshops for total beginners. So no prerequisite. Anybody and everybody is welcome. And so they they are complete unto themselves. And they also serve as the prerequisite for my year long program, which starts in September. And that’s a blended learning program. So combining two in-person retreats with a virtual curriculum in between. And those two retreats do happen up here in British Columbia, although I have students from all over, but that model works well even for people who live further afield, because you come to British Columbia at the start of the program and then you come at the end, and it’s a year long program, and then everything in between is virtual, and we meet very regularly in between, and it’s a very, very structured program. So that’s my level one program for people who feel called to work with spirits in order to offer healing in their communities. So that’s the practitioner training program level one.

Alison : That’s great. Can we talk a little bit about the healing? You know, so many times I feel inundated by, you know, um, symptoms being taken care of, like sort of reactionary medicine or Western medicine and what, what what is your take on that and what do you do differently or the same?

Julie: Um, yes. So I would say that the type of healing work that I practice and teach is never intended to be a substitute for Western medicine or psychiatric medicine or any other healing modality, but rather to complement those other healing modalities. And interestingly, whenever we just look through one lens, we often miss things. And so if I were just looking at a symptom or a cluster of symptoms through the lens of Western medicine, i might miss things. I might miss, for example, psychological issues if I’m not also looking through a psychological lens. Similarly with spiritual healing, if you’re only looking through that lens, you very well may find things, no question, but you might also miss things. And so what I’m interested in is helping this work become restored as a credible healing modality that functions alongside all of the other healing modalities that we’re used to, including the ones that, you know, might have been a little bit less mainstream 30 years ago, like acupuncture or energy medicine, but have now become quite commonplace…. Like, it’s not that uncommon for someone to say, I’m dealing with a Covid diagnosis and I’m working with my medical doctor, but I’m also getting acupuncture and I’m also seeing my energy medicine healer.

Julie: You know, that’s quite common nowadays. So in my ideal world it would become just as normal for someone to say, and I’m working with a shamanic practitioner. And so what we do is explore the spiritual causes of illness and or the possibility that spiritual disharmonies or imbalances can exacerbate illnesses. And this is where sometimes, if we’re looking through the lens of Western medicine or we’re looking through the lens of psychology or psychiatry, again, we may find things, but are we getting to the root of it? And oftentimes people end up in my office or in the offices of my students because they’ve tried everything else. And lo and behold, but there’s something in the way of a spiritual imbalance or illness that was never detected simply because they weren’t looking through that lens, and now there’s a reason for some of or maybe all of what they’ve been experiencing. And so what that means is that we’re working directly with the helping spirits to actually diagnose the presence of spiritual illness. And so shall I give an example, because I realize that’s a little abstract and I want to make it more practical?

Alison : I’ve never heard that term spiritual spiritual illness.

Julie: Mhm. Yeah. So I, I use the terms spiritual illness or shamanic illness interchangeably. What they both point to is are there causes of illness that are spiritual in nature and that can result in or contribute to or exacerbate symptoms, physical symptoms, emotional or psychological symptoms? And yes, I understand that in and of itself can be quite a paradigm shift for people. But I think it also makes a lot of intuitive sense. Shall I give you an example?

Alison : Okay.

Julie: So let’s see what example shall I give? Well this is the example that’s coming up. So I’m going to follow that. So a common form of spiritual illness is possession illness. And that would be if someone, let’s say, there are very many different possible scenarios in which this can take place, but a common one, let’s say that a young father passes away while his children are still very young. And because of his profound love for his children, because of his concern for their well-being, because of his desire to protect them and care for them at the time of his death, he doesn’t cross over successfully. I would say he doesn’t go to the Light. He stays here and he does so out of love and devotion for his children and becomes attached to one of his children. Now, let’s say that he was dying from a disease process that unfolded gradually over time. Believe it or not, I know this can sound quite startling, but that person that he becomes attached to, not necessarily right away, but in the fullness of time, could actually begin to develop some of the same symptoms that their father had that were part of the illness that killed their father.

Julie: So if those symptoms began to present and that person, let’s say they’re now an adult, and they go to the doctor and try to figure this out, there actually is no physical cause, what’s happening is that their dear father who’s become attached to them, his presence is coming forward, His symptoms are presenting. His thoughts could be too,  his worries, could be to his anxieties about his children, could be too. So that young person who grows into adulthood with their father, they’re intending to be a loving presence could actually be an overshadowing presence whose anxiety could be felt by the child who’s now an adult as their own, whose worry could now be felt by that person as their own, and who could even develop physical symptoms that wouldn’t have a physical explanation. And so the diagnosis then would be, the practitioner would hear all of what the person is experiencing… Like, I can’t resolve my anxiety. I can’t resolve my worry. I’m just in this chronic state of worry and anxiety. I’m having pain in different places in my body that I can’t explain. And so then the practitioner would enter into a natural trance state, and they would contact their helping spirits and ask for diagnosis.

Julie: And the diagnosis would be, there’s this spirit who’s become attached to his child, who’s now an adult. But he never left this realm. He never left this world. So his spiritual evolution is being impeded by his being here instead of continuing to evolve. But also his now adult child is experiencing the burden of all that he was carrying when he died. And that’s not serving either of them. He’s not actually a helping spirit for his now adult child. He’s not a guardian angel for them, he’s a burden to them, even though that was never his intention. So the healing is to help decouple the father from the child and help the father go to the light finally, and then have the child experience in their adult selves for the first time since their father died. What is it like to be the sole occupant of their body and of their energy field? Because up until that time, from the time their father died, until the time this was detected, there had been two souls in one body. And for the the host, if you will, in this case, the adult child, you don’t even necessarily know…. Very often you have no idea. There’s a whole other set of proclivities, of opinions, of memories, of dreams, of desires, of experiences, of worries, of anxieties, and sometimes of symptoms that belong to the other person, and that was a part of their life ,and how their life ended is it has nothing to do with you and your biography and who you are and what you’re becoming. But those two things become completely enmeshed. So then there’s a decoupling process, and the father is then helped to go to the light, and then the adult child can look at who they are now. And will there be resolution? Will the worry resolve? Will the anxiety resolve? Or maybe they’re a little prone to worry and anxiety too, just like their father was. But now it’s gone from a nine out of ten to a two out of ten, or now it’s commensurate with their circumstances because, of course, being worried and having anxiety is normal and natural in response to certain stressors or triggers. Now, the level of worry or anxiety is commensurate with what’s actually happening instead of always being heightened. And so I know that was a complex explanation, but it’s very, very, very common because when people die, they’re often so afraid of death, or they’re afraid of punishment, they’re afraid of purgatory, they’re afraid of hell, they’re afraid of of being blamed or not being received or not being forgiven, or they’re attached. They’re staying here trying to protect us from harm. And so it can be so well meant, but not helpful for the person who’s dead or for the person who’s still living.

Alison : You know, what you say resonates with me with the idea of generational trauma. You know that, because that’s a term that comes up a lot. And I think we’ve even talked to some people about that. And so that’s so interesting that, um, to, to to see it with what you’re saying from your lens of uh, of, of of on the soul level.

Julie: Yes.

Alison : Um, are you Do you are a teacher or are you still a practitioner now?

Julie: I don’t I don’t provide individual healing sessions anymore because I’ve now trained 100 practitioners who have completed three full years of training. And so my role is to lift them up and to send people to them. And oftentimes, people who resonate with me resonate with my students because we resonate with each other and we’re in community together and they’ve learned from me and they’ve often studied with my teachers as well, who both still teach. And so it’s kind of all in the family, I would say, but I certainly welcome people reaching out to me for referrals. And then what I do is refer people to my students. But if I may, to go back to what you said, yes, this is one of the, in my opinion, very significant contributors to generational trauma that is not widely understood. For example, to use a different thread or to talk about a different thread generational addiction. And so let’s also imagine we’ll use the same storyline. Let’s imagine the father struggled with alcoholism and that that was not resolved for him at the time of his death. Well, if he becomes attached to his adult child, who may also genetically now have that predisposition, when his child has a drink, he gets a little bit of a hit from that.

Alison : Mhm.

Julie: And so he can exacerbate his child’s propensity to become addicted to alcohol because he could influence him to want to drink more. So these patterns of addiction, yes, patterns of trauma wounding etc., can be so greatly exacerbated by we call them suffering beings. Those spirits of people who have died, who become attached to the living and who just need our care and love and support to help them go to the light and the care of the helping spirits, to welcome them to the light, no matter who they are and what they’ve done.  I’ve facilitated, I can’t even tell you how many hundreds of compassionate depositions, which is the remedy for possession illness. Every time whoever the person is who’s died and become attached to a living person, whoever they are, whatever they’ve done or whatever they’ve not done, every time, without exception, they are welcomed with open arms by the helping spirits and by their own ancestors who have died. And so there’s no one who gets turned away, even though that’s often the reason that at the time of death, people are afraid to go to the light because they think they’re going to be turned away or punished.

Jean : Oh, that makes so much sense.

Alison : Yeah,

Jean : Especially if you were raised in a religion of, um, you know, fire and brimstone and the devil and all of that and guilt and, and so that deep seated guilt and fear…. It makes sense why they’re just like, no, I’m not going. And, yes, um, you know, you have to sort of coax that spirit lovingly to release. And the way you talk about it, Julie is so loving and compassionate. You know, it’s, um, you know, it’s really honoring everyone’s journey whether you have a body or not. You know, it’s it’s that movement towards the light, towards freedom. Um.

Alison : You’re so gentle.

Jean : Yeah.

Julie: Thank you.

Alison : You’re so gentle. I could just listen to you for ever.

Julie: Oh, that’s so kind. Thank you.

Jean : Your voice is very soothing.

Alison : Yeah.

Julie:  thank you.

Alison : Yeah. We have two wrap up questions.

Julie: Yes.

Alison : The first one is, what do you. Our podcast is called Inside Wink. And what do you think? Inside wink means.

Julie: Mhm.

Alison : You.

Julie: Yes. So for me it’s that luminosity that I was describing before which I feel is our natural state as humans. My teacher, Betsy Bergstrom, who taught me compassion deposition and taught me how to care for those beautiful spirits in need as though they are living clients, to treat them equally with just as much care. She also taught me this beautiful practice for working with our heart lights and helping our heart lights shine and twinkle. And to me, that’s that inner or inside wink is that sparkliness or twinkling ness that I think is actually our human natural state. But we’ve become a little defended, unfortunately.

Alison : Yeah. That’s beautiful. And and I think I definitely see that in you. Like, you have such an easy laugh and such a, you know, it’s it’s it’s great. It’s great.

Julie: Thank you.

Alison : Best question.

Jean : Okay. So our last question is do you prefer cake pie or ice cream.

Julie: Definitely ice cream. Chocolate, please. Preferably with hot fudge sauce and whipped cream, but no cherry on top.

Jean : On american Airlines- this is not a plug for American Airlines, but they do offer sometimes a sundae.

Alison : That’s so funny.

Jean :  and they ask, do you want vanilla, chocolate, sauce, cherries???  So, um.

Alison : Anyway, I love how definite you are.

Julie: Yes.

Alison : You’re very human. Definite.

Julie: So it’s my favorite dessert. Yes. So my. I’ve placed that order many times.

Alison : You know it. You know it by rote.

Julie: Exactly.

Julie: Thank you so, so much for joining us. You’ve shed light on something that I think is so interesting.

Jean : Yeah.

Alison : And beautiful. And I feel very open. So thank you so much.

Jean : Yeah. You really have illuminated my mind around shamanism and, uh, and I’m very intrigued by this topic. So thank you. Yes. Thank you so much. Many blessings.

Julie: Well, and many blessings to you both. And thank you so much for your open heartedness and your generosity and inviting me to join you and have this lovely conversation with you. Thank you.

Alison : Have a beautiful day.

Julie: You too.

Jean : Bye, Julie.

Julie: Bye bye.

Alison : Okay. That was wonderful, wasn’t it?

Jean : She was wonderful. Yeah.

Alison : Wonderful. Wonderful explanations. And then guess what happened? We saw a quail outside.

Jean : I’m going to have to find you a quail.

Alison : I loved that, though. It was like. It was like a perfect guiding spirit. They were so cute hanging out.

Jean : You know what I thought of another question I wanted to ask her what, um, and had to do with animals because  i also think shamanism… Shamanism has to do with spirit animals. And I wanted to talk to her.

Alison : She did mention that because she mentioned she had that bear. Yeah, which I love that.

Jean : But that is a field that I know very little about. And yet I feel like being a shaman is like being an oracle or being a mystic, or maybe like a witch back in the you know, it’s just connecting to spirit world.

Alison : And I think, I think too it also resonates with like Lorna Byrne talking about talking to angels. Yes. That we’ve spoken to so many of these things. Every time we have an interview, I realize it’s all so interconnected and that it that brings me peace. Like nothing is like, um. Oh, what are you talking about? Oh, you know, it’s not like someone’s talking about football, you know? They’re all so interconnected. And when we meet these people, they are radiant. Mhm.

Jean : She was, she has a lot of light and joy.

Alison : Really amazing. And it made me feel very comforted and also very relaxed. Her voice.

Jean : Yeah. She had a beautiful voice. But again there It shows to you know, it’s we’re not alone. We have spirit guides and helpers, whatever the word is… You know, people, let’s not get caught up in angel or guide, ascended master, an ancestor.

Alison : Friend.

Jean : Friend. Yeah.

Alison : Husband. Partner. Yeah. Uh, friend. I mean, that’s the thing, I think. I think it is just about love and opening up. It’s an opening up as opposed to a closing in.

Jean : Yeah.

Alison : Do you know? Which is so nice. Okay, I got to go look for the quail now again. Okay, okay. Have a good day.

Jean : Bye

Podcast Episode 62: Leon Logothetis

Leon Logothetis is a renowned keynote speaker, an acclaimed author and a TV personality who ignites positive change by unleashing the boundless power of kindness. He talks with Jean and Alison about his incredible movie – The Kindness Within: A Journey To Freedom that chronicles his soul-stirring adventure to find the meaning of life.

Transcript

Jean : Well, we’re back in my closet again.

Alison : That’s right. It’s so nice in here, though.

Jean : It really is not.

Alison : It is. It’s. It’s so nice.

Jean : All right.

Alison : How are you?

Jean : I’m good. How are you doing?

Alison : I’m very, very well. Matthew’s visiting.

Jean : He is. And I’m having a great time. And what’s so nice is I love waking up and seeing him in the kitchen in the morning, and he’s making his coffee, and he’s like… And he doesn’t say hi. He gives me a little whistle.

Alison : I love that.

Jean : It’s sweet.

Alison : Your kids are great.

Jean : yes, so as are yours.

Alison : Yes. We’re very lucky. Um, and they’re kind people.

Jean : They are kind. And what a great segue into the guest that we are talking with today.

Alison : Ah, the platform that we’re on, mind, body, spirit suggested that we talk to Leon Logothetis and he is called the kindness Guy because he’s written so many books on kindness, and he has a beautiful story about all this.

Jean : Yeah. And I think it’s very relatable. Um, just about that inner void, that despair that so many people feel. I know I have felt it many times in my life and how to emerge from it.

Alison : Yeah. I can’t wait to talk to him because he’s had incredible journeys, he’s done incredible things. He’s traveled across country on $5 a day and met people. He’s done the same in Europe. He got a yellow motorcycle and went all over.  You know, he’s just, um, he goes on these adventures.

Jean : And he meets such incredible people that share their wisdom. And you know what makes them feel, yay! inside or inspired… So this is going to be great. I’m really looking forward to it.

Alison : And here comes Leon.

Leon: Hey, guys.

Alison : Hi, there.

Jean : Hi, Leon.

Leon: How are you?

Alison : Very good. How are you?

Leon: I’m good. Where are you?

Alison : We’re in LA. Where are you?

Leon: I’m in LA. Where in LA are you?

Jean : We are in Studio City.

Leon: I am just off Laurel and Mulholland.

Jean : Oh, wow.

Alison : All right, we’re driving up.

Leon: You’re more than welcome to come.

Jean : I live off of Fryman Canyon.

Leon: Oh, wow. Okay, great. I’ve probably passed your house many times.

Jean : Do you ever do the hike?

Leon: All the time.

Jean : Oh, wow. All right, well, let’s look for each other next time.

Leon: Or we can arrange to do a hike.

Jean : Or we can do even better. Even better.

Alison : You are actually passing Jean’s house when you do the hike.

Leon: Okay. Wow. Okay.

Alison : There you go. It’s great. We’re so happy to, um, to talk to you because I’ve heard about you for so many years, being the kindness guy…. And yet your newest movie, The Kindness Within, was so different. The beginning really was so… It was,  like we both just started crying right off the bat. That was so… Could you talk to our audience a little bit about, um how you started your whole process being, “the kindness guy and how it lead to being a movie?

Leon: Sure, absolutely. Uh, so is this live? Oh, you’re recording it?

Jean : Oh, we’re recording it.

Leon: Okay. All right. Okay. Um, so, yeah, I — The kindness within –  a journey to freedom.” Um, basically, as you know, I used to be a broker, And, uh, that was many years ago. And I quit my job and I started to travel the world relying on kindness. And that’s when I did the Kindness Diaries. Um, and I did all the things that kind of made me into the kindness guy, right? Externally. Made me into the kindness guy. Um, and you’d mentioned that The Kindness within was very different to the Kindness Diaries. Right. So The Kindness Diaries was about me traveling around the world on a vintage yellow motorbike. Um, relying entirely on the kindness of strangers. And it was kind of the happy go lucky side of me. Right. Which is is still, you know, it’s who I am. Partially. Um, but the Kindness within was kind of a deeper version of me, and it’s it’s another version of me, but it’s still me. So I ended up, um, writing a I was in my house in in Hollywood, not far from where you guys live. Actually, let probably less like a mile than less than a mile and a half from where you live. Yeah. That’s funny. Um, that you probably pass every day when you go over Laurel Canyon, to be honest. Um, and I found myself writing a suicide note, and I was in a really terrible place, obviously. Um, but I found the courage to pick up the phone and call my therapist at a random hour. It was, like, 11:00 at night. Because sometimes dark nights of the soul don’t happen on schedule. Right, right. Um.

Jean : or in just one night.

Leon: Yeah. Yeah, exactly. So I called him, and he helped me immeasurably. Uh, obviously, I put down the note, um, and the next morning, I find myself at the Mystic Bookshop in Venice Beach when it used to be on Abbot Kinney. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I absolutely loved that bookshop specifically before it moved to to Main Street, but it was just a magical place. So I went there, I guess, to get some comfort. Right? And I randomly saw Yogananda’s book, autobiography of a Yogi. Now, I’d seen that book many, many times before, but I’d never picked it up. And for some reason I did. And I randomly opened it to a page and I randomly opened what looked at a specific paragraph. And in it he says to a soon to be guru, if you reveal God to me, I will follow you anywhere. And I had an epiphany. I was like, okay, I’m going to India to find God. And I’m not necessarily talking about the God that lives up in the sky with the big white beard. Talking about the universal energy of love, source, spirit, whatever word you want to use. Right. Um, and that’s where the journey of the film begins.

Jean : Yeah. Mhm. Yeah.

Alison : It’s, uh, it was so, um, I felt exactly like you. And so it was so close to me. And yet your journey… I’ve never done anything like that. So it was so interesting to feel connected to you and yet so different on that journey, how how did you change, like during that time? Because it’s only 90 minutes that you get to see. I wish the film was longer. Are you completely, are you are you a different person now? Like, I would think that sort of journey would have completely changed a person for the good.

Leon: Yes. Uh, look, the person that left India and the person that sits before you today is definitely different in many, many ways, right? Um, less in my mind, more in my heart, um, more connected emotionally and spiritually. Again, that doesn’t mean that it was a panacea to get on a plane and go to India, find God, and. Oh, okay. All right then. Everything’s fine now. That’s that’s not the way it worked for me. You know, I still have bad days. Yesterday was one of them. Uh, today is better. Um, but it’s a it’s a process, right? It’s like an an unraveling that gets us to where we ultimately want to be. And I think I’m on that that journey still. The movie helped immeasurably. I think actually, what actually helped in some weird way more than Doing the actual adventure. Although, of course, that’s really important was the editing process, because I had to watch all of these amazing people that I met and all of their wisdom again and again and again and again and again until it became part of who I am. So the first moment of the experience was great, don’t get me wrong, but this the moment of editing and the repetition, the good repetition. Because sometimes you can have bad repetition. Just turn on the news. Yeah. Um, but the good repetition stays with you, right?

Alison : Yeah.

Jean : It it really is about retraining our mind. And then as you first started sharing, leaving the mind and moving into the heart.

Alison : Mm.

Jean : And living your life from that. And and, you know, in this day and age, it’s, it’s really challenging because there’s so much out there that vies for our attention. And, and we, we sort of lose that the place of and I say holiness as in nothing’s lacking. Everything is beauty and perfect, whole and complete. Do you, um, do you have and and to your point also, Leon, it is a that’s I think why they call it a spiritual practice, because it’s just not like you do this once and I’m good. I’m done. You know, it’s it’s like brushing your teeth or vacuuming your rug. You know it… It’s something we have to dedicate our attention to is our inner world. Do you have a practice that you can that you can share with us, that you that helps ground you into your heart.

Leon: Sure. Um, so one of the things that I do, and I made a conscious decision many years ago, was to try my best and to commit to living from a place of love and from a place of compassion and generosity. Now, do I do that perfectly? No. But I have committed to it. So when I mess up, I’m like, okay, you made a commitment to live a certain way. I don’t think doing what you just did was probably the best thing to do. So you have to get back on the wagon, right? Okay. Um, when it comes to. So that’s like the macro thing, which is really important. You know, some people make a commitment and then there’s nothing wrong with this. Some people make a commitment to make as much money as they want. Great. Some people make a commitment to create a magnificent family. Great. I just made a commitment early on to live from this place to the best of my ability. Okay. Um, and from a micro perspective. Look, there are two things that I do every day that help me a lot. And the first thing you’ve heard many, many times, and that’s simply that I meditate. I don’t necessarily meditate just in one specific way. Sometimes I meditate with with no music, with nothing. Sometimes I’ll meditate with, um, a specific chanting song, sometimes I meditate with…. However I do it, I do that right. And I’ve done that for a long time, and that that helps. But I will say something else, which I do, which I think is, has helped me immeasurably. I keep using the word immeasurably for some reason. I have no idea why, but whatever.

Jean : It’s a great word.

Alison : It’s excellent. Yeah.

Leon: Is that I use music to regulate my nervous system and I do it very consciously. So, for example, if I’m having a moment, it’s not pleasant. For whatever reason, I will go through my playlist and I will find a song that will calm me down in that moment, and I will listen to it on repeat. I may have to listen to it on repeat for an hour. I may it may only take 15 minutes. And then it really kind of balances me and and calms down my nervous system. And it’s not always the same song. It could be a different song. Could be…. Sometimes I need an EDM song, right? Sometimes I need a very peaceful, calm piano song, whatever it is. But it’s something so simple. Next time you find yourself in a not such a great place, right? Obviously you can use music as well for when you are in a great place, but let’s say for not, you’re not in such a great place. Go through your list, find a song and listen to it for as long as you can for you to rebalance yourself. So, for example, I may be at like 95% anxiety, which is a very bad place to be. But if I listen to this song for 45 minutes, whatever song it is, I could go down to 50% just by doing that. Yeah, and it’s something easy that anyone can do, but it has to be on repeat.

Jean : Right, right, right.

Alison : Not just once.

Leon: Not just once.

Alison : Yeah.

Leon: As long as it takes to get you rebalanced.

Alison : That’s really interesting.

Jean : I think the same way..

Alison : My son does that… I think Brady does… I think my, I think my son does that because he’ll listen and listen and listen. And then I’m like, what were you listening to? He goes, oh, I’m just you know, I was getting into it for an hour, but it’s over. And then he’ll move on to something. I’m going to ask him. That’s really interesting. Leon.

Leon: Yeah.

Jean : Yeah – music absolutely has that power for me as well… Um, and I’ll listen to.

Alison : That’s really interesting.

Jean : Yeah, it it is. And I and I forget that. And thank you so much for reminding me about that because I love music and I, I just think the same ruminating the same thoughts, the same thoughts. And then I’ll catch myself and I’ll say, why do I feel so not inspired, or a little agitated or whatever the word, whatever I’m feeling, and then I’ll listen or I’ll hear something and I feel so much better.

Alison : It’s very smart.  Can you, can we just…. Okay, so—- what’s God?  Let’s just do it, Leon.  Let’s just do it. Come on.

Leon: Oh, wow. Um. Well, look what I noticed or what I realized in the movie in my trip around India was that you can’t explain God. You have to feel it. Right. So I think that’s a good starting point. So whatever I say to you is probably not going to answer the question, because it’s a feeling that comes from within you. Right, but I’ll try my best.

Alison : Great.

Leon: And I’ll tell you what. God is for me.

Alison : Okay.

Leon: Okay. It’s the universal energy of love. And it’s a vibration, a vibrational experience that once you’ve had it, you never forget it. And, it has to be felt. You can read the Koran, you can read the Bible, you can read every religious text in the world. But if you think you’re going to get to God through your mind, you’ll never stop reading because it will never happen. I don’t know. Did that answer your question?

Alison : That’s really great. And then on top of that, in in the movie, you say at one point, um, and the people you met are unbelievable. And I just fell in love with all the people. But at one point you say, um, I, I see I think he was a Buddhist because you’re talking about not there is no God. And you say, I see that you are God. So if you saw that he was God, didn’t you already know God?

Leon: That’s an excellent question. And the answer is, yes. Right. We can have moments of that and not be as connected enough to be able to have it guide our lives. Right. And maybe that’s where I was. And in the movie, that’s really no one’s ever pointed that out. But it’s a very, very good point– in the movie, i think it’s very close to that scene, and I want to give away the moment, but it’s very close to that scene where I’m walking and I say with the voiceover, I say, I felt like I was a breath away from God. So what I mean by that is that each person I met got me closer and closer and closer. So in that moment with the Buddhist, I had met God, but I wasn’t aware of it at.

Jean : Right, right. So when we when that movie was over, Allison looked at me and she said that she, she said that very quote to me… We were sitting right over there, and I said, I said yes. I said, because when you spot it, you got it.

Leon: Mm. Mhm.

Jean :  Right. So, so in my um my belief is, is that the universe is a is our outer world is reflecting back to us. Right. So if I see you. Wow. Leon, you have something… You have this quality that I’m that I desire. You know, it’s like if I, if I see it in you, it is already in me. And we’re removing the blocks to that awareness.

Leon: Yes. That’s that’s beautiful.

Jean : There are so many The way in my training with A Course in Miracles is through forgiveness because we judge ourselves. So the judgment is, I’m not that-  I’m judging myself, right. And then someone comes along and gives that back to us. And you say that too Leon, the greatest gift we can give another is, is to help, another to be seen, and that fuels them… So we are in this together.

Alison : Yeah.

Jean : We are. We are co-creating our entire life experience. And and your movie is exquisite in showing that it. We were so taken with your movie.

Alison : Do you think that then your kindness books you had met God… You had that… Is the beginning. The beginning of like you’re on the elevator. You’re on the ground floor there, because if you have come to the idea that for you is that feeling of connectedness and love. Did you feel that during your travels?

Leon: Look, I absolutely did feel it. Did I feel it the same way that I feel it now? No I didn’t. And I was on the elevator floor at the beginning and on the ground floor with the Kindness diaries. Right. And all the stuff I had done. And I think this was something, something different. And that’s why, as we started the podcast, you mentioned these are two different things.

Alison : Yeah.

Jean : And that’s because the first one or yes, the happy go lucky guy, but the first one was really the ground floor and it was like an unraveling, uh, as the as well. Let’s hope the elevator doesn’t unravel. We’ll use another analogy. Yeah, it was like a, you know, the elevator going slowly, slowly further up, further up being more connected. More connected.

Alison : Right.

Alison : And you, you seem right now so open and so loving. We’re living in a very, um, distinct time where I think some of it there’s a perception of cruelty. So how do you keep your heart from being pained?

Leon: Yeah, that’s a very good question. And I am aware of what’s going on. It’s highly troubling. I’m a student of history, and I see patterns, and there is a lot of cruelty. Um. How do I keep my heart clean? The truth is, I don’t watch the news.

Alison : Yeah.

Leon: People always tell me things. They tell me things. But I don’t watch the news. Because when I turn on the news, it’s. Sometimes it feels like I’ve been punched in the stomach.

Alison : Yeah.

Leon: You know, the level of the level of what is going on out there and not just what’s going on out there from the top, but the people that are allowing it to go on and the people that are…. How do I say this? Egging it on. And, i don’t want to call them minions, but I can’t think of anything else. The minions, I would say to those people, go to Auschwitz. Go to Auschwitz. Because when we live in a world devoid of empathy, that’s what happens. And if you go to Auschwitz, it it changes you at a cellular level. Look at history. It’s interesting… I don’t talk about geopolitics, i don’t talk about politics. But because I’m a student of history. When I see people doing what they do, it just drives me insane.

Alison : Yeah.  It’s it’s truly, truly heartbreaking. And my, my father was, um, a journalist, and his whole mission was a mission of good and finding out and, and I think now he’s passed away and I think now we live in such a world. I don’t know that he could recognize or what you’re saying… He would recognize it so vividly that it would break. Really just break his heart. And, um, I have a child that came out as non-binary, and I have to say, I feel frightened for that child. And, um, I love them with my whole heart. And I think people make a snap judgment on how they present. And so I found your movie so hopeful. Um, do you what do you find hopeful besides music and meditation? Is there is there actually, um, a place or a person or something that you kind of gravitate to? Because I showed your movie to my family because I just wanted to stay in that sort of feeling. Is there anything like that for you?

Leon: Look, there’s a lot of hope out there, right? We can look at the darkness, but there’s still hope. Like in the Second World War, there was a lot of darkness, right? But there was also a lot of hope. And ultimately hope won.

Alison : like what, though? Like what? When you say that, like, what can you. Can you tell me what your referencing.

Leon: Conversations like what we’re having right now.

Alison : Gotcha.

Leon: Uh, books that espouse love and books that espouse resolving these types of issues that are going on right now. Podcasts. Um, lots of things. There’s lots of hope.

Alison : It makes me feel good.

Leon: Let’s not forget that there’s lots of hope. We watch the news and we think there’s no hope. But there is a lot of hope.

Jean : Yeah.  There is. I think you’re being a light in the world when you when you hold the door open for someone, when you’re when you appreciate a friend or you reach out, you know- that I think we’re all I think there’s so much hope and and we’re really asked to turn the gas up.

Alison : Yeah.

Leon: Do you know what people do.. mistakenly?  They take those who have an open heart and a kind, and they look at them as if they’re weak. Right. Okay. And they think, oh, you know, because you have an open heart and because you’re kind. Um, we can walk all over you. I would say to those people, remember Muhammad Ali. Yeah. And I’m really saying this to us. I and the people that are listening. Muhammad Ali was a man of love. A man of kindness. A man of service. Not a perfect man. No one is. How many of you would mess with Muhammad Ali?

Alison : Right?

Leon: So when people take our kindness and compassion and generosity as weakness, I would say to them, there is a line that I would suggest you do not cross. I will be kind. I will be compassionate, and I will be loving. But don’t see that as weakness, because I assure you it isn’t.

Jean : Mhm. Yeah.  It’s like…do you know the author Anita Moorjani?

Leon: I’ve heard of her.

Jean : She had a near-death experience and it’s amazing… And she’s amazing. And she wrote a new book called sensitive is the new strong.

Leon: Okay.

Jean : And it is about our sensitive nature, our vulnerability. Much like yourself, Leon, a man that is really,  you’re being very open and vulnerable with your journey and and going, you know, this happened and – and the power of and – and I was able to move through it and and be of ultimate service –like your your film your books are, are truly of service and your talks.

Alison : And what I like about you is you seem like a tough nut.

Leon: Do you know what? Yeah. I mean —.

Alison : Like, in the best sense …Like, you’re not, you’re not like, you’re very different than, um, than someone that typically, you know, you just, you know, you you don’t seem like you take a lot of guff and it doesn’t seem like… And it seems like you just want to get to the point, which I really, I really Enjoy.

Leon: Thank you.

Alison :  do you think, like, what’s next for you? Do you think like like, are you going to go along this path or like where where where is your heart and mind taking you?

Leon: So remember the scene in Rishikesh when I was sitting opposite NandiniG at the statue of Shiva, right? And I sat there and I said to her, I said many things, but one of the things I said to her is, look, you have what I want. You clearly have what I want. How on earth do I get that? And she turned around and she says, don’t do, just be. And it was so profound in the moment. It was profound. But listening to it 500 times made it more profound. And I came to a realization with this movie that I was not going to do anything except focus on this movie and promote this movie. And when I knew when it came to me of what I was going to do next, I would know. So as it stands now, I have no idea.

Alison : I love that.

Leon: And I think that’s a beautiful thing. It’s a beautiful place to be.

Leon: Yeah, yeah.

Jean : It’s very fresh.

Leon: Yeah, it’s crazy right? It’s like. Because that wasn’t me. In the old days, I would doo doo doo doo doo doo doo. And I’m proud of the success, but I overdid it.

Alison : Yeah.

Leon: I really overdid it. I remember I once, and this sounds insane, but it actually happened. I did 47 speeches in 42 days whilst driving from LA to New York. That’s insane. And you wonder why I had a meltdown? Yeah, I was running away from the pain, even though I was teaching people to to face it. I myself was running from it.

Alison : Yeah, yeah.

Jean : Oh, and another great quote you say you offer in the movie. You say the kindest man has to start being kind to himself.

Leon: Yes.

Leon: Yeah. Yes.

Jean : So great.

Leon: Mhm.

Leon: That was a beautiful moment. That was a beautiful shot. The cinematographer did a great job there.

Jean : Yeah.

Alison : Well I wonder what would they get out of it?

Leon: I mean, they got a lot out of it.

Alison : Yeah.

Leon: The experiences I was having, they were having too.

Alison : Yeah. That’s so great.

Leon: The travel, the wise people, they were watching the edit as well. Right. They were having the same look. They had their own unique experience. Yeah, but they were there experiencing it all.

Jean : It shows how when you say yes to a project, you know, there’s there’s something so much bigger going on with the soul.

Alison : Yeah.

Jean : Like you’re a little human. So I’m going go and make a movie and I’ll sign up. Oh, I got a job. I’m going with this guy over to India. And meanwhile, your soul is is being transformed in in such a beautiful way.

Alison : What are you proudest of.

Leon: In my life? I’m proudest of my relationship with my partner. He is a magical human being. It took a long time to get to that.

Alison : That’s beautiful.

Leon: Yeah. Um. I’m proud of the movie. Immeasurably. Again, I use that word a lot. Yeah. Um, I’m. I’m proud of a lot of things. I’m proud of my relationship with my dog. He’s an, he’s an interesting fellow. He’s got an addiction to many things. Um, but he’s an interesting fellow. Um, I’m proud of a lot of things.

Alison : Yeah.

Jean : Good.

Alison : I love that the first thing you said was a connection…With another person, because I think it’s… That’s the stuff that, um. I think that ultimately that’s the stuff that soothes us and comforts us the most. So that’s really beautiful. Is your dog there?

Leon: He’s outside playing with the ball.

Alison : Oh good. Good on him. Yeah. You know, we normally end our podcast. The name of our podcast is Inside Wink, and we normally end by asking our interviewees, what do you think or what does it mean for you? The word inside wink?

Leon: Um. Being, I guess, Divinity.

Leon: Being a being aware of what we are. And sometimes it just takes a wink for us to wake up. And I’ll tell you a quick story about synchronicity or a wink, the divine wink, let’s call it. So this wasn’t in the movie. We tried desperately to put it in, but it just didn’t make any sense. We couldn’t do it. Um, but after 2 or 3 days in India, I wanted to give up. In fact, I did give up. I wanted to go home, and I was on my I was in a hotel in Rishikesh, up in the mountains, and I decided that that was it. It was finished after 2 or 3 days. So I was walking literally to my director’s room to tell him that I was going home. And I saw this door that was open on my way. I was like, that’s interesting. I’ll go in there. So I go in there and it’s a it’s like a little library inside this hotel. Not a particularly magnificent library, but whatever. There were 20 books, 30 books, whatever. And I walk in there, and I love books, obviously. And what do I find? Another of Paramahansa Yogananda’s books, this time called, The Divine Romance, which is all about finding God. That’s the entire book. So I said to myself, okay, I’m not going home.

Alison : Yeah.

Alison : That gives me chills.

Leon: Yeah, it was crazy, right? Literally, I was on my way to the room to go home.

Alison : Yeah, that is perfect.

Jean : What a great godwink for you to go. No. Turn it around.

Alison : You’ve got to do a director’s cut. You’ve got to release this stuff.

Leon: The problem, the problem. The reason why we didn’t do it is because obviously, there were no cameras. When I had that moment, and it was all happening inside me, so we ended up filming it after the fact. But it didn’t feel right.

Jean : No, no.

Alison : But I love that when everything. Just you just. It’s such a direct like, hello?

Leon: Exactly.

Jean : But but that was great. And we need those little taps on the shoulder. Yeah.

Leon: Absolutely.

Jean : Yeah. So true. Okay, so I’m going to ask our final question. Uh, what’s your favorite cake? Pie or ice cream?

Leon: Hmm.

Leon: Rice pudding.

Alison : Oh, that’s what we love.

Leon: I love my grandmother. Used to make rice puddings. We would go to her house every Sunday and she would have rice pudding for dessert. But she knew that we loved rice pudding, so she would leave them out in the kitchen. So the moment we walked in, we would go and, like, eat five rice puddings.

Alison : Oh, I love that. No one has said that. Yeah, yeah,

Jean : We. Have to add that to our list.

Alison :  We do. We definitely do.

Jean : Pie. Ice cream or rice pudding?

Alison : I would vote for that. You are such an interesting, wonderful human. And I’m so glad that you got to share this, this, this, this time with us, because… And I can’t wait to see what moves you next.

Leon: Well, thank you so much for having me. It means a lot.

Jean :  many blessings. You and your life is a beautiful blessing to countless people.

Alison : Yes.

Leon: Thank you.

Jean : Thank you.

Alison : Thank you. Have a great…we’ll See you on Fyrman.

Leon: Yes.

Alison : Bye.

Jean : Wow. I, I really felt very, um, akin to this man. You know, I felt he was, um, not pontificating yet, he was very wise. He’s sharing his his journey and had so much to offer and will continue.

Alison : I was just saying this to you though, but that reminds me of you in a way. Like, you know, you don’t pontificate and you’re very wise. And I just love when we’re able just to get into a conversation with somebody. Yeah. And what I like is, um, he just seemed like a regular guy in a hat.

Jean : Yes. And that’s what makes it so relatable. Yeah. And about. I think kindness is the answer. And I think we are being asked all the time now… Are you going to choose love and kindness, or are you going to choose fear and anger or and not that that has its place. You know, I don’t want to say that we should never be fearful or angry, because I certainly have my moments, But it’s, you know, the power really is in being kind and starting with ourselves.

Alison : I love that you say that. We’re being asked now. And I think that’s so true. I think, um, so many times within a day you can make, I, I can make a choice to be kind or just to be like a crab. And I’m really siding more towards laughing more and loving more, you know, and trying to be on that side of the fence, you know?

Jean : Yeah. I mean, because it just, it’s it’s contagious.

Alison : Mhm. Mhm. And his, his movie is just.

Jean : Oh I think it should be seen in schools.

Alison : Yeah. And the fact that the title says um, A Journey to Freedom.

Jean : I wanted to ask him about freedom, but we didn’t. But I was watching the clock also… And um, again, another great person that I could have spent the afternoon chit chatting with.

Alison : So please check out. Please check out his movie. Please go to his his website. It’s in our little blurb. His name is Leon. Leon Logothetis. So it’s just look how how you spell it. And just really, he has so many books out. He’s just he was a really wonderful. So we hope it inspired you.

Jean : Yeah. And we know you’re kind. We know that about you. And we are grateful for your listening to our podcast.

Alison : That’s right. Thank you so much. Have a have a beautiful day. Bye.

Jean : Bye.

Podcast Episode 61: Bill Burke

Bill Burke founded The Optimism Institute in 2022 after an extensive media and sports career as an executive, writer, and producer. Bill served as CEO of The Weather Channel Companies after several years at Time Warner/Turner Broadcasting System. Additionally, for fifteen years he was the co-owner and chairman of the Portland Sea Dogs, the double-A Minor League Baseball affiliate of the Boston Red Sox. As a writer, Bill co-authored Ted Turner’s top-10 New York Times Best-Selling autobiography Call Me Ted and later co-wrote/produced/directed “Live Another Day,” an award winning feature-length documentary on the bailout of the U.S. auto industry.

Bill hosts the podcast Blue Sky and hopes that the podcast and the The Optimism Institute inspire people to accept an optimistic, hopeful vision of the world and its future.

Learn more at https://www.theoptimisminstitute.com.

Transcript

Jean : Well. Good morning.

Alison : Hello. Here we are.

Jean : We haven’t done this in…

Alison : A little bit. Yeah. It’s been it’s going to be good today.

Jean : And I do love this man that we get to talk to.

Alison : I know I really do, because, uh, he his name is Bill Burke, and he is the founder of the Optimism Institute.

Jean : Right. Which was founded, he founded this in 2022.

Alison : And what else? Like what more do we need right now than optimism? Yeah. You know?

Jean : That is so true. And I think exactly the content that he’s trying to promote is what insidewink is doing too, right. Yeah. And he has a great podcast.

Alison : What’s it called. Do you know?

Jean : It’s. Yeah, it’s called the Blue Sky.

Alison : Oh that’s perfect. Yeah. I always hear everyone else’s names and I love them.

Jean : I know, but I love insidewink.

Alison : I do too

Jean : And I can’t wait to hear what he says when we ask him what it means..

Alison : Yeah, yeah. And what’s interesting to me is that he had, like a news and sports background, and then he decided that the world needed, um, some lifting up, maybe…

Jean : Right, I can’t wait to hear how he answers that when we ask him how he started.

Alison : Yeah, it’s going to be great. So we hope you enjoy it and stay optimistic through the entire interview.

Jean : Yes. Thank you.

Bill: How are you?

Jean : Hi, Bill.

Bill: I’m very good.

Alison : I’m Alison.

Jean : And I’m Jean.

Bill: Nice to meet you.

Jean : Oh, it’s great to meet you.

Alison : We are so happy that you that you agreed to do this. Because we love your whole your podcast and everything that’s with optimism.

Bill: Oh thank you, I appreciate that.

Jean : We’re so in alignment. Your mission statement and insight. Um. And I really enjoy your newsletter, Bill.

Bill: Oh, wow. Thank you. You’re very kind. Where are you two?

Alison : We’re in LA.

Bill: Whereabouts?

Alison : Uh, Studio city, where are you?

Bill: I’m in New York, but I lived out there off and on when I was much younger. And, uh, I asked because my my niece was in Pacific Palisades. She lost her home, and I know all that…. I always I worry about people out there because it’s a scary thing and it’s a tough time, but, uh.

Alison : We’re So sorry. And I guess that could be like our first question. How do you stay optimistic then?

Bill: Yeah, that’s a great question. Well, I think, um, for me, it’s a lot of things. One is that, um, life is difficult. It’s always been difficult. It always will be. And if we expect perfection, we’ll be disappointed. And, uh, it’s not, you know, will you have setbacks? It’s when you do, how do you respond to them? And, um, she’s a she’s a lucky one. She and her husband had good insurance, and they have the means to get back on their feet. It was a wild story, though. They were expecting their first child via surrogate, and the surrogate was up in Oregon. And they after their house burned down, they just hopped in a car and went to Oregon. And baby came early. And now they have a newborn. And my brother was able to help him find a place to live down in Newport Beach. And they’re going to start a new life with, you know, no, no material goods, but with a new baby. So, wow. Crazy stories. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. So I think, but I think it’s important to understand that these things happen. It’s a terrible, terrible, scary, awful thing. Um, these kind of disasters have been with us forever. One of the things that led me to this work is I’m a big history buff, and I think it’s really important to understand what things happening today in historical context. And, um, so, yeah, but it’s believe me, it’s a it’s a constant thing.  Optimism isn’t just handed to you or just doesn’t come naturally, and also you have to be realistic and empathetic and and look out for people. I also am a huge believer in, uh, Fred Rogers mother’s comment,  always look for the helpers. And I’ve been so inspired by the professional helpers in Los Angeles that I’m seeing the firefighters, obviously, and first responders, but just neighborhoods and people and small acts of kindness and big acts of kindness. To me, that’s what gets me going too, is just seeing how people come through these things and, and get to the other side.

Jean : So yeah, I love that you say that because it, it really, um, forces us to remember that every, you know, there’s a choice in every, every decision. And, um, and I think our bodies can signal to us when we’re choosing something that feels fearful and contracted or when we feel more expansive and generous with our lives.

Bill: Sure, I think that’s right. And you can can often see it in people’s body language. You know, the closed versus open and, um. Yeah, i think that’s right. I think I used to work with Ted Turner, and he, um, his father committed suicide. He lost his, uh, his younger sister prior to that. And it’s it’s a little it’s very direct. It’s the way he is. But he said a situation like that, you either break down or break out. And, um, he lived a lot of his life sort of trying to stay ahead of those things that had happened to him in the past. It’s not always the best way to cope with things. I believe in therapy and other things to help you. But, um, yeah, you always, every, every situation, life presents you with those choices I think.

Alison : You had a very strong television background and and I’m wondering like, how then did you decide to turn towards this? Because I’m so interested in that.

Bill: Well, I think for me, as you know too, this is a very accessible medium. Uh, you know, it’s the it’s the best thing and the worst thing about podcasting is anyone can do it. So there’s a lot of stuff out there. Um, but I knew I could do this quickly. Uh, you know, and get get going with this without needing, you know, to please the distribution masters of television. Um, and yeah, so it’s it’s very accessible. I love storytelling, I love, uh, meeting people and reaching out to people and learning their backgrounds. And so for me, um, this was a great way to do that. I also love audio. I grew up, uh, I was actually born in, in Michigan. My father was the general manager of a big radio station there..I listened to baseball on the radio and i love, I’ve always been fascinated by how audio entities like an NPR, like NPR has a sound. It’s this really strong branding device with no visuals. And, you know, how do they do that?

Jean : You mean like Netflix? Like when you hear the –boom boom (theme of Netflix sound)

Bill: Exactly. Exactly. Or, you know, if you hear the, if you listen to NPR and you hear the All Things Considered theme….Even even sometimes the cadence of the on air talent, you know, people make fun of it and I get it. But there’s a there’s a sound. You kind of know you’re listening to NPR, but yes, absolutely- the Netflix or the Taco Bell Bell or, um, you know, I just think I think audio is a really interesting medium.

Alison : Can I ask just a just a secondary about the about your television background?

Bill: Sure.

Alison : Um, I feel my both my parents were news reporters for the New York Daily News, and I feel– yeah, they they were great– and I’m just wondering, what is your thought about how the news has changed? Because I feel now that that really adds to the challenge of being optimistic..

Bill: 100 percenrt! Uh, what I described actually was just describing someone today, that the three biggest things I hear from people that lead to their pessimism these days, the big buckets are,  climate change and sort of eco anxiety, um, political division, polarization and news and social media. Yeah. And, and sort of how it pours gas on the first two things I just mentioned and things in general. Um, and I think maybe part of the reason I’m doing this is like a guilt trip, because I used to work in the, in that media business, less on the news side, but a little bit. Um, yeah and I think what’s happened is you have this proliferation of voices, so there are all these, you know, the Daily News used to have two competitors, probably -The Times and The Post, and now they have almost an infinite number. Right. Um, and with that, with those many voices, the loudest ones are the ones that get noticed. So I think news has always emphasized the exceptional and usually the negative, but now I think it’s it’s dialed up that much more. And then on top of that, I think it’s so omnipresent that it causes real problems for us. And so one of the things I talk about is what I describe as the paradox of modern optimism, which is there are many arguments to be made that there’s never been a better time to be alive than today, but there’s never been a harder time to be optimistic. So how do we square those two things? And on this, on the second part about it being hard to be optimistic, I think so much of that is on us because we allow it to happen to us. But it’s on these these providers of negativity, of algorithms that pull us down deeper and deeper, deeper into doom, um, alerts that we put on our phones that tell us every three minutes.

Bill: I was talking to someone last weekend who said, I cannot stop watching what’s going on in Washington, I just can’t. I feel like I need to know everything that’s going on. I said, well, I understand that, and I think there’s plenty of reasons to be to be concerned right now, but following it minute to minute through the course of the day is not doing yourself any favors. You’re not you’re not impacting what’s going on. You’re not. And if and by the way, if you just let it go and read the paper the next morning or got your fill in a half hour the next morning, you didn’t miss much. If you didn’t follow between 10 a.m. and 5 p.m. when you’re in your office. So, um, it’s a long winded answer to your question. I worry a lot about local news, and that business model is very challenged. And, um, I used to live in Maine. I was involved with trying to help the newspaper survive. That wound up being sold to a non profit. And, um, I think that’s important because, local news can use wire services, but the AP is not going to go to the Portland, Maine City Council meeting. And and local news is extremely important to a democracy. So very long answer to a simple question.

Alison : No, no, no, I completely agree that local news is very important and a little bit more straightforward, because they don’t really have a lot of time for people to discuss or pundits and that type of stuff.

Bill: Right.

Bill: Yeah. And I think, I think we tend to and I think this is a trend, we tend to focus more on national politics and government and what’s going on in Washington, and not as much as we used to in what’s going on locally. And frankly, when push comes to shove, that has a greater impact on your day to day life. What’s happening in your local government than what’s happening in Washington… And I think it’s we do ourselves a disservice to just watch everything that happens in the Capitol, and not so much what happens in our town.

Jean : Right, right.

Jean : But it’s so true. I mean, when there’s so much change going on, I think our natural instinct is to go, what’s happening out there? And, um, and you mentioned in, in one of your interviews that I heard was the scientific research that, uh, benefits someone that can hold on to an optimistic attitude. Can you talk about that for a little bit?

Bill: Yeah, it’s really important. I’m not I’m not a scientist or a doctor, but what I’ve read suggests that it optimists live significantly longer lives, and that’s partly because having an optimistic framework can lower blood pressure. A lot of these basic things that that lead us to getting ourselves into trouble health wise, um, it’s great for our mental health for reasons that I think are even more obvious. And I think that for me and my wife teases me, she said I’m more pleasant to be around since I started doing this work. When you spend your day, when you spend your day- i’ll take whatever I can get-  when you spend your day looking for positive things, you’re going to find them, you know?… It’s sort of like, if armed with a hammer, everything looks like a nail. If you’re looking for negativity, you’ll find it. But if you’re looking for good people and good deeds and positivity, it’s everywhere. The people ask me, how do you find all these guests for your podcast? That’s the easy part.  They’re Everywhere. They just don’t get the headlines.

Jean : Right, right.

Bill:  Those aren’t the stories that sell newspapers or get eyeballs to TV shows or social media. And so in my small way, I try to shed a light on that. And I think it’s good for our health. I know it’s good for our health. Um, and I think these things, um, have multiplying effects that if if you can see that and reward that and put a spotlight on that, that leads to more of that, if you can, um, be kind to people through the course of a day, if you’re in the checkout line and instead of being angry, say, how’s your day going? It’s like it’s an icebreaker. And all of a sudden they feel better. I feel better, um,— living in New York, I walk a lot, and I try to keep my earphones out and my phone in my pocket and just look around.

Alison : Yeah.

Bill: And you see way more goodness than than not, way more, it’s not even close.

Alison : Yeah.

Bill: Uh, and I love using New York as an example, too, because it sounds like you have a New York background.

Jean : We both do.

Bill: Oh, you both do.

Jean : Yeah…I’m from New York, and so is your office on Columbus Circle.

Bill: I’m in Columbus Circle. Yeah, I grew up in Westchester, out in Rye, and then, uh, have lived in Maine for the last 20 years. But my wife and I are splitting our time between Maine and New York. And as you know, people think New Yorkers are tough and mean and short and, you know, short with their temper and all those things. I find it’s just the opposite. They’re they’re they’re very direct, which it can be very refreshing, but some of the most approachable, kind, helpful, neighborly people anywhere, I think.

Alison : Um, I totally agree.

Bill: Yeah, right. It’s a it’s a funny stereotype, but it’s it’s not accurate in my in my experience.

Alison : Well, I think New Yorkers are I’m from the Bronx and I think New Yorkers are tough. And from here, people are always like a little, uh, when I first got here, my accent was a little stronger. But I have to say, i’ve had stuff happen on New York streets and a crowd will help you.

Bill: Exactly. I always say that if you walk around, you’ll see…. I walk near the park and you’ll see strangers coming up to pet strangers, dogs. And you’ll see someone drop something in the crosswalk, and five people go to help him, or a tourist is lost and her English isn’t very good, and three police officers and two passengers are trying to help him. Or two pedestrians. It you see it all the time and people are out and about. Um, LA, I love living in LA and I’ve certainly missed the climate,  um, but you spend more time in your car, you’re more you’re more insulated and isolated, I think, than you’re literally bumping into people and rubbing shoulders with people throughout most of much of your day. When you’re traveling around New York City, packed in a subway, walking down the street, it’s just different. But anyway, it just I just think they’re great people everywhere and good people everywhere- and we just the more we can focus on that and put spotlights on that and talk about that, the better off we’ll all be.

Jean : You know, Bill, that reminds me of this great quote. And, um, so it’s not my quote at all, and maybe you’ve heard of it, here’s the quote,  “focus on the good, and the good comes into focus.”

Bill: Ooh, I like it. I hadn’t heard.

Jean : I don’t know who said it.

Bill: Yeah, it’s true.

Jean : I think that’s exactly what you you’ve been saying.

Bill: Totally…yeah, It’s everywhere.

Alison : So what are some steps, especially right now in the world, uh, really concrete steps for someone to adopt your mindset?

Bill: Yeah. So I think, um, first, again, where we started is acknowledge that life’s going to be difficult. Life’s going to hand you setbacks. And there probably people listening right now who are facing a really intense, deep, you know, personal tragedy. So I’m very sympathetic to that. Um, and but in general, I think that, um, again, the biggest challenge we have today versus in the past,  is all the information that we take in. And so, what I try to encourage people to do, and I need to work on this myself, is limit your your social media use. Don’t sit in front of cable news all day and listen to people yell their hot takes and opinions. Um. Get outdoors. Look up. You know, get your exercise. Focus on ( I stole this from Stephen Covey)…. He talks about your,”circle of interest and your circle Of influence.” Yeah. And focus on your circle of influence. Your circle of interest is huge- it’s climate change, it’s government-  things that are important, but that, frankly, you don’t have a lot of influence over day to day. Um, if you focus on your circle of influence, you’ll actually have an influence. You’ll feel your own agency, you’ll make people’s lives around you better and your own. Um, and dabble in the in the circle of interest. Catch up on that with the morning newspaper. You mentioned the Daily News. I grew up, my parents would get the the New York Times.  Read the paper in the morning and you’d go to work– You work all day, and maybe you got the post of the Daily News on the on the commute home, and maybe you’d watch local news or Walter Cronkite or whatever, and then you’d repeat.

Bill: Today people are getting alerts on their phones and on their laptops, and and it’s just not healthy. We’re not wired to take all that in. So I think that’s that’s probably the biggest step. And then within social media, take a look at your feeds like clean them up. Like, if someone keeps popping up that doesn’t make you feel good- ask why are you following that person or why?.. And every time you like or forward, that’s a vote. And you’re they’re going to feed you more of it. I have experienced this when you clean up your feed and and share more positive stuff. The The algorithms can spin you up into goodness as just as they spin you down into the bad stuff. It it’s real. It’s a it’s a thing. So a lot of these things are on us. I’m not a huge fan of the business models of some of these social media platforms, but we kind of ask for some of it and we reward the wrong things. So those I think are the are the biggest things I’d recommend.

Alison : Thank you.

Jean : Yeah.

Jean : Uh, Bill, do you think there’s a difference between gratitude and optimism?

Bill: I think they’re different, but but compliment. I think gratitude feeds into optimism in a big way. So gratitude, I think, is being thankful for what you’ve have, what you’ve had. Um, and if you the more you can appreciate that, the more likely you are to expect good things to happen in the future as well. So I would define an optimist thinks that tomorrow will be better than today, and that they have a role to play in making it so. And you can you can think about tomorrow being better when you when you stop and appreciate all the things that have happened to you to this point. Okay. So I think I think they really do feed into each other in a big way. They’re different, but definitely complementary.

Jean : Yeah, I love that you said that.

Alison : That’s sort of perfect. Like when you’re talking about your niece, right? Like the fact that now they’re in a different place across the board, but.

Bill: Right.

Alison : So interesting that now they have a new baby, you know.

Bill: It’s just a different and a different appreciation. So one of the very worst things that happened in my life was we lost a different side of my family, different part of my family, we lost a niece to cancer before she turned 30. And it was brutal. Awful. Never get over it. But, you get through those things and have a sense of sense of empathy and concern, and when I know of someone who has cancer or a similar type of challenge, I approach it totally differently. I’m a better person for it. I would give anything for it to have not happened. But again, these things happen and it’s what you take from it and what you can grow, how you can grow from it- i think that is important. Um, and again, these awful things are going to happen, but it’s how do you how do you deal with how do you, um, take that into the future and try to make yourself a better person and help others? I remember this happened shortly… She passed shortly before the pandemic, and I remember when people were getting grief for wearing masks, and she’d had a type of cancer where she had bone marrow transplants so she’s incredibly vulnerable, we wore masks way before the pandemic…. You couldn’t get near her without a mask and gloves and everything else, and people get grief for it. And I thought to myself, you don’t know if they have someone at home who’s completely compromised. You don’t know anything about them or why they’re wearing masks. You know? Stop. You know.  You just get a different perspective. That that never leaves you, I think, and it can be a real positive.

Jean : Yeah.

Alison : Can you tell me, do you think it’s going to seem like such a weird question? Do you think there’s a place for pessimism?

Bill:  great question. I think there’s a… No. I think there’s a place for realism. I think there’s a place for, or– I see pessimism and more as sort of a frame of mind and a general worldview. And I don’t think there’s much of a place for that. I think there’s an absolute place for, again, realism, for knowing that bad things are going to happen, for being worried about. There are plenty of things to be worried about what’s going on in Washington right now, in my opinion. Um, but to then but to then let that spiral you into, oh, it’s always going to be bad. There’s nothing I can do about this when I, when the reason I’m doing this work. So we have kids now 28 and 30, and they have friends who will say, why would I have kids? The world’s going to end in 30 years.

Alison : Yes.

Bill: If you get to that point, then why bother with anything? Why not just keep driving the big car? Keep…. You know, don’t worry. Yeah. Climate change is happening. It’s. It’s a done deal. We’re screwed. You know, to me, the apathy comes from pessimism, not from optimism. Some people think, or if you’re optimist, you just sit around and just assume things are going to get better. I actually think it’s it’s the total opposite. If you’re a pessimist, you just sit around and just assume it’s going to keep getting worse. Why? Why bother? So, um, I don’t think there’s much place for pessimism, but I think there’s a there’s definitely a place for, you know, informed realism. And, and, you know, if you’re a leader of any organization, I think you have to be an optimist. But you you can’t say, hey, we’re starting this semiconductor company tomorrow, and in two years we’re going to be worth more than Nvidia. That’s stupid. No one’s going to listen to you.  That’s unrealistic.

Alison : Yeah

Bill:  You’re not being a pessimist, to say that we’re not going to be worth more than Nvidia in two years. But you’re being a rational optimist- is one of the terms that is often used. Um, hope that answers your question.

Alison : No, that was good. Thanks.

Jean :  Yeah, that was great. Um, I was curious. Do you have, like, a spiritual background to you, Bill, that you were raised in or something?

Bill: Yeah, yeah. I don’t talk about it much on the show, but I’m a Christian. I was raised, uh, my my father, my late father was Catholic. My mom’s Presbyterian. So I was raised, you know, with one, one part of the family went to Catholic mass and the other went to Presbyterian. But I believe there’s definitely a  higher being, and I believe, um, yeah… So I definitely have a religious framework. I don’t I don’t lead with it in my work. Um, but yes I do.

Jean : Yeah. And do you. And do you have a spirit like a a morning ritual?

Bill: Yes, I will read scripture. I’ll listen to it. I will, um, I often write down a couple of things I’m grateful for. I do some meditation. The name blue Sky for the podcast comes from the prompt that there’s there’s always blue sky above. Sometimes you have to get your head above the clouds to see it. So I do all that. I’m a morning person, so that’s my time to do all that sort of stuff. And then and then just try to live my day in ways that fulfill the things I thought about that morning as best I can, in a very imperfect way, but as best I can.

Alison : That’s that’s beautiful. You you do a talk on, um, uh, ROI?

Bill: Yes.

Alison : And I love that, uh, return on integrity. Can you tell me what you what you think integrity is and the importance of it?

Bill: Yeah. I think, um, that’s a great question. And, uh, yeah, I think integrity is, um, it’s as simple as doing what you say you’re going to do. Being honest, showing up, um, being transparent, being decent. And I was raised by a father, and then I have an uncle and aunt who were very successful, uh, business people who led with extreme integrity. My my late uncle was the CEO of Johnson and Johnson during the Tylenol crisis, where they were extremely transparent and and people thought they were destroying the brand because they pulled it off shelves to save their customers. And they put all the the reason it’s hard to open over-the-counter bottles is because of the Tylenol thing. And he winds up being getting the Presidential Medal of Freedom. And and I watched that happen as a high school kid. He’d call the house and talk to my dad, and they would commiserate and brainstorm and  so, so being around people… And then my father was was a very principled, successful guy in the media business and seeing,  i just thought that’s how people ran businesses. And I continue to think back to what we were talking about before. Most people who run businesses are really decent, law abiding, hardworking, good people. You don’t read about them. They make movies about Gordon Gekko and documentaries about Bernie Madoff, not the ones doing it the right way. And I think the vast, vast, vast majority of business leaders, big company and small, are good people trying to do the right thing. We just don’t hear about them enough. So return on integrity. I talk about these leaders who succeed not in spite of their integrity, but in large part because of it. And people want to work for honest people. They want to do business with honest people. And over time, that that wins out.

Alison : Yeah. See, that’s you know, I think right now we’re in a little bit of an integrity crisis.

Bill: Yes.

Alison : Because we’re being modeled Old, um, on many levels. Uh, you know, the opposite of integrity. Almost.

Bill: I agree.

Bill: I agree, yeah. And that and I get I bristle sometimes when people hold up certain people as these great business people successful this and and I don’t always see the evidence of that and I think, yeah, I think I think and that’s one of the things that leads to, to pessimism or disappointment these days is sort of, you know, where the role models, what are we what are we trying to model to young people? Um, and again, I think that’s that’s reason to continue to stay informed of what’s going on, but not be so obsessed with it. And use, use things you disagree with as a, as a teaching opportunity. If you’re raising kids or, you know, be honest about it. You know what? This isn’t okay. I don’t I don’t agree with talking to people that way. Don’t, you know, don’t take the bait. I interviewed a guy named Kevin Kelly who left me with all kinds of great wisdom and aphorisms… And one was, you don’t have to attend every argument you’re invited to. And I think there’s a tendency now where something happens,  that boy, I better have an opinion. I better lob it. I better get on Instagram and tweet about it, or get on Twitter and tweet about it. You know, and it’s just it’s not healthy. And a lot of us don’t know a lot about a lot of things that are going on. And yet we feel like we have to form that hot take opinion. It’s not it’s not a good way to live.

Alison : No.

Jean : I think this day and age is forcing us to be our own role model.

Bill: Yeah.

Jean : Like, you know, for our homes, our homes and then our communities, and then that mushrooms out.

Bill: Yeah, exactly.  It’s that circle of influence I again, I was I was shaped more by my dad and and close family than I was, you know, reading books about Abraham Lincoln or, you know, those those meant a lot to me… But day to day, what I saw were, were the people under, under the roof I was living in and, um, people I saw at Thanksgiving and Christmas time and that sort of thing… More than public figures, for sure.

Alison : And I think, I think even if you in your home don’t have that model, do you, do you agree that, um, when you move in an optimistic way or a kind way, it feels different than when you don’t? Like intuitively, you know, you know, I know when I, when I am at like my kids always make fun of me because I get to know the waiter and I’m chatting with…

Bill: Why not?

Alison : And yeah, I’m just wondering do you think that?

Bill: Oh yeah. You do feel better.  Um, I so I for a couple of years I ran the Weather Channel companies, and when I left, I was fortunate to leave on my own terms. So it’s sort of like you get to go to your own funeral, you know, you leave and people can write you notes and stuff. And I got a note from a person kind of junior in the organization who said, I really appreciated your leadership and I always appreciate how you said, “hi” to me in the cafeteria.

Alison : Wow.

Bill: I thought why wouldn’t I say, ” hi” to you in the cafeteria? But you realize, and I think that’s more expectation than reality. But maybe it’s reality. A lot of people in senior positions don’t say hi to people in junior positions. I can’t understand that. Um, but the guy thought to write that in a note to me. I’ve never forgotten it because I just thought, man. Um, yeah. So I think I think living your life that way, it makes you feel good. And you can tell this way, it makes other people feel good. Again, I mean, I’m in New York.., i go to this Whole Foods, it’s like crazy, and they’re checking out so fast and they’re and they’re great at what they’re doing, and you just and they have name tags and you’ll say, Jean, how’s your day going?

Alison : Yeah.

Bill: And it’s like they’ve been hit with a taser and then they smile and then they tell you, yeah, it’s been a little slow today, you know… But it’s better to be slow than be, you know, it’s just something. And it takes 10 seconds.

Jean : Yeah, it’s that connection.

Bill: It doesn’t take much.

Jean : Yeah.

Bill: And in jobs like that, usually you’re, you’re just catching grief, and so it’s a little thing… But you know, why not.

Alison : And you don’t realize the impact you’re having. Like you’re walking through the cafeteria, you’re just saying hi and you’re not realizing, you know, I think that’s I think that’s such a great thing.

Bill: Yeah. It’s simple.

Alison : Yeah. Very, very simple.

Jean : Bill, is your wife on board with all of your, uh, see the glass half full rather than half empty?

Bill: Yeah, she is.  I mean, she’s not doing this for her, for her living now, but she, um. Yeah, she is, no doubt. And, she’s just a really decent, good person. I mean, again, we and  I don’t want to…. And she rolls her eyes sometimes because she wants to make sure, you know, make sure people know you come home in a bad mood sometimes, i mean it’s not all, you know, rose colored glasses and everything. But no, she’s she’s definitely on board. And I think and it’s fun now because now that I’m doing this work, people will feed me ideas or stories. So she was reading an article yesterday in the New York Times Magazine. She’s like, oh, you got to talk to this person. It’s this guy who’s working with incarcerated youth and finding them employment and getting them back on their feet under them. And so, a couple of years ago, she would have read that and said, oh, this. You know, she might have shared it with me or but now it’s like, oh, you got to talk to this person. You know, we’re looking again looking for those stories, which is a great way to be.

Alison : Do you have any story just that you can tell us that’s really affected you in terms of maybe someone you’ve talked to or your own optimism where something has really– you did speak about your niece, which I think is beautiful, but anything that comes to mind.

Bill: Uh, yeah, I’ll keep names out of this one, but, well, I talk about the podcast. So I interviewed a gentleman named Kevin Adler who’s written a book called, When We Walk By, about the homeless crisis. And he, um, it’s very personal for him because he had an uncle who was schizophrenic who died on the streets. And, uh, and he was close to his uncle because he said somehow his uncle would remember his birthday and send him cards and come for Thanksgiving and stuff. Beautiful book. Wonderful person. And my sister, um, listens to all my episodes, and she said, I’m sending this one to so and so– and so and so is a dear friend of hers from college. And I said, well, why would you send it to her? She said, oh, you probably don’t know this, but she has a brother who’s been missing- schizophrenic on the streets, they believe, somewhere in Northern California. And she has time to listen to it because her mom’s in hospice and she’s at her mom’s bedside… A few days Later, come to find she has told her mom ,,I am, and by the way, this guy’s organization is called Miracle Messages and they help families find people through video. He’ll talk to homeless people to tell their stories on video. Anyway, tells her mom on her basically her dying days. I’m going to find your son. I’m going to find my brother. I found this organization. And by the way, this doesn’t have a totally happy ending. They haven’t found the brother, but she says this to her mom. A few days later, her mom passes and my sister sends me the obituary, which is beautiful story about this woman. And then at the end it says, in lieu of flowers, please consider a gift to, miracle messages. This is all within like ten days. Yeah, of my sister listening to this episode. I’ve connected Kevin with this woman and again, they haven’t found the brother. They may never, but I know that this episode helped her make a promise to her mom to try to find her brother. Her son. Her mom died with maybe a little bit more peace. I mean, it was one of those things where it’s like this little thing…. back to ripple effects.

Jean : Totally.

Bill: That’s one I know about. I don’t know if I’ve had any others that are quite that profound, but that’s what keeps me going. And again, putting a spotlight on a guy like Kevin, who has this incredible organization, wrote this beautiful book, does great things. Oh, another friend confided in me, goes, I’ve got a brother over in Spain, we’re not sure where he is?  What was the name of that organization? You know, so that makes getting up and going to work and working on these…

Alison : And you say it doesn’t have a happy ending, but, you know, I think that just the evolution of that seed growing.

Bill: Totally.

Alison : Yeah.

Bill: Yeah. Amazing.

Jean : Well, Bill, we’re we’re coming to sort of an end because we were trying to keep our podcast not so long because we, honestly could talk to you all day.

Bill: Thank you.

Jean : But, um, okay, so we have, uh, our two questions that we, we ask all of our guests..

Bill: Yes, yes.

Jean : Okay. What does insidewink mean to you?

Bill: When I heard the name, I just think of that moment when you’re with a friend or with someone and you know something, and they know something, and something is said or happens, and you just sort of look at each other and give each other that insideWink. I have a dear friend, uh, from college, and we could sit across a big classroom and something could happen…. We wouldn’t have to wink, we would just make eye contact and start laughing.

Jean : Yeah.

Bill: I mean, I can remember a time we both had to leave, came back, started laughing again, or my sister and I in church or something… So when I hear insidewink, that’s kind of what I think about.

Alison : It’s amazing how everyone we ask,  it reflects there…. It reflects them so beautifully. So that’s perfect. And then finally, probably the most important question ever- pie, cake or ice cream?

Bill: I love that question because if they’re each solo, it’s ice cream, If there’s pecan pie with ice cream ,I’m going there. But if it’s just if it’s just ice cream. I love ice cream.

Bill: So ice cream.

Alison : Do you have a favorite flavor?

Bill: Uh, I have all kinds– I don’t like, i’m not a, like, into the fruity, like strawberry raspberry. I like, uh, chocolate, uh, toffee. Even peanut butter on occasion. A lot of junk mixed in.

Alison : You’re making me hungry.

Bill: Ben Lewin’s in New York is my new favorite.

Alison : We have one right here. It’s so much trouble.

Bill: Yeah, exactly.

Bill: And they have pretty adventurous flavors, and they’re always as good as they sound.

Alison : Yeah.

Jean : Yes.

Alison : Thank you so much. We’ve enjoyed listening.

Bill: That was great. Thank you. Keep up the amazing work.

Jean : All the best to you.

Bill: You too. thanks for having me…

Alison :  bye.

Alison : I just liked how clear he was, and I like that he said, um, that his wife was like, make sure they know you come home in a good in a bad mood sometimes, you know?

Jean : That was. That was great. But, you know, I was thinking, even before we did the interview, to dedicate your life, like, okay, I’m just going to champion optimism. What a great way to focus on the good. I mean, when you and I do that, but I definitely have times when I don’t focus on the good. I mean, we do that for the podcast and I in general am positive, but to– I haven’t,  I don’t think I’ve taken it on as well as…

Alison : It was interesting that he was like, uh, my wife is on board, but it’s not what she does for work, because I realized it’s what he does for work.

Jean : Right, right.

Alison : Do you know? Yeah. It’s, um. And I love the name of it, you know, the the Optimism Institute, right? Like, he’s just very clear in his mission, which I like. And he’s so open and, you know, friendly and affable.  I really had so much fun today.

Jean : He was great. And he has wonderful people on his podcast. He puts out a new podcast every week. Wow. Um, and and the stories when I was flipping through it, they’re they’re beautiful. Yeah. So, um, if you have the time and you do listen to podcasts, obviously you do, because you’re listening to ours, but please check out..

Alison : The blue sky.

Jean : The blue sky.

Alison : And I think, um, I think too, the idea of the connections and the importance of connections and hearing the kindness. Um, when I was listening to his podcast, I was so taken with the fact that he’s right– there are many, many, many people doing good in the world, in small and large, and we just have to be open up to it.

Jean : Yeah, that’s for sure.

Alison : You know, so let’s all today choose to be one of those people.

Jean : Look for the good.

Alison : Look for the good. That’s right. And then share it.

Jean : Exactly.

Alison : Have a great day.

Jean : Bye bye.

Podcast Episode 60: Neale Donald Walsch

Neale Donald Walsch has written 40 books on contemporary spirituality and its practical application in everyday life, including nine books in the Conversations with God series, seven of which made the New York Times bestseller list. Book One remained on that list for 134 weeks. His titles have been translated into 37 languages and have been read by millions of people around the world.

Transcript

Jean : Check.

Alison : Check. All good. How are you doing on this rainy day?

Jean : I’m good. I’m really excited this morning.

Alison : Me too.

Jean : This is going to be so much fun. We’re talking to Neale Donald Walsch, who really had such a huge, um, phenomenal success back, like, in the early 90s. He wrote the Conversations with God series, and and that book really took off. And it shows… It shows how thirsty the world is for this topic.

Alison : Um, and I, you know, before I really realized how much all this resonates with me, I remember reading Conversations with God, and being like, oh, this is so cool.

Jean : Yeah.

Alison : You know, like, I just I loved it because it was so accessible, right? You know.

Jean : Right. So different from from a traditional, um, Catholic religion as you and I were raised.

Alison : Definitely. You know, there was no conduit. There was no in-between guy. Mhm. You know, there was no agent. Yeah. You know, so it was great. I can’t wait to I can’t wait to talk to him.

Jean : It’s going to be exciting.

Alison : Yeah. All right. Well here we go. Neale Donald Walsch.

Jean : Well, we are so happy to see someone that has made a huge impact on not only my life….

Neale: Not only my life, but what?

Jean : Uh, but in the lives of….

Neale: Why did you… Why did you stop like that?

Jean : You weren’t looking up, and I thought the audio was off.

Neale: Oh, no. I heard every single thing that you said, and you’d be in big trouble because my lawyer will be calling you in the morning.

Jean : Okay.  That’s a wonderful way to start off our podcast about love and God. Oh my gosh, Neale. This is really a treat.

Alison : Amazing. Thank you so much.

Neale: It’s lovely to be here with you guys. How can I be of service?

Alison : Well, I’m Allison

Jean : And I’m Jean, and and I don’t know, you probably don’t remember. I don’t want to speak for you, but I attended a workshop of yours in Sedona, Arizona, 20 years ago.

Neale: Yes. And I made a pass at you. And you, and you declined. So I’ll never forgive you.

Alison : Wow. You do remember,

Jean : You know. What can I say? But. But, uh, that was a that was a, you know, you really, uh, made my day and you’ve made my life. Your teachings have had, as I mentioned, a profound impact. And truly, Neale, whenever someone says, um, you know what started you, Jean, in,  on your path to spiritual and spirituality. I always say ,onversations with God by Neale Donald Walsch.

Neale: Your check is in the mail.

Jean : Okay.

Alison : I loved, uh, God talk. I too was so reading the minute it came out. Conversations with God and I have so many questions to ask about this-, in your belief and your idea and what you’re communicating, is that we are not separate from God. We are God. We are emanations of the divine. Am I correct?

Neale: That’s my understanding for sure.

Alison : And then I wonder, when we have a negative thought or something happens that brings up the anger or an emotion that isn’t like the pure love that God gives us? Is that also God?

Neale: Everything is God. There is nothing that in my understanding, there’s nothing that is not God. But here’s, uh, here’s the solution to what I used to call the God dilemma. You’re bringing up the God dilemma. Um, God has never required us to think a certain way or feel a certain way, or be a certain way, or do a certain thing. The greatest gift that God has given us, in my understanding, is free will. And, uh. And so, um, which is, by the way, the greatest gift we could give our own children not to dominate everything they think, say or do. Not to withhold our love if they do not think, say, or do what we imagine that they should think, say, or do. We never withhold our love from them. So, um, when we act in a way which is not divine, to answer your question directly, yes, that is part of God, because part of God is what we would call what you and I would call the imperfection, uh, of ourselves or of our actions, of our behaviors, of our thoughts, of our words. But you see, God sees nothing as imperfect. Let me give you an example that God gave me so I could understand, so that I could understand in my minuscule little mind.

Neale: God said to me, Neil, do you recall when you were in third grade and you were learning your multiplication tables. I said, yes, I do recall that. In fact, I remember failing the test. I didn’t pass the test. God said was was that was it perfect or imperfect that you didn’t pass the test? Well, in retrospect, it was perfect because it caused me to study harder and to ultimately learn my multiplication tables. I said, ah, so imperfection is perfection in the long run because, it leads you to your own improvement, or in the case of your life, to your own evolution. So the reason that it’s easy for me to say yes, even in our imperfection we are God, is that God wants for us to undergo the process by which we evolve and become the next grandest version of who we really are. Now, God could have, of course, created us that way to begin with. God could have…. Well, now that I think about it, he did create me that way.

Alison : That’s true. hahah

Neale: But not not very many of us have been created perfectly from the beginning. So. hahahaha

Alison : Everyone except you. That’s right. That’s right.  hahah

Jean : As it should be.

Alison : That’s right.

Jean : And it is, and always will be.

Alison : That  helps me because i too believe that everything is God and everything, and, um, and yet I know that as a human, I judge what I should be feeling and what I shouldn’t. So then I guess God says, well, until you grow out of it, even that judgment is perfect.

Neale: In the sense that it leads you in the wrong direction, You know, when I when I turned the wrong way on a one way street, it’s perfect that I did so because I learned the next time I come to that corner, do not turn left. It’s a one way street going right?

Alison : Right. Yeah.

Neale: So and I actually did that once in my life. I actually mistakenly turned literally turned the wrong way on a one way street. And the cars were coming at me and wondering, what in the hell was I doing driving against the whole flow of traffic. And of course, I pulled off to the side of the road as fast as I could, and then I managed to turn my car around, realizing, oh my God, you know…. But I can tell you that every time I came to that corner for the rest of my life, I never made a left turn because I realized, you know, that it’s a one way street. Going the other way.

Alison : Right.

Neale: So, um, I think that what God seeks and what God desires, yeah, it could be wrong about all of this, but my understanding is that what God desires is to not to simply create perfect human beings or perfect entities from the beginning, but to give each soul in the cosmos, of course, there are souls of all the other planets in the universe to grant each soul in the cosmos the gift of creating itself in the next grandest version of who it understands itself to be. Or, to put it more specifically, the gift of growth. To deny your own child the gift of growth would be to deny your own child the most wondrous feeling of fulfillment that life could give one. So, uh, this… I could be wrong about all of that, but that’s my understanding.

Alison : Yeah.

Jean : It’s beautiful. I think that also relates to how really, no one likes to be told what to do. And I mean, our parents do tell us what to do. And where is it that someone says, oh, okay, I’m going to do that. We seem to somehow want to learn the hard way or….

Neale: Well, I wouldn’t call it learning the hard way. I say we, I don’t think we somehow want to learn the hard way. I do think we somehow want to do it for ourselves, because I think intuitively we understand that learning or moving forward by experience is far more beneficial and far more powerful than simply because someone else has told us.

Jean : Exactly, or someone just does it for us. It feels so much more fulfilling when we show up, we do it…. We learn for ourselves. I mean, that’s as you mentioned, that’s just this….

Neale: and the wise parent understands that. And so the wise, the wise parent, even allows the child to make his or her own mistakes and stand back, you know, and not not tell, you know, the child. Oh, no, don’t do that. Don’t do that or don’t don’t put that down or don’t do this or don’t do that… But unless it’s life threatening, the wise parent will allow a child to make her own mistakes, knowing that he grows much more profoundly, much more rapidly, and much more fulfillingly through that process.

Jean : So true.

Alison : Yes.

Neale: Well, we that was the difference between my mother and my father is really fascinating. My mother understood everything I’m telling you. She let me make my own mistakes, and she she would she would say, you know, don’t don’t don’t worry, honey, it’ll all work out. Uh, but my father spent most of my teenage years trying to stop me from making mistakes.

Alison : Right?

Neale: And what what that did was it postponed my learning until I was 23 and 24 because, I tried… You know, I spent my teenage years trying to stop myself from making mistakes.  and then I wound up making them when I was 21, 22, 23 and 24. Not a good time to to make mistakes because then I was making mistakes, frankly, that hurt other people and ultimately mistakes that hurt even my own children. Until I saw what was going on and realized what was happening.

Alison : And as a parent, were you more like your mother or your father?

Neale: Well, I started out exactly like my father, but, uh, as I saw what I was doing and the impact it was having, I ultimately became very, very much like my mother and allowed my children, as they grew older to, you know, step forward in their own life in the way that would cause them the most profound opportunities for growth. And I didn’t tell them what not to do, or what I think they should do.

Jean : Not always easy because we, you know, we want to protect those that we love. But, um.

Neale: If it’s a serious, you know, as I said, that’s why that’s why I put it put a disclaimer on my statement if it’s life threatening or if it’s threatening to, you know, the safety of a person, but, you know, if it threatens their happiness, maybe they need to learn what unhappiness is.

Jean : I do remember reading– you wrote about your mom so beautifully in your book.

Neale: Um, I had the i had the most wonderful mother in the entire universe.

Jean : Oh, yes.

Neale: Do you know what she said to me when she was dying? We all knew that she was dying. They gave us five minutes each. Her sons and her husband. My dad, they gave… The doctor said, okay, five minutes. You got five minutes. Because she may not make it through the night. She’s very near death. And so I went in there with my five minutes from with my mom, knowing that it might be the very last time I ever talked to her. She said, oh, sweetheart, don’t cry. She saw the tears in my eyes. She said, sweetheart, don’t cry. I know where I’m going. I know what it’s going to be like. So you must make me a promise. I said anything, anything. Mom, what can I promise you? She said dance on my grave. Well, I promised her that I would. And eight weeks later, I flew to Wisconsin, where she was interred. Went to the cemetery, looked to the left and to the right to make sure that no one was watching. They would think I was doing something incredibly sacrilegious.

Alison : Yes.

Neale: Got up on the mound of dirt. She was buried and did a soft shoe. Did you literally danced on her grave? I said, this is for you, mom.

Jean : Yeah.

Neale: Because she wanted me to celebrate that she was back home with God.

Jean : Mhm.

Alison : In this book, you talk a little bit about, um, death. And, um, I had a question. When, when, and I love your I love your interpretation of the Kingdom of God. So I got the sense that when we die, you’re thinking is that we’re done, and I’m wondering, even if somebody’s young like like children. Like how how does that work? Do you understand my question?

Neale: Well, there’s no such thing as a young soul. The body may be young. The body may be only three or 8 or 10 years old, but the soul is hundreds of years old.  I mean, you your soul has been here from the very beginning, and it will be here eternally. Your soul is the eternal part of you. So, um, when this when this, when the body of a 3 or 6 or an 8 or 10 year old ceases to function physically, the soul returns to the realm of the spiritual and reclaims its identity, if you please, as a fully, completely developed soul. It’s not a three year old soul. It’s not up there going, oh, I wonder what’s going on here?

Alison : Right.

Neale: This soul understands everything perfectly.

Alison : So it means that that that three year old say, was  it’s perfect that that’s that three year old was done here learning.

Neale: Have you read the book, Home With God?

Alison : A long time ago.

Neale: You may remember in Home With God, it says no one dies at a time or in a way that is not of their choosing.

Alison : I remember that.

Neale: That includes that includes a seven year old.

Jean : And you mentioned in that book, Neale, that, uh, the soul also is collaborating with the with the other souls around them.

Alison : Mhm. Right.

Neale: Yes.

Jean : This is the time.

Neale: And, and it might be that a seven year old soul  chooses to leave its physical body as a cooperative venture with the souls of those around him,  assisting them in learning how to deal with grief and loss. So we don’t, we don’t know what caused a soul to leave the body, but the soul is very clear.

Alison : Thank you.

Neale: Yeah, there there are no mysteries to the to the soul. The soul has no mystery of any of any kind. But the mind brings many mysteries to our daily experience, in the biggest of which is how can I live into and demonstrate the wisdom of my soul?

Jean : I mean, that is such a pround question if you really think about that and and really dedicate your life to being a messenger of that truth of your soul. And, you do mention that in the book that Alison and I just read, God Talks and that first there has to be an acceptance, right? An acceptance of your desire to to be a messenger to of your soul.

Neale: And acceptance as well of your identity, to accept that I am, in fact, an individuation of Divinity. I wish that I was living in that way every moment of my life. I’m not, but I’m getting closer. And you know, when I leave here, I hope that those who know me personally will say he grew into a larger version of himself. And I want four words on my gravestone. He tried his best.

Alison : And then PS,  let’s dance.

Neale: Yeah. Exactly.

Jean : Yeah. –  you know, I think that your sharing of your personal struggles really help people, uh, embrace their own and, and have a sort of liberating feeling that, that they’re, there’s something more going on here. You know, we all make mistakes. It is like that, phrase-  to err is human to forgive is Divine. But, um. And no but…but, it is really that re-identification of I am, I am the living presence of God and not…. And it sounds so lofty and high, but it actually is a great humility in that, you know, and I think, Neale, you really have demonstrated that in all your books, you know, it’s such a love letter to the soul. Every one of your books and can you… I want to just talk a little bit about your most recent book, God Talk and what I took… One of the things I took away was really the benefit for my own soul growth, to spend time with God in in a conversation, just not me in prayer, which is usually a one way thing, you know? So, um, do you do you talk? Do you have conversations with God every day or now? And?

Neale: No, I’m not going to pretend that I do, because I don’t. But whenever I sit down, the real question is how? When I do have conversations with God, how do I do that? For me, it’s through my writing. When I sit down to write and I’ve written 41 books, God Talk is my 41st published book. And when I sit down to write, I kind of step into that posture of having a conversation with God. I sometimes even say out loud, okay, what? What is it you want to say here now… What can I, what can I bring through? What can I help you bring through? so I that’s how I have my conversations with God, which is why I’m always writing. This is why I’ve written the 41 books, because I refuse to give up that process through which I have my own conversations with God. So, you know, I’m in the process of writing a book even as we speak. And, uh, my intention when we finish this particular interaction is to get back to my keyboard and continue moving that latest book forward.

Alison : I love that you’re still writing.

Jean : Yeah,

Alison : I love that you’re doing that.

Neale: And I want to be clear that I don’t I don’t feel myself doing it for others. It’s not like this beneficial thing that I’m doing for the human race. I’m clearly doing it for myself. All of us do what we do for ourselves, especially when we are doing it. And and we know that a great many other people might benefit, then we’re really doing it for ourselves, because it’s giving us an opportunity to experience and to express, to demonstrate who we really are. Which is why we came here.

Alison : In this book, you say that God’s always talking and always willing to talk and with bated breath…. I guess…waiting to waiting to hear from us and waiting for a communication. Um, what’s the difference between getting a, ” no”  to a question or a prayer and or and or it being unanswered. Does God ever not answer a prayer, like or a conversation or a question?

Neale: No, it’s just a question of whether we hear the response and whether we understand God. God never says no.

Alison : God never says no.

Neale: Yeah. I was told in my conversations with God, God says, Neale there’s only one word in my vocabulary -YES.

Alison : That’s kind of incredible. So how how are….

Neale: Well, let me ask you, let me ask you this… Uh, have any of either one of you… This is a personal question, so please forgive the personal nature of the question, but if either one of you ever been in love with another person.

Alison : Yes.

Neale: Ahh, you both have experienced being in love with another person?

Alison : Yes.

Jean : Yes.

Neale: Have you both ever experienced being so in love with that other person that you would actually think in your mind and maybe even say out loud, “sweetheart, I want for you what you want for you always. Not just once in a while. Not just now and then, but always. I want for you what you want for you.”

Jean : That’s such an act of freedom. Which is really…

Alison : I want to say yes, but it’s, no.

Jean :  I mean, like to… I don’t think, I could… Yeah. Like, that’s such a great question because it looks at where do I have my, my little, uh, I don’t want to say it’s not a judgment, but my, my non allowance of pure love, because that sounds like pure love.. What you’re asking.

Neale: That is pure love. Pure love needs, expects, requires and demands nothing in return.

Jean : Yeah.

Neale: We can’t even love the person on the pillow next to us that way, unless we can. Yeah, I’ve gotten to the point. I don’t want to brag. I’m just saying. Because it took me not. Not only am I not bragging, I’m kind of ashamed about it because it took me, whatever, 75 years. But, uh, finally, in my late 70s, and as I moved further into my 80s, I’m able to say to the person on the pillow next to me, I need, expect, require and demand nothing of you. I want for you what you want for you always. Because I love you. If I love you because of what I can get from you, then I’m not loving you at all. I’m simply loving me, using you as a means by which I can receive love. But I refuse to. I refuse to use my wife as a means by which I can receive, but I think I want to receive. So I’ve eliminated need from my experience. But you know, it’s easy for me to say at the age of 81 or 75 or whatever, you know, I made that turn in the road. But I been able to say to my wife, now for the better part of our 17 years together, I only want for you what you want for you. I want nothing for you that you do not want for you. Please don’t do anything that you think you have to do because you have to do it for me. Do it for me if you want to, but not because you feel you have to.

Jean : That’s beautiful.

Jean : And look… That you can actually say that, and that you found someone that you can really give that that pure, that the pure love. Let’s talk about a soul… Soul marriage… You know, that you offer complete freedom to another individual and that she doesn’t need to to take care of you, and you don’t need to take care. I mean, you do in a in a certain way, but like, you can offer such a, a gift, you know, that’s really.

Neale: You know, I don’t I don’t I don’t even need to do it in a certain way. You said just a minute ago. Well, I know you need to do it in a certain way. No I don’t.

Alison : Yeah.

Neale:  And she doesn’t either. My wife takes care of me beyond anything you could imagine. She’s given me the best years of my life beyond anything I could ever have thought would be possible in a relationship, but not because she needs to. It’s her nature. It’s who she is. It’s simply who she is.

Alison : So before you made that turn in the road. What? How did you do that?

Neale: BY realizing how many times I’d failed doing it my own way. When I realized how many times I had failed not living that way. I finally, I finally decided. You know what? I always thought that my failed relationships was over there.  If they would only get it right. If she could only stop acting that way. I always thought it was across the room. And then at some point after my next failed marriage, I had, you know, I had one, I had a failed marriage before this one, actually two… Two failed marriages before this one. So actually three. I had three failed marriages before this one. So that’s actually four,  I had four failed marriages before this one. So when I got. Wait a minute. (so much laughing between everyone) (Neale pretends to call someone on his cell phone)

Alison : Wait. Come on. hahahaha

Neale: How many failed marriages did I have? Oh, six. Okay, thanks,…. I lost track… I actually I didn’t have six girlfriends, I had actually six, put a ring on their finger  marriages.

Alison : Wow.

Neale: At least I couldn’t be accused of being, you know, an emotionally, you know, an unwilling male, not willing to make a commitment.

Alison : Exactly.

Neale:  I was willing to make a commitment, but I didn’t know what I was committing to. I thought I was committing to committing to getting from them as much as they could give me.

Jean : Yeah.

Neale: But, um, then after the sixth marriage failed, I said, okay, obviously there’s something I don’t clearly understand here. The understanding of which would change everything. That’s when I made that turn in the road. And when my wife, of course, my seventh wife, she knew that I had six failed marriages. You know, I thought who would marry somebody who’s had six failed marriages? Who would do that? But she had such compassion and such a level of consciousness that she was able to see that that’s not who I was NOW. And so she stepped into the marriage. That was 17 years ago.

Jean : Yeah.

Alison : Is this your longest marriage?

Neale: Oh, by far the longest marriage. Before that was, like, seven years.

Alison : Wow.

Alison : Congratulations.

Jean : Yeah, I did, I did look up your wife, and she seems truly beautiful. Uh, she seems very poetic. The little bit that I was just doing some research and, um… So what a what a beautiful, truly God inspired marriage that you have now. And I remember reading, I don’t know what book it was, Neale, but in your Conversations with God, it was like 1 or 2, the first 1 or 2 books, God says to you, well, you you may want to put a little thought into those marriages. And and it’s so true. You know, we- I think your books have well, they’ve made me think more deep.

Alison : Yeah.

Jean :  like, think about what am I doing? Is this how I want to present myself? Is this really what I want to give my energy to? You know who you know. What is it? Who? What is it that wants to really be out there?

Neale: It’s Experienced. What is it that wants to be experienced?

Jean : Exactly. Is it is it someone that’s insecure, or is it, is it the grandest vision of the greatest version of myself, you know? And it, um…

Neale: That is, what I learned from conversations with God is that, life has nothing to do with me. It’s not even about me. God said, Neale sweetheart, your life is not about you.  It’s about everyone whose life you touch and the way in which you touch it.  And when you step into the living of that, you will realize that in in a universal sense, your life is about you, for an elegant reason, there’s only one of us in the room.

Alison : There’s no separation, which is just always so awe inspiring to me. Because when I forget that I’m I, my mind can make myself miserable.

Neale: Differences do not need to create divisions. Contrasts do not need to create conflicts. So the fact that we are different does not mean that we are divided, any more than the fingers of my hand are divided from my hand itself. They’re all different, but they’re all part of the of the same body. So we are all fingers on the hands of God.

Alison : Now, what do you make of the time that we’re living through right now?

Neale: I think that it’s the best possible time for our advancement as a civilization. I think it’s providing us the grandest opportunity that humanity may ever have to evolve fully into its true identity. And I think that, uh, the process is causing us to to look deeply at the question. Is this who I really am? Is this who we as a civilization? Is this who we as a species really are? Are we really people who kill thousands and thousands of others over a border dispute? Because we can’t agree on where the border line should be between our two countries. So we’re going to kill around 45,000 people to make the point. I mean, are we really a species that withholds desperately needed medication from poor people in underdeveloped countries because they can’t pay the price for penicillin or whatever the medication might be? Is that really who we are? And so, I think that we are behaving in a way that raises the most fundamental questions. Is this who I really am? Is this who we as a species really are? And is this who we choose to be? And many people are answering, yes, this is who we are. This is who we choose to be because they’ve simply forgotten who they really are. So it’s up to those of us who have remembered that as we have become a member once again, of the body of God. So we have re. We we’ve reclaimed our membership in the body of God. And so it’s up to those of us to become what I’ve come to call idea heroes, to be an idea hero. Galileo was an idea hero. He he said, he dared to say in 1623 that the earth revolved around the sun, whereas the church was teaching that the sun revolved around the earth. Because the church taught that the earth and its people were God’s greatest creation. And so they condemned Galileo put him under house arrest, actually. And they he took 356 years, I think somewhere in there for the Catholic Church to renounce its own condemnation of Galileo, to withdraw the condemnation and to proclaim that the church was wrong. Galileo was right and that his soul was no longer officially condemned. So we still have a you know, we still have a civilization that thinks, to use one striking example, that it’s appropriate for governments to kill people intentionally in order to teach people that killing people intentionally is not okay.

Alison : Right.

Jean : Yes.

Neale: We call that the death penalty. So in order to teach you that you shouldn’t kill people on purpose, we kill. We kill people on purpose.  Thereby… So our government says, don’t do as I do, do as I say. Don’t do as I do, do as I say. And we fail to see the contradiction. We can’t even see the contradiction. Neal… The death penalty is nothing more than simple justice. After all, God himself said, an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth. But what if we are wrong about that? What if God never said anything like that? What if God never said I love you, if…. What if God never said an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth. So that’s, those are the questions that I raise in all of my writing, including the book that I wrote called, The God’s Solution, which I gave away to people for free on the internet.

Alison : Really?

Neale: Sure.

Alison : I love that.

Neale: Yeah. I just tell them, send me an email and say, I’d like to receive a digital copy of the author’s manuscript, and I send it back to them by return mail the same day. I do answer my own email, and when I get a request, I get about 20 requests a day for that book and I send them right back out. I don’t know that it’s you. I don’t even know that it’s generous. It’s just. What would I describe? It’s practical.

Jean : Yeah.

Neale: If I want the world to change, I can’t simply stand there and say, I want the world to change. If I feel I have something to offer that can help the world see itself in a new way, then for goodness sake, offer it. Give it away.

Jean : Well, that is part of the spirit- that you see that’s the wisdom within you, sees that this is this act of of giving the book away is Is beneficial.

Alison : So for someone that is not you, not not, uh, have has a proclivity towards writing or not at your place in the world. How did they start? How how do they start to take these steps to to be an idea, an idea person? Idea messenger?

Neale: Mahatma Gandhi answered that question. He said, be the change you wish to see in the world. You don’t have to be a best selling author. You don’t have to be a lecturer. You don’t have to be a minister or a rabbi or an ulama or a priest. You don’t have to be in some special position. Simply move through the world and be the change you wish to see in the world. With every thought, that you allow to stick in your mind, with every word, certainly that proceeds from your mouth, and with every action that you take. Let your thoughts, words, and actions simply demonstrate the change you wish to see in the world. And don’t think people will fail to notice because they will not fail to notice. You know, you go through the checkout line at the supermarket and the lady’s moving things across and ringing it up and moving it across and ringing it up. And she’s being incredibly efficient, zipping through, getting you through the checkout line. And you say to the checkout lady, I don’t mean to be inappropriate, but I want to tell you something. I always hope that I get into your line when I come to the supermarket because you’re always friendly, courteous, helpful, incredibly efficient. You’re just marvelous at what you do. Mm. Little tiny little. No big deal. But just a tiny little watering. Shows up under her eyes. She looks at you and she says. Thank you for saying that. I’ve been working here 17 years, and no one has ever said that to me. So you know what? Give people back to themselves. When you see someone being their best self, say something. Even if they’re total strangers.

Alison : That’s a beautiful twist on. See something, say something.

Jean : Yeah.

Alison : You know, that’s just and that and that. You know, whenever I do do that, I feel like I was given the gift.

Neale: Of course you were. That’s the whole point.  You are given the gift, because you’ve given yourself the gift of who you are. Ah, now that’s who I am.

Alison : Mhm.

Jean : And you say that in your book, I’m not going to quote you properly Neale, but you say,  to stay in a high vibe cause someone else to remember their truth. I wrote it down. Does that make sense to you?

Neale: Yes, of course it does. But, you know, there was another person who said essentially the same thing 2000 years ago.  He put it this way. Do unto others as you would have it done unto you.

Jean : Yeah.

Neale: The golden rule.

Jean : Yes.

Neale: And the God of my understanding, said Neale, that was a wonderful golden rule. But I got a platinum rule. Platinum is even more valuable than gold. Here’s the platinum rule. Do unto others as they would have it done unto them.

Alison : This has been wonderful.

Jean : Yeah.

Alison : Neale, we have two last questions as we we finish up our talk with you, which has been really great. Um.

Neale: Wait…. I got, I got a question that I want to ask you first.

Alison : Okay.

Neale: What does insidewink mean to you?

Alison : Inside Wink? ahahahahah

Jean : That’s like,  That’s like that game…Like slapping each other’s hand, and whose hand goes on top.

Alison : Hmm. Well. Do you really want to know?

Neale: No, I just wanted to turn the tables on you.

Alison : Thank you. What do you think it means?

Neale: To me,  an inside wink –  is a feeling internally that something is—- something’s up, something’s happening, something important is going on. And basically, more often than not, an inside wink means to me that my heart is saying yes.

Alison : That’s beautiful.

Jean : That’s beautiful.

Alison : And then our most important question. Pie. Cake or ice cream?

Neale: Ice cream.

Alison : Yeah.

Neale: No question.

Jean : What flavor?

Neale: Chocolate ice.

Alison : Nice. Neale.

Jean : Okay.

Alison : Thank you.

Jean : I also just want to say here that we are, all three of us are Virgos. Uh, Neil, you are September10th, I am September 12th.

Alison : I’m, September 8th.

Alison : So you got a love sandwich on either side?

Jean : That’s right.

Neale: Wow, that’s really wild.

Jean : That’s wonderful.

Alison : Thank you so, so much for joining us and have a beautiful day writing.

Jean : Yeah. And you, you really are such a blessing to more people than you’ll ever realize. Um, and many, much love to you and your beautiful wife.

Neale: Thank you, my friends. It was sweet spending this time with you as well. I appreciate the opportunity. Blessed be.

Alison : Thank you. Have a beautiful day.

Neale: Bye bye for now.

Alison : Okay, so he’s so calming.

Jean : Mhm.

Alison : And sometimes when we do an interview, I feel like we’re like with a little bird in a room like, you know, and with him I felt very much like he’s very calming, and he seems like he’s pausing and really thoughtful and I kind of loved him, right?

Jean : He, you know, he he definitely has, uh, impacted not only my life, but so many people with his writings. And for me, like seeing him on zoom, um, made me feel a little nervous. Like I was a little awestruck because he has had such a impact, a great impact on my my life. And so seeing him, I was a little nervous.

Alison : Yeah, I get it. And I loved some of the tips he gave us about, um, you know, just the little kindness thing in the supermarket. And, you know, we don’t think it makes a difference. We just think. But I the more we do these interviews and the more people are like, just start with small steps that resonate for you. I think that’s wonderful. And what he said about his wife and Completely allowing, um, whatever you want for you. I thought, wow, like, I don’t I don’t, I don’t think I’m there yet. You know?

Jean : And yeah, I want to definitely was not there with Alex, that’s for sure. But I, I can see how I would truly want to be that way. And I can be that way with you. I can be that way with Matthew and Emily. So, um, I do think that’s how the the evolution of our soul is letting go of these things that we think we need or that will make us happy. Like, oh, if you,  if you.—-

Alison : just picked up your socks…

Jean :  Yeah. And, you know, it’s so interesting we’re filming this now on Valentine’s Day and that day gets so loaded with-  prove to me that you love me.

Alison : Mhm.

Jean : You know. So

Alison : And just the fact that we — there were so many people in our lives. I think all of us friends, relatives, maybe not a partner. We are surrounded by love. We just have to see it and know it and accept it, I think.

Jean : Yeah. You know that’s true.

Alison : Yeah. Well, he was wonderful. We hope you enjoy this. And, please.

Jean : He was our Valentine’s…

Alison : To each other—that’s right.  And please read, God Talk. Or if you just start at the beginning with, Conversations with God. It’s just… He’s amazing. It opens you up.

Jean : That’s for sure…Any one of his books are brilliant.

Alison : Have a beautiful, wonderful day.

Jean : Bye .

Podcast Episode 59: Deanna deBara

Deanna deBara is a freelance writer (focusing on Health) and the host of the Season of Stuck podcast. The podcast is an exploration of “stuckness” through expert interviews, inspiring stories, and personal insights. Deanna explores how and why we get stuck, what it feels like, the lessons we can learn from it, and ultimately how to shake off the stuff and move forward in an authentic and empowered way. If you’ve ever thought, “why do I feel stuck and what should I do if I feel stuck in life”?, this is the podcast for you! 

Learn more at seasonofstuck.com.

Transcript
Alison: Hi.

Jean: Here we are again in my sacred closet.

Alison: That’s right in the closet, because my Wi-Fi is not working. So there you have it.

Jean: Okay, so today we are interviewing someone whose topic is so relevant that we all can relate to.

Alison: It’s about being stuck. Have you ever felt stuck?

Jean: A better question would be how often have you not felt stuck?

Alison: Exactly. I think we’ve all suffered from stuckness. Yeah. And our guest name is Diana Deborah, and her podcast is called- Season of Stuck, which I love that title.

Jean: Yeah. Me too, because it it definitely points to the fact that it’s not forever, that it’s just this, this point in time.

Alison: And the times I felt stuck, I have felt on top of it. I beat myself up. Do you know, like I go, what’s wrong with you?

Jean: Oh, yeah.

Alison: Get get going…Like-.

Jean: Right.

Alison: Pick up, you know, pull yourself up by your bootstraps. What’s the problem? And so I really hope that when we talk with her, we can address some of those things.

Jean: Yeah. I can’t wait to hear her. And, um, I know she’s going to have some wonderful tips to help us feel unstuck and not feel bad about being in a time of stuckness.

Alison: Exactly. Well, here she is. Here’s Deanna.

Deanna: Hi. It is so wonderful to meet you both. I’m Deanna.

Alison: Hi. I’m Allison.

Jean: I’m Jean.

Deanna: Jean. So nice to meet you both. How’s your day going?

Alison: It’s great.

Jean: It’s very nice. I’ve been, uh, od’ing on your your podcast. Mhm. I’ve had, uh, yesterday, the day before and this morning. So I’m like…. And now just hearing your voice I’m like wow she’s actually here now.

Alison: It’s so wonderful. It’s such a, it’s such a wonderful time to meet you with everything going on.

Deanna: Mhm. Yes. I am so happy to connect. And I have to tell you I’ve also listened to your podcast and I love it. And the last question that you ask about the cake versus the pie, this is actually like a very relevant, controversial question for me as a baker. So I’m very excited to share my perspective.

Alison: Excellent. Okay, great. Let’s just go there.

Deanna: Oh, I could do a whole episode about pie if that’s the direction that you want to go.

Jean: So that’s so interesting because I feel like I know a lot about you, and yet, yet I don’t. I didn’t even know that you’re a baker, so, um.

Deanna:  that was my Covid hobby that I picked up. And it’s become like a true love. And so I binge podcasts and bake, which is kind of like my go to now when I’m feeling stressed.

Alison: Oh that’s excellent.

Deanna: And where are you both based.

Alison: In Los Angeles?

Alison: Where are you?

Deanna: Uh, so I’m in the Pacific Northwest. I’m about an hour east of Portland, Oregon, in the Columbia River Gorge. But I lived in LA for almost a decade. Um, how are you? With everything that’s been going on, it’s such a hard time.

Alison: We are fine, but- but, you know, we knew a lot of people that went through that…

Jean: and that were affected by the fires. Um, we were not directly affected. But as Alison said, we we knew people that actually had to evacuate, that lost their homes.

Alison: Yeah.

Jean: And, um, and now I just thinking that they have to recreate their lives.  In such a dramatic way. Um.

Deanna: It’s, it’s so much more than just stuff or just a house. Like when you think about our home is our respite from the world. It’s where we make our memories like it. All of the sentimental value. And to have that, it’s just so scary. And I’m sending so much love to the city. It was very surreal seeing the places that, you know, I spent almost a decade. Um, but the city is full of incredible people who are resilient and wonderful, and I know that you guys are going to support each other through it.

Alison: Yeah. It’s been you know, I think that’s the thing a lot of people I talk to are tired and feel tired and I think feel stuck. You know… Are you are you seeing that a lot more in your, your the what you’re hearing in your podcast? Like, have we always been this sort of stuck or is this new to this climate of the world?

Deanna: So I think that individual stuckness has always been the case. We all come to periods in our life where who we used to be or the life we used to have doesn’t really fit anymore, but who we are going to be and the life we’re stepping into hasn’t fully emerged yet. So I think that kind of inertia has always existed, existed, but there is certainly a very heavy kind of stuckness that is existing in the world today, just with there is so much going on. There is so much, you know, divide, there’s natural disasters there. There’s just a lot of collective heaviness. So I think as a collective, this point in history for many is one of the most stuck that we’ve experienced in our lifetimes.

Jean: Well, well, it’s so apropos that your podcast is all about stuckness and getting unstuck. Yeah. And something that came to me and I was sharing a little bit with Alison is, is that I what I, one of the things I love, what you’re doing, um, is breaking the connotation the The negative connotation around Stuck, and it’s nothing to feel bad about or shameful or what’s wrong with you? Or….

Deanna: I mean, I spent my entire life feeling like these seasons of stuck that I experienced and I’ve experienced many were a personal failing, that there was something inherently wrong with me, that I kept finding myself facing this experience of stuck. And it wasn’t until a few years ago when I started finally talking about it, that that experience was mirrored back by every single person that I talked to, like every single person has experienced stuckness. And so my hope is that through the podcast, I can reach the people who are like I was, who think that there’s something wrong with them, or that they’re failing, or they’re feeling ashamed and kind of normalize the experience and just say, hey, like, this isn’t a you problem. It is a human problem, and there are ways to navigate it and move through it.

Alison: So could you define for our audience your definition? I think you did just a second ago, but the full definition of what it is to be stuck?

Deanna: Yes. So the definition that I use, um, for stuckness is this idea that who we used to be, the things that we used to do, the life that we used to live, no longer feels like a fit. It’s not working anymore. But the next phase, this next iteration of ourselves and our lives doesn’t feel clear yet. So you know that you don’t want to be where you are, but you don’t really know how to move forward, and you don’t even really know what you would want to move forward to, even if you could. So there’s this sense of, you know, being stuck in place. You can’t go backward. You can’t go forward. Um, that can feel really, really uncomfortable for a lot of people.

Alison: And that can be in anything that can be work relationships, living arrangements.

Deanna: Personal growth, personal growth, journey, um, you know, career direction, um, the way that you view and relate to yourself, like there are so many different ways and places that you can experience stuckness. And I know because I’ve experienced them all, probably twice. Um, so it, um, yeah, it’s something that from the conversations that I’ve had both on the podcast and outside of the podcast, um, it’s an experience that people have often. And once you navigate stuckness in one area of your life, there’s a pretty good chance that another area you’re going to feel stuck in the not too distant future. So I think it’s really important to understand what is happening when we’re stuck, really know to our core that it doesn’t mean that there’s anything wrong with us or wrong with our life. It’s just a catalyst. I’d like to say stuck is a step and it’s not a comfortable step. It’s not a fun step, but it is an essential step because the discomfort that comes with stuckness is what ultimately catapults you towards change. You become so uncomfortable with where you are that the uncomfortable feeling of the unknown, or not knowing what the future looks like, it’s just outweighed, and you’re forced to take a step forward. So I found both personally and in the conversations that I’ve had, that stuckness virtually always precedes a period of serious growth.

Alison: Wow.

Jean: Yeah. It’s wonderful that you that you give voice to that.

Alison: Yes.

Jean: And because so many of us feel, um, like we’re a loser when when, you know, we’re  not in the flow of life or feeling the way we would like to. Yeah. Can you give us a short background to your story? Um, just because I know our viewers would just like to know you.

Alison: How did you start that?

Deanna: Of course. I love a good origin story. Um, so my name is Deanna debara. Um. And I am a writer. I’ve been a professional writer for, uh, the last decade. Um, and I am also a person that has felt stuck a lot, like, a lot, a lot. Um, you know, as I mentioned earlier, I have been stuck in pretty much every way in place that a person could feel stuck. And those experiences always were, you know, kind of coated in shame for me. Like, it felt like I wasn’t good enough. And that is why I kept finding myself in these stuck places, in my relationships, in my relationship to myself and my career, all these different places. Um, and about two years ago, I was going through a major, major period of stuckness as a writer. Uh. I work in an industry that is rapidly changing in the face of AI and the economy, and this business that I had spent almost a decade building and that I really loved, um, wasn’t working anymore. But I didn’t know what I was going to do next. So I was stuck in this place for months. And eventually I got so stuck that I started doing two things. Number one, I started doing research to understand what was actually happening when I was experiencing these periods of inertia. And then I also opened up and I started having conversations. And through those processes, I learned that stuck is a foundational, universal human experience. It’s not a shortcoming. It’s something that we all go through. And there was power in hearing other people’s stories that mirrored that experience for me. It felt really connected and it helped to remove that kind of veil of shame. And so as I was having these conversations, I had a little bit of a light bulb moment and I was like, this could be a really interesting thing to explore in a podcast and to hopefully remove that stigma that we can attach to ourselves and normalize this experience that we all go through and work through the stuckness together.

Alison: When you did your research, um, what did you find about moments of stuckness? What was something that really you went, ah, like an aha moment?

Deanna: One of the biggest revelations through my research was that, like, I had always looked at stuckness as a mental experience, right? Like it was something that was happening in my head and through my research, and specifically, there’s a book called The Science of Stuck by Britt Frank, who is a therapist and just all around brilliant. Um, and it was through that book specifically that I learned that stuck is actually a nervous system problem. Like, there are physiological things that are happening when you feel stuck that are driving that inertia. It’s you’re essentially in a freeze state. So even if you want to take those steps forward, your nervous system feels so overwhelmed, you know, by the fear and the unknown and not knowing which direction to go, that it can be almost impossible to motivate your body. So in order to get unstuck, it’s not just about thinking, what do I want next? Which direction do I want to go? There’s actually a component of regulating your nervous system and showing your nervous system that it is safe to change and safe to move forward. Um, and that was absolutely not the way that I thought about stuckness prior to this research. So that was a huge oh, I’m trying to think my way out of a problem that exists in my body.

Alison: Right. So it’s like being hungry and trying to think about food.

Deanna: Exactly. Like if you’re hungry, I could think about what different types of food I want. I could think about going to the store. I can think about cooking a meal, but none of those things are going to deal with the hunger. If I want to address the hunger, I have to eat right?

Jean: Yeah.

Alison: Yeah. I didn’t know that.

Deanna: Mhm.

Jean: And you mentioned I don’t know where I heard you, but you mentioned that, that moving the energy of stuckness is not a mental thing. It’s a more, it’s a more body type movement. Can you talk about that a little bit.

Deanna: Yeah. So again with the nervous system there are multiple states that the nervous system could be in in any time. I’ve heard you heard of I’m sure you’ve heard of Fight or Flight. There’s also freeze. There’s also fawn and stuckness is associated with a freeze state. So in order to move that energy, you have to address what’s happening in your nervous system. And for many people, the best way to regulate your nervous system is through movement. You know, it actually will create the changes, like in your physiological response to work out that energy, release it, and shift your nervous system to a state where you’re more able to make change. It’s not a silver bullet in the sense of, oh, I’m going to go for a run, and then I’m unstuck. But if you’re feeling in a stuck place and you’re trying to make these changes, doing something like going for a run can help release all of those endorphins and those feel good neurotransmitters that, when you’re done, will put you in a better place to start making those changes.

Alison: You know, I was I’ve been thinking so much about being stuck…. Since we’re interviewing you, and it’s a very interesting topic for me because I’m wondering how much is stuckness attributed like to we’re living in such a world of social media now that I feel that externally I’m being told something and I feel like sometimes, just for me, you’re too old, it’s too late. It’s whatever. Do you do you think that plays into it at all in this world?

Deanna: Oh my gosh. I mean, how could it not? You know, we are constantly bombarded and, you know, this is the foundation of the advertising industry, right? Like we are bombarded with messaging that we are somehow not enough. Right. And then the solution is to buy this cream or take this vacation or whatever to make us more enough. Um, and not only do we have that from traditional marketing and advertising, social media has created this environment where we are constantly exposed to what I like to call, other people’s highlight reels, right? It’s this like very curated, like example of their life. And then we compare our full movie with all of the mundane moments and all of the challenges and all of the insecurities, and we find ourselves lacking, and we often can feel as though there’s no way to live up to that ideal. And that can absolutely make us feel stuck.

Jean: And, you know, for me, at the same time, I also notice that the social expectations are are being released. Like, you know, more women are going going natural. Um, people aren’t like our dads are no longer, uh, holding a job for 40 years. You know, people are moving and moving around and, and everything with, um, just people’s sexual identity. So I think at the same time that’s happening too.

Deanna: Absolutely. And I think that the impact of social media absolutely depends on how you use it. Right. If you curate your feed with women who are leaning into midlife and celebrating their natural beauty, or people who are talking about their experiences of being their authentic selves or even feel good things, like, I follow about a million dog accounts on Instagram, and it’s just so when I log in, instead of feeling like I’m bombarded with this messaging that makes me feel not great about myself and therefore stuck. I am treated to something that makes me feel happy or  connected. And it’s not to say that I am not also exposed to those other things, but I think if you use social media strategically and intentionally, it can be a tool to help you get unstuck. So it’s like one of those kind of catch 22. Depending on how you use it. Social media can absolutely contribute to feelings of stuckness, but if you use it intentionally, it can also be a force to help you build self esteem, move forward, get unstuck.

Jean: Mhm.

Alison: Do you you’ve talked to so many great people. Is there a story um that has really, I mean stuck out to you? I know it’s a weird way to put it, but is there a story…. I didn’t mean it like that, but is there a story that you can kind of reference for us?

Deanna: Absolutely. So I have had the absolute pleasure of interviewing some of the smartest, most interesting people who are making such incredible contributions to the world. It really is an honor. Um, and so many of their stories stick out as being helpful or interesting. I think that one of the conversations that for me, had one of the most lasting impacts, um, I had an author on the podcast, her name is Anna Goldfarb, and she wrote a book called Modern Friendship. She was the New York Times friendship correspondent for many, many years. Um, and we had a conversation about how we can get stuck in our friendships and specifically adult friendships today in this culture. And like what we can do to support those relationships and get unstuck. Um, and she had so many helpful tidbits, right? Because we’re all busy, we all are pulled in lots of different directions. So many of us work from home. We have families, we have partners, we have children. All of these things. It can be really hard to prioritize friendships, but the benefit of friendships is so well documented, and having a network of people who you feel truly connected to, who you show up for and who show up for you, can make you healthier, happier. All sorts of good stuff. Um, and one of the things that she said to me that really, really stuck out as helpful and that I have carried into my own relationships, is that affection is not enough to keep a friendship moving forward.

Deanna: If you want your friendships to flourish, there has to be a strong about. And so what she meant by that is, if I have a friend that I love, right? A friend that I used to work with who I think is wonderful. Um, that’s not enough to sustain the friendship, right? There needs to be a core external thing that binds us together, that almost acts as like the framework of the friendship that we can keep coming back to. Um, So my example that I have experienced in my life recently. So I as a way to help with stuckness, I started dancing as an adult a couple years ago. Um, and it has become not only an incredible way to like exercise and move through stuckness and be in my body, but also this like incredible community of women that have just become this huge support system. And it’s like for all of us, dance is our why, right? That is the thing that brings us together, that allows us to spend time together every week that like, gives us something to bond over. And then it’s from that, about, that our friendships are able to flourish, we become closer, we start doing other things together. But it was like the hub, right? It was the hub that gave us the frequency of contact, the commonality of like something that we have in common, um, which are kind of the key components of friendship.

Deanna: If you’re going to have a strong friendship, you need to see your friends, you need to have something in common. And so this about which for me was dance is what has helped me get unstuck in my friendships and like make sure that they are a foundational part of my life. And that about can be anything, right? It can be something with an individual friend. Like I feel stuck. Me and my friend are just not really connecting. We haven’t made time for each other. Like what’s a hobby that we both enjoy, that we can use as an anchor in our relationship? Maybe we go to yoga together once a week. Maybe we start exploring crafts. Like maybe we go to the theater or do a book club. Like whatever it is that about is what keeps friendships moving forward and prevents them from getting into a stuck place. And I feel like that was just it was like a mind blowing thing. And I have applied it to lots of different friendships, friends that I had maybe lost contact with, friendships that I want to feel closer. And it has been incredible like it. Absolutely. Creating this strong about as an anchor for my friendships has made them all stronger. And for that, I am eternally grateful.

Alison: Can you tell me what kind of dance?

Deanna: Yes. So I go to a local dance studio, and there are a few different classes that I take. So twice a week we do dance fitness, uh, and then once a week, I also take a hip hop and jazz choreography class. Um, and it’s it’s so fun. And here’s the thing. I am not a, like, good dancer by any stretch of the imagination, but what dance has helped me with in terms of stuckness? Yes, there is the being in my body and like helping helping me move through actual experiences of stuckness, regulating my nervous system. But there’s also this other gift that it’s given me, um, which is not exclusive to dance, but for a long time, and in particular in my adult life, I was stuck in the idea that in order to do something, I had to be good at it. It had to look good to other people. It had to feel like an achievement that somehow, like a cap in my feather or a feather in my cap. And if I wasn’t good at it, then I should just move on and find something that I’m good at. But, committing to dance, you know, 3 to 4 times a week has given me this gift of like, the only reason that I dance is for joy. I’m not good at it. I’m not going to, you know, be a professional dancer. I’m not trying to show off for anyone else. It just it just gives me, like, a deep sense of joy. And it’s fun and I love it. And so I’m no longer stuck in that idea that the only worthwhile activities to do are activities that I’m good at. And that has unlocked so much for me where it’s like, now I’m like, oh, I’m going to try pottery or I’m going to take this painting class. And it’s not about the output, it’s about how I feel when I’m doing the activity.

Jean: Yeah, that’s great…Well, Alison, here.

Alison: We’re laughing and nudging each other because I started tap.

Deanna: Oh my gosh. Tell me, do you love it?

Alison: I’m 65. It was 65 when I started. And I have to tell you, it’s a riot. And I loved it. I couldn’t do it because I hurt my foot. But I’m going to go back. I did it for a year. And then when that stopped, I started taking pottery. And I make the most misshapen bowls in the world. But I have to tell you what you’re saying, um, my job was always about pleasing others. That’s how, that’s how I work worked. And, um, here I go…. Wow, this is really misshapen. How fantastic. Because there’s no consequence. There’s no… it’s just fun to do. And I don’t even know… Like, I think sometimes women don’t know what they enjoy.

Deanna: Mhm.

Alison: You know?

Deanna: Well we’re so socialized to put other people’s needs in front of our own. Right. Like that is a message that we get both, you know, explicitly and implicitly for the majority of our lives. And when you’re juggling the demands of the world and you know other people’s expectations of you, it can be hard to find the time and the energy to foster things that feel like authentic, authentically you. Like you really love, you know, um, and there’s I think the thing that was challenging for me to get over and I’m curious if you had the same experience, was I was so used to putting other people’s needs above my own that I, I got the message that taking care of my own needs and pursuing things that I enjoyed was selfish. Like, oh, like, you know, who am I to be putting all of this time to this activity that helps no one but me, you know?

Alison: Yes. Very much. And, um, someone asked me, well, you know, the kids, the kids are grown. It’s me and my husband now in the house. And someone said, well, so what do you like to do? And I was like, wow, I like to take care of my kids and I like to clean the house. And I thought, those aren’t things that you should be like…. They’re fine, they’re wonderful…. But like, for me and Jean and I talked about this, this a lot that we where am I in this mix, because I kind of lost myself. And you are so right, it does feel selfish, you know.  I’ll say to my husband, I’m going to pottery. And he goes, great, go. But I feel like he’s actually thinking, again.

Deanna: Mhm.

Alison: but he’s not.

Deanna: Mhm.

Alison: He’s a great guy, and… But it’s there.

Deanna: Well, no one ever judges us as harshly as we judge ourselves, right? So even if nobody else is telling you that message, it can still be hard to get over that internalized shame or feeling of being, you know, selfish. But how special is it that you now get to go out and experience these things and find out what you enjoy at this stage in your life? It’s almost like a rediscovery process, and certainly I would imagine it helps to deal with any feelings of stuckness, because you’re constantly exposing yourself to new things and finding new joys.

Alison: Yeah yeah yeah yeah. When you’re talking about friendships and being stuck, are there some friendships that then in that moment you let go of?

Deanna: Mhm. So that was actually another um revelation that I had following that episode. So I can be a somewhat black and white thinker, like something is or something isn’t. I am friends with someone or I am not friends with someone. And Anna really pointed out that, the nature of adulthood, and in particular in today’s society, which is like so busy and, you know, being pulled in so many different directions…. Friendships will ebb and flow, right? So you might lose friends. Like you might lose touch with a friend and think, okay, well, I’m not friends with that person anymore. I’ve let that friendship go. But then ten years down the line, a strong about emerges, that brings you back together. Maybe you moved to the same neighborhood, and you have children that are the same age, and then you connect and it’s like you pick back up where the friendship left off. So I really appreciated, um, that idea that, like, just because you’re not in super close contact with a friend at any given moment, it doesn’t mean that the friendship is over. That there’s, like, natural, you know, kind of up and down, connected, not connected. And, you know, we don’t have to assign meaning to that. Like, obviously there’s reasons that friendships end definitively, but this idea of just losing touch or, you know, not having availability for each other, that there is always the opportunity for those friendships to reemerge in the future if you leave the door open.

Alison: Okay, I love that.

Jean: That’s beautiful.

Alison: Yeah.

Jean: Can you talk a little bit more about gratitude? Well, not more…. because we haven’t even spoken about it, but, um, I heard you talk about gratitude and how you use that to get unstuck. And it seems a little contrary, but I thought what you know, you said was really beautiful. Yeah.

Deanna: Um. I would love to talk about gratitude. This, I think, is one of the most important tools in my tool belt that has had the most profound impact on my life. Um, so I am 40 now. Um, When I was 25, I went into recovery from a very serious drinking problem. I drank very problematically from 19 to 25. So 15 years ago, um, and when I first stopped drinking, I felt so lost, like my life was in shambles. I had tension in my relationships. I didn’t know where I was going with my career, like it was the most stuck, to this day, that I have ever been in my life. And in that moment in time, as a way to anchor myself and not get overwhelmed by this feeling of stuckness, of like, where’s my life going? What am I going to do? How do I fix this? Um, I started doing gratitude journaling, so I started writing down three things that I’m grateful for every day. And in the beginning, you know, it was very small things because my life was such a mess. You know, it’s like I’m grateful that I, you know, got out of bed when my alarm went off or I’m grateful that I got to sit in the sun. Whatever the case may be. But that practice forced me to look at the good that was there that I wasn’t seeing before. I was so caught up in all of the challenges and the negative feelings and the fear about how to navigate this period of my life.

Deanna: But doing that gratitude practice every day was like a concrete reminder that there is good here. And if you keep moving forward, there will be more good. And as I evolved and got further and further from my last drink, those items on my gratitude list expanded, you know. Then it was I’m grateful that I landed this new job. I’m grateful that someone told me I was a good friend today. Like, I’m grateful that I got to go on this vacation. Whatever the case may be, it was like I could see the ways in which my life was changing and the more gratitude that I showed for that, like the happier that I felt in those changes. And even today, you know, like, I make it a point to express gratitude in one way or another every day. I am like, kind of notorious in my group of friends for just sending random text messages of like, hey, this is what I love and appreciate about you. Thank you for being my friend. Um, and that has become like a foundational part of my life. And in the moments when I’m feeling stuck, just like I was when I stopped drinking. If I find myself in that place, focusing on what there is to be grateful for will propel me forward and towards feeling unstuck every time.

Jean: Yeah…I love that, Deanna.

Alison: that’s So moving.

Deanna: Um, it’s just it’s a really powerful practice. And, you know, it can seem cliche, but like, sometimes cliches are true. Like gratitude just works. And even in your darkest, most stuck moments, if you can tap into that gratitude, it will show a light at the end of the tunnel. It will move you forward and as you continue to express it, it like becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. There will be more and more to be grateful for.

Jean: Right – yeah.

Alison: That’s beautiful. Thank you for sharing that and congratulations on your journey.

Deanna: Thank you. I just a couple of weeks ago celebrated 15 years without a drink.

Alison: That’s beautiful.

Jean: Wonderful.

Alison: That’s beautiful. My husband and I have done 30 years without a drink. And I have to say it, it has… It’s a it’s a was a beautiful release of something that I never thought would go away.

Deanna: Mhm. Oh congratulations on that. That is incredible. And you’re right, like what I found when I stopped drinking. Was that it was occupying so much of my time and head space in life that when I stopped, it created this, like pocket, this space for all of these beautiful things to come in. And like,  speaking of gratitude, like I couldn’t be any more grateful that I made that decision. And, you know, it set me on a trajectory towards a life that, you know, at the time, I, I couldn’t dream of. So I’m very grateful.

Alison: And I wanted to say something about the title of your podcast,  Season Of Stuck, because the season changes and passes.

Deanna: Mhm.

Alison: As opposed to calling it like I’m stuck or we’re all stuck or here’s stuck. This season of stuck is so wonderful and.

Jean:  and hopeful.

Deanna: Thank you. Thank you. That is certainly what I was going for. Um, another thing that I say is that, you know, stuckness is a step, as I mentioned before, but it’s not a permanent one– like your stuck spot isn’t your forever spot. You will, the seasons will change. You know, you will go from winter to spring. Um, as long as you continue moving forward.

Alison: Right. It’s a step, not a landing.

Deanna: Exactly 100%. And it’s generally like a step in the right direction. Right? It can be so discouraging or, you know, uncomfortable to feel like, my life right now is like, there’s something that’s not right…. This career isn’t right for me. I feel like my relationship isn’t working. Like I have a really negative self view of myself. And that’s not how I want to live my life. Like, that can be really hard. But when you address those things and step into the next version of yourself and your life, it’s like a shedding of things that no longer work for you, which again creates space for things that will.

Jean: Yeah. That’s That it’s so empowering in in a way, also that you say that, and you you mentioned on someone else’s podcast to give yourself permission to change.

Deanna: Mhm.

Jean: Right. You said that and I was like wow, that’s so true. You know that, we can actually take the stuckness that we’re in and go, okay something’s going to change.  And I don’t know what that is but I, I know that I’m, I’m now in an energy of change and I give myself permission to do that.

Deanna: And that permission is so liberating. Right. We get so stuck thinking that we have to be who we were yesterday or a year ago, but at any given time, we can give ourselves permission to change and move in a new direction. And maybe that direction doesn’t work and you give your permission to change to another direction. But as but as long as you allow yourself the space to change, you will continually be changing in a way that feels more and more authentic to you.

Jean: Right.

Alison: Do you like yourself as much as you like pie?

Deanna: Oh, I, I gotta say, I have been doing a lot of work on myself, so I am, I’m feeling really good about myself. But pie will always be the crown in my life.

Alison: For a very. You’re very self connected and you’re really a joy to talk to.

Jean: Yeah,

Deanna: Well, you were both such a joy to talk to. I cannot tell you how much I appreciate you having me on, and this was such a wonderful conversation.

Alison: Before you go, what do you think inside wink means?

Deanna: Mhm. So when I hear inside wink, what I think of,  is almost like a nod to my internal self, like winking and just being like, hey, it’s all going to be okay. So kind of a of a self-compassion is what comes up for me when I hear inside wink.

Alison: I love that.

Jean: Me too.

Alison: Do you want to ask the big one that we waited for the whole time?

Jean: Well, I sort of know her answer, but I want to have her embellish on her answer. Okay, Deanna, do you like cake, pie or ice cream?

Deanna: Mhm. Okay, so I am a pie girl through and through. It is my favorite dessert to eat and it’s also my biggest baking challenge. I have been trying to perfect a pie crust recipe for like four years now. And I’m still not quite there. So it’s this joy to eat and also this challenge that propels me forward in my baking life. So from all angles. Pie pie pie.

Alison: I love that. What flavor?

Deanna: Ooh. Oh, that’s like asking me to pick my favorite child. Um, I the last pie that I made, which was one of the best that I’ve ever made, was banana cream pie. I made it for Christmas.

Alison: Oh my God.

Jean: I have to say for those bakers out there that are listening. And I too love to bake.  That phrase, um, oh, it’s as easy as pie…. Pie is not easy to make.

Deanna: No.

Jean: that is such  a lie.

Deanna: It is so fickle. Getting the crust right and like, making sure that your fat stays cold and all these things. No, it should be, like, as ridiculously difficult as pie would be, the more accurate idiom.

Jean: Much, much better.

Alison: So next podcast…As Ridiculously difficult as pie.

Deanna: Oh, what a title.

Jean: Yeah, it’s it’s like when someone says, oh, you eat as much as a bird. Well, a bird eats, like, twice its size relative to it’s body.

Deanna: So there are some terms, there are some turns of phrases that just don’t make sense to me. And tying to your question, the phrase you want to have your cake and eat it too. What other purpose is there for cake than to eat it? Like? Do I want to look at it? Do I want to admire it like, no, I want to eat it. Of course I do.

Alison: It’s right.

Jean: It’s so true.

Alison: Oh my gosh, you cracked me up.  Thank you.

Jean: You are so great.. You’re just what the doctor ordered. And, um. And I thank you so much for for being on our show. And, you know…

Alison: Many congratulations on so many things. It’s a beautiful, beautiful podcast.

Jean: Yeah.

Deanna: Thank you both so, so much. I cannot tell you how much that means to me. It has been a joy to be here. I loved chatting with you. Um, and thank you again for for having me on.

Jean: Yes. Thanks. Deanna.

Deanna: You have a beautiful day.

Alison: Bye.

Jean: Bye.

Jean: That was great.

Alison: Oh, she was excellent, and she got us so inspired that Jean and I are now going to do archery.

Jean: To help us get unstuck.

Alison: That’s right. To keep us, to keep us having an about.

Jean: Yeah, right.

Jean: And, you know, I was thinking, um, and I didn’t address this with her, but, you know, I think it’s when we’re stuck that, it’s just an opportunity to kind of reassess our lives deeply and see where where can we, uh, change it up a bit because we…. Part of another word for change is creation, and we’re always creating. So, um, I think those moments for myself anyway, when I felt stuck, it is a time of, um, inter reflection of my own life.

Alison: That’s that’s that’s wonderful. I think sometimes that I’ve been stuck. I’ve felt,  I felt blameful of myself. But I like that that she normalized it for me.

Jean: Yeah. exactly..

Alison: And that she’s like, look, it’s just a part of life and and that you can’t necessarily think your way out of it. I thought that was a great insight.

Jean: Yes. Really, really powerful. And so when you get a moment, check out her podcast. It’s absolutely wonderful.

Alison: Season of stuck.

Jean: Season of stuck…Yeah.

Alison: That’s right. Thank you so much. Have a wonderful unstuck day. Okay. We’ll talk to you later.

Jean: Bye.

 

Podcast Episode 58: Rachel Corpus

Host of the Angel Talk podcast, Rachel is a bit of a chameleon, so as soon as she connects with you, either in person or remotely, she immediately begins channeling information that is for your highest good.Though Rachel is an ordained minister who attended seminary, Rachel does not identify as religious. She is well-versed in the Bible and loves Jesus and God with her whole heart. Yet, she identifies as spiritual but not religious. Rachel is a “collaborative medium” so you can expect that all- literally- all of your loved ones on the other side, including animals, and your non-human helpers (Angels) will be present!

Learn more at https://www.rachelcorpus.com.

Transcript

Alison : Jean and I are talking about. Hello. I just want to say hello first. Jean and I are talking about how to raise our vibration.

Jean : Yeah,

Alison : And you were saying a grounding mat. What is that?

Jean : A grounding mat? I think that’s something to do with the magnetics. And so you can sleep on a grounding mat or put your feet on it. I’m not a 100% sure, but, um…. When I was listening to prepare for our interview with Rachel, um, the angels were saying that to be really careful with the fluoride. That’s fluoride that’s in your toothpaste. And the other tip they gave for raising your vibration is to give a long hug to someone. A someone that is open to receiving your hug.

Alison : Like, maybe not a bus driver that you’re just meeting on a bus or maybe? Maybe if if it works out.

Jean : If you have that connection with that person.

Alison : Exactly. But I try- I think I hug a lot of people and, um, I’m not sure people are used to it, like, I, I really dive in for a hug. Do you dive in for a hug?

Jean : I sort of sense if someone would like it, I’ll lean forward and then I can tell.

Alison : Oh, because you’re kind.

Jean : If They’re they’re not… I’m not feeling it. And then if they are open for it. I love to give hugs.

Alison : Me too. Yeah. Me too, I love it. But that brings us talking about angels right to our interview today.

Jean : So we had the pleasure of interviewing Rachel Corpus.

Alison : Yes. And, uh, and we can’t wait for you to hear it, because she’s so beautiful and eloquent and angelic and angelic. That’s right.

Jean : And and she really gives some beautiful tips on how to incorporate the angelic energy into your life. And we all have it. So, um, we all have guides, I should say, and angels and guides. So, you know, asking them for their assistance in, in the small things in life and the big things. Um, so.

Alison : But take a listen and then, um and see what you think. Here’s Rachel corpus.

Jean : Hi, Rachel.

Rachel : Hello.

Alison : Hi. It’s so nice to meet you.

Rachel : And you.

Alison : I’m Allison,

Jean : And I’m Jean.

Rachel : Hi, Jean. Well, lovely to be with you today.

Jean : Yes, very lovely to be with you. I’ve OD’d on some of your interviews and your website, and so I actually said to Alison when she came over, I said, I can’t wait to talk to this lady.

Alison : This angel.

Jean : This angel. Right. Yeah.

Rachel : Well, I feel the same. I’ve been doing the same thing. This will be fun.

Alison : So I guess we’re done. Great. Thank you.  hahah…  Could you tell us just a little bit about, um, how this all began for you?

Rachel : What do you mean?

Alison : Your angelic…

Jean : Yeah. Well, I think just to to set the tone for our listeners —just how you became aware that you were an angel as a little girl, you know?  And if that was cultivated, you know. So just a little bit about your origin story.

Rachel : Yes.  great question. Thank you. Um, well, I, I was born a psychic child, so I had psychic experiences, like many, many people have. So I could see other angels, and I could interact with people who had passed in animals. And I don’t think that’s that uncommon. But when I was four years old, my parents and I and my brother were in a near fatal car accident, and I had a near-death experience. And in that experience, I went to the other side, and there was this voice speaking to me that I didn’t recognize yet. It was this voice, grown up Rachel voice. And there were two other angels with me that I did recognize. Um, they were my guardians, and there were a whole bunch of other angels, and they took me home. So this is your real home. This is the Seraphim realm. This is where you come from. You are an actual angel. There are many others like you. You’re special, but not, but common. And you basically, they said there’s a lot more to it, but they said you can stay here or you can go back to Earth. And they showed me, you know, what my mission would be or what my mission was. And they showed me lots of things about Earth and about the angelic realm. So I mentioned the part about the grown up voice because I, I, I believe strongly that that’s how I remember everything in detail because I was just four, but I think I was in that adult consciousness. And then I also had my playfulness with me because I remember asking, hey, can I still will I still be able to play house? Can I still go fishing? So before that part of me would pop in, and that’s actually how I ended up coming back, is because my four year old self remembered how sad my mom would be if I didn’t come back, and as soon as I remembered that I was, I was back in my body.

Alison : Wow.

Rachel : So that’s how I know.

Alison : That’s absolutely gives me chills now. That is absolutely beautiful. So then what? After that, knowing that were you between your four year old self and this sort of adult self?

Rachel : Yes.

Alison : And then now. And so you sort of grew into the truth of you.

Rachel : Yes. I, I knew I had kind of two monologues going on. So sometimes I was, you know, going to, going to, you know, kindergarten, first grade, second grade and taking a spelling test, knowing this is really dumb. I’m going to be doing other things, but gosh, I really love spelling. And sometimes I, there were years that would go by that I would make myself forget or say to my angels, I do not want this. Take it away. I don’t want this. This is weird. I don’t want to be weird. And so it did go dormant for a while. And then, and that was actually part of my mission, is that I would experience an absolute human life full of a lot of, I would say, normal trauma, but it never feels normal when you’re going through it, because that’s the way I would be able to relate and help people and yeah, be be an angel walking on earth. Um, so yes, I was I’ve been playing both both roles… Full knowledge the whole time.

Jean : And so, Rachel, what what is an angel? And what’s the mission of an angel? Since we’re all…. Since we’re all from the divine.

Rachel : Yes.

Jean : Right. We are all divine beings. Um.

Rachel : An angel is an extension of source and is a messenger. Simply that. And all angels have something to share from source. And  my specific message is to help people understand that they are not separate from each other. Mm. That we’re we all came from a loving divine source. And that by being here and pretending that we’re Separate, you know that we’re all in these tailored suits we created, our bodies, but through being here, lifetime after lifetime, we get to remember that we’re actually from the same place, the same thing, and we get to remember that we’re all related. We’re actually all the same thing. We’re love. And when we remember that, we can start to get along again, we still get to have difference of opinions, but we can still play in the same yard. Yeah, that’s one of my big messages. And then the other big message I have for people that I’m supposed to share is we can,I’m supposed to be really tender about how I share this with people, we can grow with each other,  it’s like we can grow with each other at our own pace and be delightfully different…. I’m just going to say it this way-  every choice we make should come from a place of love. And if it doesn’t feel loving, we can always stop and course correct. Every choice is loving. That’s it, that’s it. That’s the message. Those are my two missions. That’s it. That’s all that I was told.

Alison : So what’s so interesting is Jean and I were just talking about that,

Jean : like boundaries.

Alison : What are boundaries, then? And where… Uh, I feel I’m in a belief system that says to me always, um, step in if someone needs help. Always.   Try to really be actively engaged in in that kindness. And then there’s a part of me that says, you know, maybe that isn’t kindness. Like there’s there’s this back and forth. Could you help clarify that at all for us?

Rachel : Yeah. I mean, sometimes you’re not supposed to because it’s their journey.

Alison :  Yeah.

Rachel : You get to sit with that and ask yourself,  it’s not selfish if you say is that good for me. I mean we’ve really been taught over and over that we’re supposed to help each other at all costs. We’re supposed to step in. But actually, what the angelic realm teaches us, who are pure messengers of God, however we define God, that there are many helpers that come in all forms. And so if it’s best for you to step back and let that person do their own, be on their own journey… Give them the time to do that, and trust that another helper will come through. And then it allows you to be loving to yourself and your own space, loving and safe. And it gives that other person freedom to grow a little bit so that you come from a place of absolute love for everyone. Might it hurt to see that person suffer? Yeah. That’s hard. It’s a hard choice. But hard choices can be very loving. This is real spirituality…. It’s not hallmark cards and rainbows all the time. It’s tough.

Alison : Yeah. Thank you.

Jean : Yeah. You know, I, I liken exactly what you said to like, a mother raising a child. And the child just wants all the cookies and you have to say, no. Um.

Rachel : But you want to say yes so badly, don’t you?

Jean : You have to say it. Right. And you so just love this person. And you’re like, here, you know, but you can’t. Right, right. And you know, Rachel, I heard you… I don’t know who was interviewing you, but it was a wonderful interview and I was like, wow…. With how you addressed the question about helping people with finances, people that are struggling financially. And you, um, you tuned into to the angels and, um, you gave like, 2 or 3  suggestions on you know, how to help someone change their mindset, who’s struggling financially.. Rather than always writing that check , giving them money. It’s like that parable, you know, teach a person to fish and they you fed them for life  …and you know, sometimes we just have to give the fish, at the end of the day.

Rachel : Yes, yes. But and that’s sometimes true.

Alison : Right,

Jean : So what do the angels say about helping people with their financial struggles?

Rachel : Mm.

Rachel : Well, what I’m hearing in this moment is that there’s an overwhelming sense of fear in our world,  that resources are going to go away. And what’s actually coming up for people is a lot of ancestral trauma, likely from, well, let’s just say generation generational trauma that’s coming back up to be healed where we might think it’s current. It’s not. It’s it’s in our DNA, it’s in our blood, it’s in our hearts. And we bravely brought that in with us to heal it for ourselves and for our ancestors. And so when we encounter someone that is fearful of money and is needing money or any, any type of abundance that they feel they’re lacking.

Rachel : We get to listen first. Listen to what’s coming up. What’s the why? Why are they in fear? What’s the pattern? And then when you have a moment, not then, don’t make it about yourself, but later kind of dog ear that conversation because they’re probably showing you something about you as well. Because everyone’s our mirror. I will say that, something’s coming up for us as well, always showing us something. But then people really are wanting to be heard right now. So just listening is one thing. What’s coming up that they just need you to hold space for them… And then I’m hearing the angels say, help them create a plan for the immediate so that the little person in them knows how their belly is going to be fed.

Rachel : Their loved ones can be fed. But then, there’s a vibrational frequency- everything around us has beautiful vibrational frequency. Everything has a vibe to it. Everything is dancing. Nothing here is flat in this dimension. Everything dances. And if you could help them look at everything around them as if it’s alive. Because it is. And they could start to talk to their car, if their car is breaking down. Talk to their name.  Talk to their car and say, all right, Phyllis,  i know you can do it. Five more Five more miles, baby. Five more miles. And put that love into their car. Just like they do to their children. And if they could talk to their pay stub and say, listen money, what do you need from me? And if they could hold that pay stub and change the momentum of what that money is doing, if it feels like the money’s always going out, if they could pull that money back and say, okay, I don’t want to keep you, you’re not my slave and I don’t want to keep you. I don’t want you to keep me either. But if they could hold that pay stub and say, all right, what’s our what’s our agreement here? What’s our partnership? And start to work with the energy of money. Now, not everybody’s ready to do that. Because when they are struggling, sometimes they just need to have their bellies full. So the first two steps I heard the heard the angels say were –  listen, hold space, feed the belly…. And maybe that’s a hug. Maybe that’s, can we go to coffee? But then, go to the upper level stuff, give them something to do, talk to it together. And what they’re saying is everything has frequency. Start to talk to money and redirect that energy. Because we have put so much energy into money in our country, that money now has a consciousness. It’s now talking back to us, so we can actually tell money what we want it to do. We can tell our sleep what we want it to do. We can tell our food. We can lift energy, negative energy, busy energy.., we can lift that off of our salad before we eat it, it will taste different. It will taste lighter.

Rachel : That’s what I’m hearing today.

Jean : That’s great.

Alison : That is amazing. Could you tell me, are, um, angels loved ones that have passed over or, like is there… It’s going to sound probably silly, is there like a hierarchy? Is there like, what is an what is an angel really like? I know I have guardian angels, but are they my past relatives?

Rachel : Um, technically, angels have never been human. So angels are created from pure energy, and they, there’s no real hierarchy. If you saw, if you saw a map of the angelic realm, there’s cherubs, there’s dominions, there’s a seraphim, but there’s there’s not upper management or anything like that…. We’re all we’re all equal on the other side. Just like it should be here.

Alison : Right.

Rachel :  Now, I could I could make a request to play around and be with the cherubs for a while, because we’re learners. You know, I could learn what it’s like to be at their in their realm if I wanted to. But my home is really seraphim. And so your loved ones ,really when your loved ones cross over, just like every person, there are really no real humans. Every human has come from somewhere divine. There are many angels. There are starseeds. Um, so we’re all wearing this beautiful tailored human coat. But if you think about it, we’re all divine immigrants. We come from somewhere. And so planet Earth is this amazing classroom space where we come to learn through play,  how it is to be together, learn these amazing life lessons. And earth is the place where the lower vibrational frequency stuff happens, like jealousy, hunger, even the perception of death. Where we don’t really live, we’re just here, we don’t really die, we’re just experiencing that. But we all come to Earth in this human like costume to to live for however many years we decide. But everybody here looks human, but we’re not– inside of us, our gooeyness, our spirit is. We’re all fractals of source, fractals of God. So there are many angels, you two, you may think you’re human, but you’re not right. You’re from someplace divine, figuring it out.  So your, your, your guides on the other side are a mix of angelic helpers. Both of you have two guardian angels that have been with you from the very beginning, and I would say those were assigned to you before all your lifetimes started. And they’ve never been human. I can recognize them kind of from my neighborhood. They are pure energy and light. And then for both of you, I can see family members that have passed, and then I can see ancestors, which I would qualify them as people who know you, but you don’t know them. Some of them are from other lifetimes, and they stay about a football field away, like they give you wisdom, but it wouldn’t be appropriate for them to even say anything because you wouldn’t know them at all.

Rachel : But they are there for you. And then you have some animals that you love that have passed, that kind of cuddle at your feet. And bring you comfort.

Jean : Mhm.

Rachel : Um, and you, you also have some colors behind you which are, I would say your personal aura colors. And then there’s some added colors behind you and I don’t really know what that’s about. That’s not my expertise. But I can ask your angels about that.

Rachel : Jean, you you have some kind of teal colors behind you, to your far right. Ohh, that’s Mother Mary. And she’s not Catholic. She’s associated with Catholicism a lot, but she’s not… She’s completely neutral. Are you a mama?

Jean : Yeah.

Rachel : Okay. Oh, and that’s not why, she says she’s with you and Allison, for sisterhood.

Jean : Yes.

Rachel : Yeah.

Alison : That almost makes me cry.

Jean : That’s so beautiful. Yeah.

Rachel : Yeah. And she’s wearing um…When she shows me what she’s wearing, when she comes in her human form…She’s wearing a cute, stretchy, um, tailored fit t shirt, and her hair is in a messy bun. She’s i think, she’s wearing, like, jeans, but I can’t really tell. But she’s modern.

Jean : Wow.

Rachel : Yeah.

Rachel : She’s there for both of you.

Alison : Oh, I love that. Now, when you say, um, that really is just… I know we could stop right now. Um, Rachel. Thank you. Um, when you say, um, you see them, do you really see them? Like, do you see them? Do you see things right now, or is it more like a sensing?

Rachel : It’s a mix of seeing them behind you, feeling them, and then they’ll flip to my mind’s eye, and then sometimes I can smell them, or I can feel them touching you while they touch me. If they put their hand on your back or they kiss the top of your head, I can feel that as well.  Or If they say something, I can, i can hear that. Not necessarily in my mind, but I can hear it right here. Kind of not in the room and not in my my head, but kind of in the space in between.

Alison : Wow.

Rachel : Yeah.

Alison : And how can we increase or anyone increase their communication with their, uh, angels and the whole sort of group around them? I feel like I’ve, I’m trying to work on that and I see real results, but I’m wondering what sort of steps could I take?

Rachel : They love that question.  So the first response I hear is, everyone can do this because we’re all made of the same thing. We’re all made of spirit. And their response is, create the opportunity. So meditating in a way that makes sense to you. And this is this is for anyone listening. And it doesn’t have to be a two hour meditation. It’s it could, it could be, you know, listening to your favorite song. The only thing that seems to get in the way would be a meditation where your body or your mind are too busy. So if someone’s trying to meditate while they’re, you know, going on a drive, if that works for someone, if they feel like they can multitask, go for it. Um, some people love to meditate while they run. That could be cool, because your body has a babysitter. But just creating the time to say, all right, um, angels or gosh, whoever’s around me, I would really love to to contact you. And just the words should be experience you around me. Because when you’re growing your your intuition, you want to stay open to your different clairs. You might think that you’ll see them, but don’t limit yourself to that. It could be so much more, and you don’t necessarily know your favorite clairs of your angels or your people on the other side. So if you’re just wanting to hear them, you might be limiting your peeps on the other side as well. So maybe use the word I’d love to experience you, or I’d love to just be with you and see what happens, and then have no expectations whatsoever.

Rachel : My favorite thing to do is I always have a warm cup of something. I usually forget to drink it, but I have a warm cup of something in my hands that grounds me, gives my body something to do. I like to put something in my ears that’s kind of a happy medium of something I like to listen to, but it but it doesn’t distract me. So maybe, light music with ocean waves or something. I typically will either stare out the window, you’ll see my eyes do that when I’m channeling. I’ll kind of look away, or I will put a sleep mask on and I’ll look behind my eyelids, because that’s looking into the quantum realm. We do that when we sleep, when we’re in the womb, um, when we blink, that’s fast. But we’re always we’re always there. So I’ll just kind of leave the planet and do that. And sometimes nothing happens. Sometimes everything happens. And I just try not to judge it. But what I hear them say is just give us the opportunity to be with you. Because once we come to planet Earth, gosh, we hit the ground running. We’re so busy. We’re always observing, and this is a way to just put the world on pause. And it doubles as soul care, self-care and bringing them in.

Alison : Um.

Rachel : We really don’t have to say anything like God protect me. But if it feels right to say that, go ahead. But your angels will already surround you in light and you’re not going to have any boogeyman come through or anything like that. That’s their promise.

Alison : Yeah.

Jean : And so? So it’s important to ask the angels for help?

Rachel : Yes it is. Yeah. Great point.  Because, um,when we’re born, we have free will. When you’re not in a body, you are in the quantum realm. Some people call it the heavenly realm, and you’re with all the other spirit. And so though you always have choice, you behave a little differently. You’re not limited to your body. When you’re born, you’re in a body. You are limited to free will. And that, that rule of law um..It just helps us all live together and it helps you be in control of your own life. So your angels start to become your cheerleaders. And they don’t, they don’t intervene that much. If you say to your angels, I really want to experience you in meditation, but also say to them, would you participate in my life? Well, that changes them from cheerleaders to participants and you’re going to begin to see them sending you numbers… Um, gifts -might see little rocks shaped as hearts. You’ll even see them intervening in your life in ways that are so magical and meaningful. If you’re looking for a new career, they’ll start to drop things in your lap. Absolutely. But you must invite them in because, then they can work with your free will. You’ll experience them more than if you didn’t. Great point.

Alison : Can I ask someone else’s guardian angel something?

Jean :  that’s an interesting question.

Rachel : It depends. Yes. It depends. If they’re your children, yes. If they are your soulmate, yes. And if it’s a question that is for their highest good, yes.

Alison : Okay.

Rachel : If it’s a question that someone might ask about– Let me make up a scenario. If someone wanted, if someone had been on a first date and they want to ask that person’s angel, can you make them fall in love with me? Will they ever love me? That kind of stuff is off the table.

Alison : Yeah.

Rachel : I know it’s not what you meant. I’m making up a scenario. Um, then no, we can’t get in the way of privacy or free will. But you could say, I really enjoyed that date, would you please make sure that he gets home or she gets home safely– yes.

Alison : Okay. That’s, that’s yes. That’s more in line.

Rachel : Yes. See the difference there? Right.

Alison : Yes, yes, yes, I totally do.

Rachel :  you would think that everybody would err on the side of make sure she gets home safe– but when people are desperate for love or money, boy, they really try to get in with those angels and make them like they’re bounty hunters.

Alison : That’s funny, but you have children, right?

Rachel : Yes, I have three.

Alison : I saw, I saw, I follow you on Instagram and I saw that and I thought, I wonder if you ask for that, like talk to your children’s angels and sort of just say, you know, they’re going to a concert… Let them have fun and let them, you know, drive safely.

Rachel : I do, more than that, i hear from their angels when I’m starting to worry, and I’ll hear from them saying they’re fine. Go to bed.

Alison : Yeah. That’s good.

Rachel : yes, they are not going to do anything… they’re not going to lose a limb.

Alison : Right.

Rachel : They are nice people…. I get reassuances from them.

Alison : And I guess we all could get reassurances from…

Jean : I mean I do I ask, I don’t ask every day, but I definitely have evidence that when I do ask my angels, i get the help. And it can be something very frivolous to something really important, you know?  And you know, I was telling Allison, you know, we know this… We we we love following people like yourself, Rachel, that are, you know, championing, you know, there’s so much more to just what you see and ask your guides and your spirits and and then you forget that you get so caught up in the day to day and the, um, you know, the news and everything. So, um it’s really lovely that you are reminding us all to ask your angels. Bring them in. Um, I, I want to talk a little bit about your website and what you’re doing now and what you’re offering so our viewers can check out what’s going on in your orbit.

Rachel : Thank you. Well, I really I just live my life, to be honest. I have a podcast that I’m really passionate about and it’s called, Angel Talk.

Alison : It’s great.

Rachel : And it is on the Mind, Body, Spirit FM Network or wherever people get their podcasts. I am passionate about that because I believe that shows like yours and the podcast that I do, what I love about it is it allows people to get content about their spiritual growth in the privacy of their own heart.

Rachel : I just think that’s the best thing because, you know, I’m all for going to going to church if that’s for someone, but it’s not a private experience and this allows people to, you know, listen in their car, put their headphones in and it’s it’s profound.

Alison : Yeah.

Rachel : So I really appreciate what you’re doing. And I feel like I get to share in that track as well. So, mine’s called angel talk. So I would just gently invite anyone to listen to that. And it’s my my podcast is not overly edited. It can be kind of messy. I cuss sometimes, I’m in my human self, sometimes- I just talk about everything that comes through and I’m really passionate about it. So I would invite people to that. And then,  what I, what I do in my everyday life is this I have conversations with people who come to me and they want to connect with their angels or their people on the other side, and you can reach me to do that on my website. Rachelcorpus.Com and there’s different things we can do, whether that’s connecting to your other lifetimes or building your life. If you want to talk about abundance or grief healing…you name it.  And that’s all kind of listed on my website. So that’s me living my best life.

Alison : I have to tell you your podcast. What I really like about it is I feel like I got to know you listening to your podcast. It’s because you’re so authentically you.  you know?

Rachel :  that is true.

Alison : It feels like we’re just hanging out, and I really, I really like I really enjoy your podcast, so I’m glad that you’re doing it.

Rachel : I wanted it to be that way because when I was growing spiritually, I was having trouble finding someone that didn’t feel like a guru.

Alison : Right.

Rachel : Right. And I just wanted a neighbor.

Jean : Yeah.

Rachel : I wanted a girlfriend. So I thought, well, I’m going to be that.

Alison : Exactly. And that’s how you totally come across. So it’s really it’s it’s a it’s fun. It’s I think it’s a fun podcast.

Rachel : Thank you.

Alison : I really enjoy it.

Rachel : I appreciate hearing that. So, I just wanted to bring people along with me. So that’s what we do.

Alison : Yeah.

Jean : And and I’ll say that, you know, listening to your interviews with various people like Alison and me, they’re they’re so inspiring. And I, I’ve been in this, uh, you know, spiritual self-awareness, self-help growth for a long time… And, you know, the way you say it, your voice and everything, it just it felt so loving and uplifting. So thank you.

Alison : Thank you very much.

Alison : We have two quick questions to ask you… Our podcast, also on mind, body, spirit, -which we love,  um, uh, is insidewink and we’re wondering what you think insidewink means to you?

Rachel : I absolutely love that question. And I thought about it a lot. I have kind of a weird answer for you.

Alison : I love that.

Rachel : I hope that’s okay.

Jean : Yeah.

Rachel : I’ve been thinking a lot about timelines. And when you know that you’re moving into a new timeline, and I realized that I’d been looking for a word.– Okay, let me say it this way. When you’re asleep, there’s this moment when you know that you’re having a lucid dream and you can kind of control it. Well, I’ve become aware that when you’re awake, there are also these moments where you realize, oh, there’s another timeline sprouting. I can control that but I didn’t have a word for it. Guess what? It’s an insidewink.

Alison : I Kind of love that.

Jean : Wow.

Alison : Now, what do you mean? I’m sorry? What do you mean, another timeline sprouting?

Rachel : So, Um, I think if you went back maybe five years , we didn’t have,  there was a sense of separateness, where we were just… It was the year we were in, and it was moving slow. Now it feels like time is catching up with us. Things are moving fast, and all of us have these parallel realities,  where here you are as Allison, and there are other versions of you in the universe where there,  you know, there’s a version of you that’s not spiritual at all. And she’s thriving… Looks just like you… But in that universe, there are subtle differences. So there are all these versions of you that are thriving, but you don’t run into her, because she’s those other versions are in a different frequency, like on a different channel.

Alison : Mhm.

Rachel : We all have those. And so we’re having an interview on those different channels…. We’re probably wearing something slightly different, talking about something slightly different…. Or the three of us are, are doing something different. We’re digging a ditch. We’re doing community service or something. Maybe we did something naughty, but we’re still having a conversation.

Alison : Right.

Rachel : Well, all of those timelines are starting to converge because we’re all awakening. So all those versions of us are starting to come into this timeline because we’re all awakening. So our spirit center is pulling all that wisdom into one. So we do this when we sleep all the time, because one dream will turn into another dream and you walk into another house, those timelines converging. Now it’s starting to happen when we’re awake and you get these moments where you’re like, wait a minute, how did I get on this street? Or wait a minute the clock just said this, and how did it just take five minutes for me to do that? That’s when you know, a timeline is converging or you have déja vu  It’s timeline converging. And I didn’t know what to call that. I was trying to call it a nexus point. I was trying to call it these things that I had maybe heard in a movie or a show, and I’m going to call it an inside wink.

Alison : I totally know what you’re talking about. And that’s… Yeah, that’s an honor that you call it that.

Jean : Yeah, Allison was the one that came up with our podcast name,  inside wink.

Alison : And it’s funny because everybody that we ask has something so beautiful and like, profound to say, and it really relates to them. Like it’s really a reflection of them. It’s just been a great question.

Rachel : Yeah, I love it. At first I was like, I don’t know what it is for me…

Alison : You know, you do know.

Rachel : Yeah.

Jean : Okay, so our last question before before we say,  see you later-  is do you prefer cake, pie or ice cream cake?

Rachel : Cake.

Jean : Okay.  Do you have a favorite?

Rachel : Yeah. I’m going to say, like, leftover wedding cake that’s been in the fridge.

Alison : Okay.

Rachel : And a fork.

Alison : I love that.

Jean : Yum.

Rachel : Yeah.

Alison : Very specific.

Rachel : In the middle of the night..

Alison : Yeah. In the middle of the night. Right. But standing up.

Rachel : Yeah. Like in my underwear.

Jean : That’s right.  And then you go to the refrigerator in the morning and you say, did I eat that much cake?

Alison : That’s a Timeline convergence.

Rachel : It wasn’t me…it was the other me..

Alison : it was the other Allison. Exactly. Exactly. Thank you so much. You’re such a joy. This has been so much fun. Thank you.

Jean : Very lovely. We really appreciate you so much. And the angels.

Alison : Yes.

Jean : Always being there…. Ready to assist.

Rachel : Yeah. Thank you. It’s been lovely.

Alison : Have a beautiful, beautiful day.

Rachel : You too. Take care. Thanks.

Alison : We’ll see you soon. Bye.

Rachel : All right. Bye.

Jean : Bye, Rachel.

Rachel : Bye.

Alison : Whenever we have these interviews, I always feel different. I always feel like… Wow… There are so many incredibly beautiful, interesting, good people out there really making an effort to connect us all.

Jean : Yeah, connect us all and help us all remember that we are vibrational beings and that we are responsible for keeping our vibration benevolent, high, good, especially, especially… And that’s the big paradox, given the big changes that the the world is going through.

Alison : Right, exactly. And, you know, it’s just the remembering of that during these times, really remembering that and remembering that that you’re going through that and remembering that this person’s going through that, just to remember who we are…

Jean : right, And and to be kind and, and I think that’s it, she said… Rachel said that shortly into our her interview with us,  to to be love, to be kind right?

Alison : We are love and her podcast really is great. It’s called Angel Talk and it’s on the same network that we are on.

Jean : Mind Body Spirit.

Alison : Right… And it’s- so if you have a moment and want to listen to to her, she’s— and her website is full of information and it’s great.

Jean : And she offers one on one sessions. So yeah, that was that was a gift from the angels to speak to her.  Thank you, Angels!

Alison :  thank you so much. Give your angels a shout out today everybody and we hope you enjoyed it.

Jean : Bye.

Alison : Bye.

Podcast Episode 57: Paul and Liz Raci

Paul and Liz Raci speak with Jean and Alison about Paul’s role in the uplifting movie Sing Sing and the affect Rehabilitation Through the Arts (RTA) has on the lives on incarcerated adults. Paul is an American character actor working in stage, film and television. In 2021, he was nominated for the Academy Award for Best Supporting Actor for his performance in Sound of Metal. Paul is currently in the movie Sing Sing. Both Paul and his wife Liz are spiritual practitioners and all around amazing people.
Please go to Rehabilitation through the Arts (RTA) for more information: https://rta-arts.org/
Transcript

Alison: I would like, I would like to hear about us. Go ahead. We both inhaled… There’s no air left in the closet.

Jean : We have to find a better place to do this than in, than my closet.

Alison: Although it’s nice in here, we have to try back at my house again. We just got back from trips.

Jean : We did. Yes. You were up in San Francisco.

Alison: And you were in Sedona. We go to the s words.

Jean : That’s right. Right. Well, I have to say, Sedona was absolutely beautiful. It snowed, which is very rare. So I thought that was like a wink from God. Yeah,

Alison: I love that. Yeah. And I was in San Francisco. It Didn’t snow, but it was beautiful. We had such a great time visiting my eldest, our eldest child.  And, um, you know, I realized you travel a lot… I realize I rarely travel and I like it, and I also don’t like it. Do you feel that mixed way or do you just hands down like it?

Jean : I like it, I don’t like to do big trips back to back, but I do enjoy traveling.

Alison: Like, do you go somewhere and then go? I want to go home.

Jean : Yeah, maybe after ten days I start itching for that. Especially if I don’t talk to you or my daughter or Matt.

Alison: I guess I felt like about halfway through, or maybe not even halfway, just a little bit of the way through. I’m like, I could go home now. Yeah. And then like, you perk up a bit.

Jean : Yeah. I think that’s a great feeling.

Alison: Yeah. It was, it was excellent. Yeah. And, um, and I think traveling is interesting because you are seeing things with new eyes that you haven’t seen before. Yeah. Do you know which I kind of love?

Jean : I totally agree, and I think for me it has brought about a new type of self-reliance. Because when I would travel with Alex, he took care of everything. He held the passports. He he had the airline tickets. It was just- I followed Alex through the airport and, you know, and now when I travel, I have to really be mindful of where did I put my tickets?

Alison: Right. That’s good.

Jean : Do I have my luggage? Did I leave it in the bathroom? You know, so I don’t have exactly.

Alison: Are my shoes on? Yes. I’m leaving the plane with my shoes. That’s exactly it. But that’s good growth.

Jean : Yeah. It is.

Alison: It’s growth. And speaking of growth, we have the best guests today, right?

Jean : We do.

Alison: They are amazing. And, um, they’re your friends. So why don’t you introduce them? Well, she’s your friend.

Jean : Well, I know Liz from the the church that we both went to. We are both we are both practitioners there. And oh, Allison, I was surprised to know that Paul is a practitioner as well, which doesn’t surprise me the way he thinks. Um, so it’s Liz and Paul Raci.

Alison:  he’s a fantastic actor. They’re both, First of all, they’re both fantastic people. He’s a fantastic actor. That was in sound of the Sound of Metal and most recently Sing Sing. Oh, what a great movie that that is, huh? We want everyone to see it and just champion rehabilitation through art. Right.

Jean : And the acronym is RTA. And as you just said,  rehabilitation through arts. It is such a powerful program to assist men in prison and women, I’m sure in prison as well incarcerated through the arts.

Alison: And so here, take a listen. Fantastic.

Paul : Hey, there.

Alison: Hi. How are you?

Paul : Great. I’m going to turn the volume up a little bit because I had to turn down. There you go. Hello there.

Jean : Hi, Paul. Hi, Liz.

Liz: How are you guys?

Alison: Great. I’m Alison,

Liz: Nice to meet you.

Jean : And I was sharing with Alison that Liz and I go way back, although we didn’t really talk so much at church because you (Liz) were in the teen church, and I was more in the office. But I certainly knew when you were on the grounds. And, um, I remember the great concerts you put on at the church. I think that was with your daughter playing in in the band. Yeah.

Alison: That’s fantastic. Thank you both so much for talking with us. You know, Paul, I’ve been a big fan of yours for a while now, and you’re so talented and so authentic in everything you do. So I really appreciate you talking to us about this incredible movie. Sing sing .

Paul : Yeah, well, thank you for your kind words. Uh, I’m just so happy to be doing what I’m doing in some very important movies, so it’s very good for me.

Alison:  Well, sound of Metal, you were fantastic. And this one, I think I cried through this whole film.

Paul : Yeah, it’s kind of hard, but the movie is so heartfelt and made, uh, with these two young guys that wanted to make a movie about the incarceration system with the way the whole the whole thing unfolded. Finally, using about 9 or 11 of the actual inmates who served time. And they’re finally out, and now they’re playing themselves in the movie all the way down to I don’t know if you’re aware of this, but these two young men that made the movie Gregg Kidder and, uh, Clint Bentley. Bentley I was gonna say Huntley, but Bentley, the two young guys that, uh, had an idea that they wanted to have a new kind of a system where it’s equal parity all the way around for people that make movies. Now, just think about this. Think about anybody that like Amazon, uh, Netflix, Apple, all these streaming platforms that have tons of money. I mean, this much money. And they make the movie and then they give all the actors about this much apiece for the time being, and then they keep making it the, the money as time goes along. This new paradigm, This new model makes sure that everybody that worked on the movie, including the costume designer, uh, the editor, the cinematographer, everybody, including the biggest star in the movie, Colman Domingo, of course. And then there’s me. I’m after him. And then there’s other well, everybody got paid the same thing.

Paul : So to understand what that looks like in the big picture is as the movie grows and it’s, uh, as it spreads around the globe, and the more people that see it, the more money it makes. And in the old paradigm, uh, or uh system, the usual, the usual, the, the producers get this much, they keep getting this much and all. Well, now this everybody gets the same. Everybody, including the guy who wrote the editor notes, including the as I said, the the press notes, the press notes, uh, the, uh, the costumer. This is unheard of. Everybody’s getting the same checks, and we’ve already received a few checks along the way. And I have to say, it’s not like nothing I’ve ever experienced. And to think that the nine or 10 or 11 guys that are in the movie that are formerly incarcerated, this is their first movie. They’re getting the same checks that I’m getting that Coleman is getting, and it’s nothing like I’ve ever experienced before. So. And they’re telling their own story is what I’m trying to come back to. My point about who more deserves this than the guys who actually actually lived the experience in Sing Sing went through this RTA program. Now they’re on the other side. And so they’re feeling like they’re feeling like actors. Yeah, they’re pursuing careers. All of them.

Paul : Every single one of them. So, uh, I don’t know how I got off on that, but I just want to make the point about the that new system. And I’ve had, uh, other producers that have had conversations with big time producers in this city who ask me, well, how did this parity system work? I kind of like to try that myself. So don’t think it’s not going to spread because it is already people are rethinking. Now we just had you know, we went through Covid, the strike, all these things that have the fires, everything I could possibly think of to cripple our industry here in Los Angeles. It’s almost like you take it personal, like what’s going on here? But they’re trying. They’re already noticing that there’s another way to do it. And so this is a tiny, you know, like a little window into the future of what it may be like. And I think it’s for the better for the industry, for actors and people that that want to get a foot into the industry. But it’s so locked down with everybody’s got all the power up there. This kind of weakened that a little bit. And, uh, I don’t know if I should say that as really it’s strengthened it to a point where everybody can get a little piece of the pie. Yeah. Or more than they had.

Liz: And also, you know, this particular film, we’re just hoping, um, divine G. Whitfield who Colman played, um, he, he was, you know, wrongly incarcerated, finally was released, and he’s trying to get exonerated. So he was nominated for a BAFTA award for Adapted screenplay. And he couldn’t go to the BAFTA Awards because he’s a felon, but he was wrongly incarcerated. So we’re hoping that this also will just bring to the forefront. Hey, everybody, pay attention. And we’re we’re sending around this, um, uh, thing to sign to support ivine G, to be exonerated.

Paul : Of a crime he never committed.

Liz: Exactly. So that he can travel the world unencumbered. Mhm.

Paul : And this is just one example, right of, uh, the wrongs that have been done to so many of our incarcerated, uh, people. I don’t want to say people of color. There’s also other guys that I as I get deeper into this, there’s a lot of guys that have been wrongly accused and that it’s just dropped. And then they they find out later on. That’s why I’m absolutely against a capital punishment. This is insane. Too many guys have been.

Liz: Wrongly incarcerated.

Paul : And wrongly executed… There’s no there’s no reason for it. There’s no reason for that. So there’s so many things that have to be done. But this is– Sing Sing is a great beginning for a different way to look at, uh, incarceration and, um, the cruelties of it, the inhumanity of it, The non rehabilitation. It’s not rehabilitation it’s punishment. It’s punitive,  in most cases.

Alison: You know in this… there were no tropes in this.

Paul : Exactly.

Jean : What does Trope mean?

Alison: Like uh like a gang fight or uh like a thing that you would expect. The expectation is to see in a prison movie because…

Paul : Yeah. Because what we’ve seen, like, how about Oz? A lot of rape, a lot… You know what? Clarence Macklin, the guy who, uh played Divine Eye in the movie…the guy that made the big sensation he was almost nominated for.

Alison: Right.

Paul :  He says, Paul, I never saw myself, uh, portrayed– i’ve seen every prison movie around, while he was in prison for all those years. And they show these prison movies ,  I never saw myself up on the screen. You weren’t thinking about sex back here. This is insane. But Sing-Sing, for the first time, you see that behind the walls of Sing-Sing, there are guys that are actually trying to improve, change their lives. They realize that now  after doing crimes when they’re 18 or 19, and now they’re like 30.  Oh my God.

Liz: And so many of them said, you know, had I been introduced to this program when I was 14, 15, 16, I never would have ended up here.

Paul : Had they met a teacher like this acting teacher that came into the prison.

Jean : So let’s talk about the program – RTA. What does it stand for,  for our audience and and what is RTA?

Liz: It’s rehabilitation through the arts.

Paul : So Brent Buell, the guy I played in the movie, wanted to use an acting teacher. He wanted to bring a program into the prison. Everybody told him he was crazy, that he’d be taken advantage of. That this was a crazy idea. And again, uh, when I think about the people I grew up with in Chicago, um, I don’t want to…. I’m trying to not characterize it too mega like. But people people believe in this punitive system. I hear it in, uh, right wing radio all the time, you know, because I like to listen to the other side and, you know, it’s like these guys got to be put away. Yeah. And punished.  But you have no idea what his history is up until the point where he was incarcerated now. So, uh, he brought the program in there and ended up making the best friends of his life in the behind the walls of Sing Sing, because he met some guys that were craving for some kind of salvation. Not salvation on the outside, but their own salvation. What can make me feel whole, complete, like I’m doing something and acting happened to be that avenue for a lot of these guys, just like, uh, and I always liken it to myself. When I got out of Vietnam, I went in 1969 when I was 21. I got out four years later, uh, totally confused and addicted to everything. And then I met an acting teacher, and I was like, wait, I had this awakening of, oh, this is what I’m supposed to be doing. This is what these guys went through in the walls of Sing Sing. Great stuff. They did 12 Angry Men, Midsummer Night’s Dream. They’re doing plays and really getting involved and having something to live for while they’re serving a 35 year sentence.

Liz: And the interesting thing is that we need this program to really spread because RTA has expanded. It’s not just theatre. There’s various prisons right now doing RTA, but they’re doing it as dance. They’re doing it as poetry. You know, they’re doing it as hip hop. In other words, is rap art. The thing is, art, whatever, whatever that looks like, whatever that form is of art, they’re just finding art in their soul. That then helps to heal. And we need that to be proliferated everywhere.

Paul : Um, proliferated.

Liz: That’s right.. What he just said.

Paul : Can you tell we’re married?

Alison: I love it.

Liz: 35 years married.  Um, but it’s only in six prisons in New York.

Paul : There are a few throughout the country.

Liz: It should be in every prision.

Paul : It should be, but, you know, uh, as you see the trope or the idea, the old ideas of, you know, God, when I was a kid, James Cagney in White Heat. Hey, Ma, top of the world, all these prison things, and you see them as tough guys. Uh, they’re no angels. All these movies I grew up with, those are tropes of what these guys are like. You have no idea. These are. They’re just like you and me. Yeah. Yeah. I made a mistake when they were not even 21. Yeah. Wow. And there’s so many of them because of what’s going on in our country.  Uh, because of the class system or the, uh, things that are going on in our inner cities where where guys feel more at home with gangs and doing their bidding rather than, uh, doing your bidding to an acting teacher who wants to help you heal the world through art.

Liz: Yeah. And what struck me when Paul got done shooting and came back home is, you know, he’d spent, uh, his dressing room was a cellblock, so he didn’t want to go in there because they were they’re actually shooting in prison.

Paul : We’re actually in a facility. Yeah.

Liz: And the prison where they were actually shooting is all closed off. The windows didn’t open. It was hot as can be. And, you know, so that was the only place to really hang out. So he hung out with all these guys, some wrongly incarcerated, some who as a young man on the wrong path did commit a crime. And what when Paul came home, what he said to me was, I just see humanity in all of them. I see humanity in all of it. And I’m like, that’s what we hope this film will bring to the country, to the world. There’s humanity in all of us. Yeah.

Paul : It used to be a softening around this whole idea of how we incarcerate men and women and then treat them in this punitive fashion. That’s not rehabilitation. And you’re not even trying to rehabilitate. There’s so much humanity there.  it’s heartbreaking… Heartbreaking.

Alison: Did you shoot in Sing-sing?

Paul :  We shot in a place, like, kind of kitty corner from Sing Sing. Sing Sing is Still an operational prison. There was another facility right in the area that was empty, and that was a depressing place to be. No, uh, they’d have a gigantic fan going on in this room, and then we had to turn the fan off and shoot a scene, and then you’re shvitzing after, you know, it’s like, oh, my God, this is so hot here.

Liz: Welcome to Hollywood.

Alison: Yeah.

Liz: So glamorous.

Paul : But you know what? This film, um, could not be shot in Hollywood because they wouldn’t do it, right. This was shot in a real place.These guys that were…. Now they’re out of prison. Now they got to go back in to shoot this movie and put these prison greens back on. Clarence just said, God, this itches so. It’s just making me feel so uncomfortable and and, you know, looking behind my shoulder and I can understand that. Um, but it was the perfect place to shoot. What a wonderful experience. These guys are just great.

Alison: Was it was it, um, had you been in a prison before, Paul?

Paul : Oh, yeah. Well, that’s another thing about me. I’ve heard that question many times. You know, for the last 40 years, I’ve been a sign language interpreter in the Los Angeles, uh, court system. An American Sign Language interpreter. I’ve been in many prisons for interviews with attorneys, so I’ve been there many times. It wasn’t my first rodeo in a prison. I knew what it felt like. I’ve been in lockups all the time doing interviews before we go into court, see the judge. This is my while I was a struggling actor trying to make it. I was doing that. That was my job. That’s why I bought this house. That’s how I put my kid through college, not with Hollywood money. Then after I was all done. Isn’t that weird how life is? After I was all done with putting my kid through college? All done with that. Uh, it really just been very comfortable with who I am. Then I get this big break doing a movie, which I’d been acting in theater all that time, trying to be an actor and just doing theater at Deaf West Theatre wherever I could and keeping my chops up. And then finally, when the time came at the age of, uh.

Liz: 74.

Paul : No, no.  Well, I was I was younger than that, I was 70.

Alison: Oh, you were a spring chicken.

Paul : I was, I was 69 or 70 when I got the nomination. Yeah. That was life changing. Just like life changing overnight. Um, so I’m kind of, uh, happy with the way it happened. I got to live my life and do the things that I needed to do. Uh.

Liz: All that time, the most important thing to you was raising our daughter.

Paul : Yeah. Yeah, I was trying to raise my daughter. Keep her happy.

Liz: And that’s easy. Yeah.

Alison: That’s beautiful though.

Paul : Yeah. It is. It’s totally beautiful.

Alison: Yeah. Yeah, right.

Alison: Did you. Do you feel that this movie brought you closer to any sort of spiritual understanding for yourself?

Paul : Uh, that’s a good question, but, um, no, I don’t think so. I think it just deepened it. I’d already had, you know, Liz and I trained at Agape International Spiritual Center. We became practitioners there. We ran a few ministries there. We had all this God like 15 years of service there. That’s another thing I’ve been serving all those years. And, uh, so when I actually got the nomination after all that, I thought, well, you know what? Okay. Uh, things happen for the best, but it deepened my and strengthened what I already knew, which is that all there is is one thing going on. Uh, everything’s going to be okay.

Jean : Mhm.

Paul : It’s going to be fine. I mean, I know everybody’s going through, but, uh, you really have to listen…. The biggest lesson I  learned from becoming a practitioner was this one guy says, look, the universe is like a yes machine. So whatever you say out loud, that goes right to the universe. And the universe says, yes. So if you say, um, you know, I’m not worth anything. The universe goes great… you’re not, and here’s some more of that, Paul. Or how about, I just, i can’t make it, i’m going paycheck to paycheck to the universe goes, great… you like that, don’t you? You’re going to get more of that. So I learned quickly and it’s still a ping pong game because you’re going back and forth of, uh, I have to, I must, it doesn’t serve me to think that way because the universe always says, yes.  If I say life is horrible, the universe says, yes. How about… , life is horrible… The universe goes, oh you’re right.  Life is good. Life is… There’s always enough to go around. The universe goes. Yeah. You’re right. So that’s the, that’s the change you got to make or the shift. Yeah, I think I make that little click of, i’m not going to say that anymore because the universe really gives you what you put out… The Universes says, yes.

Alison: Yeah.

Jean : Right, right.

Liz: It’s interesting because with all this, um, craziness going on in our country right now, it can be very weighing on your heart and your soul and your mind. And so we’re doing this thing like when we see something new or hear something new, you know, on the news or whatever. And I go, oh, it’s every day we run to each other and go, I am unbotherable… Are you unbothered?

Paul :  I’m unbothered. You can’t bother me.

Alison: Oh, I love that.

Jean : Do you guys have a have a spiritual, like a practice in the morning together or anything that you.

Liz: Meditation.

Paul :  The only thing we do together is we have sex. The other is our pray.

Jean : Do you want us to keep that in the interview?

Alison: Yes.

Paul : You know, I think it’s the… That’s that’s kind of the glue.

Liz: Okay. 35 years married. He’s still the sexiest thing I’ve ever laid eyes on. True.

Paul : You got that?

Alison: I love that. Yeah. Yeah.

Paul : No, no. She’s got her thing. I have my thing.

Liz: He’s more of a Buddhist. And, you know, from North Hollywood, I have a different kind of practice. But he’s more of a Buddhist. But still, practice is practice. One is oneness. Love is love.

Paul : But one thing we do have is agreement. And we are in agreement on, uh, not speaking. Boy, it’s so easy to slip off that thing and move over to things. This is this is this is not. It’s too easy. I’m so everybody’s influenceable or influencers out there or whatever. Um, no I’m not. It doesn’t bother me. I don’t care what that guy is doing in the I don’t care, I don’t care. I’ve got what I have to accomplish today, and thank God, uh, or whatever you want to thank. Sing Sing was a gift in my lap. And it’s out to do more and more good. More and more good. Now I’m on to the next project.

Jean : Which is. Tell us about your next project.

Paul : I have several.

Liz: He’s got like so many.

Alison: Oh. I love that.

Paul : Yeah, it’s very good.

Jean : Okay, great.

Paul : Uh, I’ll tell you one thing. That kind of fell in my lap is, uh, again, there’s this young man, uh, brilliant young man who wrote a script about solitary confinement and the horrors of that. Uh, these guys in solitary confinement talk about the punitive system. Yeah. These guys are not even allowed to listen to a Dodger game in solitary confinement for 13, 14 years at a time. So I’m. I’m delving into that subject. There’s a script that we’re looking at right now that that might get into that. This this is horrible. This is this is not the way humanity should be treating humanity. I don’t care what’s happened. There’s a story behind every story, and there’s got to be a little bit of, uh, uh, dare I say it, uh, you know, forgiveness. Yeah, I set it all out, but I don’t know. Yeah.

Alison: Yeah, that’s one of our favorite words.

Jean : Yeah and compassion and forgiveness. Right? And I think for me watching… Let’s go back to Sing Sing since, uh, I was really drawn to how the character you played Paul Brent, how he elicited the humanness from these men that have been so armored.

Paul : Yeah.

Jean : Armored their feelings. Right. And how this acting coach helps them get in touch and and I thought and so one of the…. So can you talk about that a little bit how how your character helped…

Paul : It was good to see him on the set. He was right there.

Alison: Wow.

Paul : I could see when we were during lunchtime, all the guys would gather around him and he was like this guy that they just respected and and he absolutely respects them and their humanness and with their foibles and everything, the whole thing there. And so I just was there, uh, noticing their relationship and how they interacted. So that gave me a good beat and how I could act with them when the cameras went on. In other words, everybody’s just mano a mano, just equal, uh, trying to get some work done here. Um, he’s a he’s this guy is, uh, a real he’s a good man. He. When a lot of these 3 or 4 of these guys got out of their incarceration period had nowhere to go, him and his wife, Janice, would take them into their own house. Oh. How many? Let’s be honest here. Come on. That’s a tall order. Take them into their house for….

Liz: Weeks and weeks and weeks, helping them find a job, getting all their papers in order, setting them up someplace for weeks.

Paul : Yeah. When I got back from Vietnam, uh, years and years ago in my first marriage, I had a Vietnam buddy that came back and I put him up in my house and he ripped me off. He stole all my cash and left, uh, you know, so… But that just shows you, uh, a that was disappointing.

Alison: Yeah.

Paul : And he was a friend of mine, but he didn’t. He was in a he was in firefights. He was in the jungle. I wasn’t in the jungle. I was a medic on a ship. I was doing another job. So my heart goes out to him and I wish him well, whatever happened to him. But, that’s the kind of thing that people warned Brent against. Don’t take these guys into your house. But he did. He’s a real man and I’m happy to be friends with him and his wife right now. But he’s a good man who had good intentions, and he’s spreading the word and trying to get this program out there more, which absolutely deserves to happen. You know.

Alison: I love that you equate a real man with vulnerability and kindness, because I think men have gotten them a message that does not always say that. And, um, my son, you know, is is 25 and he is um, I think it’s hard to be a man.   Did you get close to these guys or did you? Do you feel like now? Like you’ve made, like, lifelong friends?

Paul : Yeah, yeah. A couple of guys still call me on the phone.

Liz: We were doing the awards and festival circuit together. We all, you know, we were all hanging around for many days and traveling here and hanging out, and, um. Yeah, I consider them family. Every one of them.

Paul : Yeah.  But that connection, that bond actually happened while we were filming. We’d be having lunch every day, and a guy would tell me how it happened. I ask this guy, how did you end up in Sing Sing? He told me this this weird, fantastical story of a soprano type guy in new Jersey.

Alison: Wow.

Paul : You know, a hit man fulfilling a job. And then the other guy squealed on him. And then now they’re in Sing Sing for 33 years.

Alison: Wow.

Paul : And every single one of these guys would tell me their stories, and they would say, you know what? If I hadn’t met Brent Buell when I was 19? Oh, my God, my life would have been different. And I know, I know.

Liz: Art heals.

Paul : Art heals. That’s that really is the point. It really can. And it does.

Alison: Did you cry a lot on the set?

Liz: He cries a lot. All the time.

Alison: Does he. Because I just seeing you makes me wanna cry.

Paul : She’s talking about the sex. HAHAHAH,Um it’s an emotional uh place to be at.  You just it’s, a great bubble to be in. It was only like a 19 day shoot. So you’re in this bubble and there’s all this stuff going on and all these emotions going back and forth during improvs and talking about it. It’s right underneath the surface. So that for me as a professional, you’ve just got to realize what’s going on here. And then at the right moment you let it out. But these guys were doing a great job, man, when I think about, uh, some of the stuff they did, like I say, it was right there on the surface, ready to pop out. Um, when the time came and they were doing a great job. Dino is one example. Uh, the big, big black guy was….Dino blew me away in that scene. That’s in the movie he talks about… You know, we’re here to put on nice clothes and dance around and, oh my God, sorry…(PAUL STARTS TEARING UP).

Liz: See, he cries all the time.

Paul : Okay. But he it’s really an amazing moment because he was being so real that it blew us all away.

Liz: Yeah. And a lot of, um, a lot of Paul stuff when he was like leading them through a meditation or a thing that was improvised.

Alison: Wow. I was going to ask that. That’s amazing.

Jean : Oh, I love those.

Paul : They would just say, Paul, lead them in because they know I’ve been, uh, a practitioner and minister. So I would just lead them through a meditation and, uh, wow… The one around the circle where they’re all talking about.—-. That’s all real. That’s all that scene is for real.

Jean : And that shows how powerful the mind is, how powerful our thoughts, our thoughts are. And that you can say, okay, think about your most favorite place to be.

Paul : Right

Jean :  oh, and you know, I never do that. I mean, sometimes I’ll do that, but but to go,  like, what’s my favorite place? And now what am I feeling. Because you, we’re so easily drawn into what feels the bad.

Paul : Which is what I’m trying to say about that universe thing, because when you do that, Jean, when you do that, when you go, what’s my favorite place? Then the universe goes, how about if I gave you some more of that? Just like an algorithm, you know, these algorithms on Facebook, when you click something –like, I want to buy a pair of boots and the algorithm goes, oh, you like boots? Here’s a whole bunch of more boots. That’s what I’m talking about. The mind goes, I want to think about my favorite place. I remember being with my wife on a picnic. We had a bottle of wine. I love that the universe goes…. Would you like some more of that? Okay. Yeah, that’s the whole thing, right? It’s just awesome.

Jean : Awesome. So Paul and Liz is there, um, because we’re while we’re already half an hour in, but is there like a website that our listeners can go to to look and to maybe help this program.

Liz: Yeah. RTA.com.

Jean : RTA– so simple

Paul :  you’re going to a rabbit hole.

Liz: they need all kinds of support Yeah. Financial And also people just to come in and support the program in person. RTA rehabilitation through the Arts.

Paul : Or Maybe it will help somebody look at the system. We have the penal system we have right now and go. Mm mm. It’s something’s wrong with that.

Liz: How about if we don’t have corporations run our prisons anymore? Mm.

Alison: I know.

Liz: How do we change that?

Jean : Yeah. You know, as I was getting ready for this interview. I was listening to an interview you did ,Paul, with someone, and you were saying how in indigenous communities, the person that has been that is being reprimanded or being looked at– the community embraces them with love rather than you did this wrong, you’re a loser. They were more like, you’re my beloved grandson. Yeah.

Paul : Yeah, right.

Liz: That’s so true.

Paul : They put them in the middle of a circle to surround them, and I say, you know, I remember when you were ten years old.

Liz:  And you helped my grandma do this, and I, you know, instead of what you just did wrong, how you were just egregious in your behavior. No. We’re going to remember who you really are. Let’s all come together and remember who you are. And then you can let that go, and you can forgive yourself and move forward.

Paul : That doesn’t happen.

Liz: Not in America.

Paul : Not in our current incarcerations. No.

Alison: Liz, what you’re saying is so perfect about remembrance, remembering who we are.

Paul : Right

Alison: And that’s why this movie is so, you know, you know, it had tones of, um, bits of Shawshank Redemption.

Paul : Yeah, a little bit.

Alison: Because they they’re such…. You fall in love with all these people. You fall in love with them. You know, we fell in love with you and all the characters and. And it’s remembering the truth of who we are. Did you did you raise your child that way? Like, do you feel….

Paul : Yeah.

Liz: It’s so funny because, you know, we raised her that way and we, you know, taught her the spiritual principles that we believe in. And I’m like, it’s not taking, it’s not taking. It’s just doesn’t take. And then and then she goes off to college and she calls me and she goes, you know, mom, I find if I meditate first thing in the morning, I have a better day. I’m like, it took!! IT TOOK!!!

Alison: That’s right.

Paul : And there’s still there’s still she’s out there on her own now, but there’s still the temptations, as we were talking about, of falling off that, uh, that mountaintop of understanding and going with what the influence is saying. What what CNN is saying. What Fox news. Ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba. And then you start to believe it. And that’s that’s where you need to grow some spiritual balls.

Liz: But when she falls off that place, she’ll text me, give me an affirmation mom.

Jean : Very nice.

Paul : Yeah. It’s not you know, it’s it’s difficult, it’s a challenge. But um I don’t know uh, we’ve been on it so strongly lately. Uh, we feel good about what’s going on. So I know it doesn’t look good right now, but…

Liz: We’re not going into the quagmire.

Paul : No, it’s… It’s really all happening for the best. And it’ll take a while, but, you know, it goes this way, this way, that way. But I am going to stay on point. I’m unbotherable— how about you?

Jean : UNBOTHERABLE…I love that.

Liz: We’re focusing on the good.

Alison: That’s right, that’s right.

Paul : Yeah. And that’s important.

Alison: Did you want to ask our last two questions?

Jean : Sure. Okay. So we’re going to wrap up, you guys.

Alison: And thank you so much.

Jean : This has been Awesome, I know I could have, I know both of us could have chatted with you all afternoon. But we’re going to wrap up pretty soon here with the last two questions. And they are, what does inside wink mean to you?

Paul : Inside wink. I like the way you, uh. I’ve never heard it described that way before. Uh, you know, I’m a coder. I’m a child of deaf adults. You probably saw the movie, uh, and my parents were deaf. I grew up in the 50s, and, um, I’ve always called it my superpower, but you call it inside wink- – for me, um, I grew up watching my parents. There was no texting. There was no closed captioning. There was there was a very closed society to my parents who were deaf. But I saw them struggle through this whole existence and raise four kids. I saw their special life of being excluded from our hearing culture, from television. No, no closed captioning on TV in the 50s and 60s no bonanza where you could read the story. None of that until you know the recent history. So my inside wink is I have empathy for anybody who is other than I’ve always had empathy for anybody who is considered to be less than. My mother made that very clear when I was about seven years old about, uh, what it feels to be less than. So my inside wink is I have empathy and I support anybody that I can see that’s feeling less than, because of my parents and the way I was brought up. That’s my inside wink.

Liz: And mine is in sign language. You would do this— we’re in agreement- simpatico- we understand.

Alison: Oh, I love that. That’s perfect. That’s a beautiful. Those are beautiful. And they’re so you. They’re both so perfect for you guys. That’s beautiful. And could you tell me what your favorite would be? Pie. Cake or ice cream?

Paul : Pie!

Liz: Pie!

Paul : Yeah. It’s like an old fashioned, uh, Chicago thing. Pie was always blueberry pie. Strawberry pie, apple pie, strawberry rhubarb pie with a scoop of ice cream. I’ve always liked pie. A really good pie with a good crust. I had two grandmothers that were very good at it. So I have to say pie. Pumpkin pie– i could go on forever.

Alison: Yeah….Another hour passes. Thank you so much. It’s so wonderful to meet you both and just see what …. Such a beautiful, great couple. Yeah, this 35 years. It’s a real testament. Thank you.

Liz: And just keeps getting better and better.

Jean : Yeah that’s great. And I, I agree I have some friends that have married a long time and…

Alison: I Feel that way about my husband and.

Jean : The Really good years come… If you hang in there and do the forgiveness and work on yourself, uh, it pays off. And, um, Liz, I do have to say I was sharing with Allison. You were I said, I don’t really know Liz that well, but boy, was I just remember her being really hip at the church. And I loved seeing you there. And you’re you’re just as bright and beautiful as ever.

Alison: And, Paul, you really you just don’t even seem like you’re acting when you’re acting.

Paul : Well that’s good. That’s a compliment, because that’s what it’s supposed to be.

Liz: Be well.

Paul :  lovely.

Jean : Many Blessings.

Speaker3: Okay. You too.

Alison: Bye.

Jean : Bye.

Jean : Okay. I’m on Cloud nine.

Alison: Yeah. They are so… What an incredibly lovely couple. And they’re just so warm and generous.

Jean : And wise … Very, very wise. I love that they are non…

Alison:  Unbotherable.

Jean : Unbotherable.

Jean : Thank you, Paul and Liz…We’re going to stay unbothered. That was genius.

Alison: And he they they are so passionate. And boy, he he was so vulnerable. He cried a couple of times and just incredibly sweet. And she’s lovely. Like, you really see that they’re a team.

Jean : Absolutely.

Alison: You know, a real marriage, that’s a team. And, you know, really beautiful.

Jean : Yeah. Please see, Sing Sing.  And if you want more information on RTA – the website is just, RTA.com.

Jean : And learn about this amazing program that is shifting and changing lives.

Alison: Yeah. Just really it it inspired me so much.

Jean : Same.

Alison: But that was fantastic. So thank you Paul. Thank you Liz.

Jean : Right. And thank you Winkers.

Alison: Winkers.

Jean : That’s that’s going to be our new name for our listeners…winkers.

Alison:  and be unbothered.

Jean : Yes.

Alison: Bye.

 

Podcast Episode 56: Dr. Amy Robbins

Jean & Alison speak with Dr.Amy Robbins again. Dr. Amy Robbins is a clinical psychologist, spiritual intuitive, and Director of Mental Health at BIÂN. As a leading expert on conscious living, Dr. Amy Robbins uses death as the lens to awaken us to life. She hosts – Life, Death and The Space Between – a podcast focused on expanding consciousness and opening listeners to the miraculous universe we live in. Through interviews with fascinating professionals, leading experts, and researchers in the fields of brain science, mediumship, psychology, near death experiences, consciousness, grief, transitions to death, and alternative forms of healing, she explores life and death from the psychological, spiritual and scientific perspectives.

Learn more at dramyrobbins.com.

Transcript

\Jean: Okay. Are we rolling?

Alison: We are. We’re rolling. Here we are. We’re doing it. Um. We are… I don’t know when this is going to, you know, be on the air, because usually you just could be listened to anytime. But I did have to mention that we are, um, at the tail end, hopefully of the fires. And we just want to send our love and kindness to everyone involved and to thank the firefighters.

Jean: Yeah, absolutely.

Alison: True heroes.

Jean: True. talk about courageous people.

Alison: Yeah.

Jean: And, uh, going through a huge transistion.

Alison: And all the people.

Jean: that’s what I mean… All the people that just— the firefighters, the people….

Alison: The families, the the helpers, you know, it just– I went to the Red Cross the other day and they were sort of helping  and you know, it almost makes you cry when you see people really come together and people helping, like the animals… And, you know–

Jean: It really shows that we, the human heart, uh, yearns for connection and supporting each other. We really do. There’s so much goodness in the world.

Alison: And that’s a perfect transition to who we are going to talk to today.

Alison: Amy Robbins.

Jean: I love her.

Alison: We love her. And we talked to her earlier, uh, last year, and we just felt such a connection with her- that we asked her to be back to talk about spirituality in 2025. And it’s going to be a perfect discussion for right now for us, I think.

Jean: 100%. And she brings forth so much practical, everyday wisdom. I’m sure our listeners will get something really juicy  and, uh, inspiring from it.

Alison: and life affirming. Well, here she is. Amy.—HI!!

Amy : Hello…  I am so sorry.. My daughter just got into college, and so I got totally. I totally lost track of time.

Alison: No, no, no, we’re I that’s what we said. We’re both like we we… Oh, she has kids, so it could be anything.

Jean: It could Be anything.

Amy : I was literally thinking all day, I’m like 3:00, 3:00, 3:00, because I cleared out my whole the rest of my day because I didn’t know what time the the decision was coming in. And it came in at two.

Jean: Congratulations.

Alison: And congratulations.

Amy : Thank you. Thank you. So we’ve just been, like, off the wall.

Jean: Sure.

Amy : We’re not expecting that she was going to get in.

Alison: Tell us everything. Where is she going?

Amy :  Michigan.

Alison: Wow.

Amy : Yeah. And my husband and I both went there,so –  but we thought she would probably get deferred.

Amy : And so she came home from school early because she didn’t want to be at school when she got the decision. And then it came in at 2:00, and it’s been like madness.

Jean: I remember those days, Amy.  It’s so fun. And it’s high energy and congratulations.

Alison: Do you want to. You want to wait?

Amy : No. I’m ready. I have, like, more energy. I am jacked up.

Alison: Can we can we use that little part about your daughter getting into Michigan, or would you prefer not to?

Amy : Sure. Is it recording? Is it recording?

Alison:  Yeah.

Alison: Okay, good. Because that’s so exciting. And that’s such an important part of life for everybody involved in your family.

Amy : It’s a big -it’s filled with a lot of emotion, for sure. It’s like the joy because you want your child to, you know, to, um, get what they want. And then it’s like the grief that’s going to settle in over the next six months, nine months, as I get ready for her to leave.

Alison: And is this your eldest child?

Amy : This is my first. Yeah.

Alison: So what do you describe that to me? Like, what do you think about that? Because we both went we both had that experience. And and it’s interesting that you’re calling it grief.

Amy : Yeah. I’m just I’m just anticipating, like, so many things, the shift in the family dynamics, the, um,– her being on her own. She’s like my pal for everything. She’s my sidekick. And so. And now I’m left in a house with three dudes.

Alison: Yep.

Amy : And a dude dog.  So I’m just like and just anticipating so much of it. Like the joy, the sadness, the excitement, the just anxiety about. I mean, I know it’s the right place. I really believe in my heart, it’s the right place for her. So that feels really good like that. Um, just knowing her personality and how she is and like, the school, obviously, because my husband and I both went there, but I think just like wanting, like, launching your child. I looked back at her baby picture, and we, um. I’ll show it to you. Okay. Because when she was born, this was that little hat that she wore in the hospital.

Jean: Oh.

Alison: And she’s got the M.

Amy : Right. We bought, we bought, we ordered a little… We didn’t know if we were having a boy or girl. We ordered the ordered the little Michigan hat and she wore it in the hospital. So it’s just like, so it’s just it’s it’s amazing.

Alison: Well, congratulations.

Amy : Thank you.

Alison: That is so Exciting.

Jean: It really is.

Jean: It’s just a beautiful time, these new beginnings and and I think, you know, I think grief happens when, when a major change happens in our lives.

Amy : Yeah.   You know, I’m, uh. Gosh, it’s just like you you guys got me with, like, all the feelings. Like the joy. I mean, I just feel, like, completely elated right now. And then you realize…

Alison: You’re glowing.

Jean: You’re like you had a natural facial.  It’s like you don’t look beautiful, but You’re glowing.

Amy : Yeah. I mean, it’s just you you want for your kids what they want, right? And you just want, you hope that they achieve what they want to achieve. I mean, it’s not about people say, well, yeah, you and your husband went there. We did. But I wanted her to be where she wanted to be, and that’s where she wanted to be. And so, it just feels it’s just wonderful to be able to experience that. Like pure joy, like the purest form of, like, happiness and joy. It’s like, you want a bottle, I want a bottle this feeling up because, it’s I mean, the hour and a half before we got on is just like screaming. And, you know, my family calling and my her grandparents calling and, um, her friends, which is so amazing to see now like, because how connected everybody is.

Alison: Yeah.

Amy : To watch like all of her friends from all over just calling and they’re all so happy for each other. It’s a beautiful thing to see your child have friends who celebrate eachother.

Alison: YAnd you know, it’s so funny when we say grief. It’s got such a bad rap. Grief. But grief is so good on some level. Like when you’re saying like grief, it’s not really grief, it’s more just, you’re expecting a lot of emotion about this person, that the whole point is to get them to go away from you, and you just want to keep them close. Right. And it’s, you know, this real interesting dichotomy and dynamic. I remember all those emotions so vividly with my kids. Like, I remember getting in the cars after you dropped them off and just bursting into tears, but not tears of sadness, It’s really, you know…

Jean: Almmost Like an accomplishment.

Amy : Mhm.

Jean: And it’s also, I think grief is, is like, you’re in a phase of, of deeper transitioning.

Alison: Yeah. That’s a great way of putting it.

Amy : Yeah. And love.

Alison: Yeah.

Amy : So much love. So much love that often walks, you know, hand in hand with grief as it’s –I think I think to think about grief, as always, something that’s bad to feel is a problem in our world. Like, it’s it’s not it’s it’s an important part of every transition in our lives, is that there is usually grief associated with it.

Alison: I totally agree. Yeah.

Jean: I don’t think you can get through the human experience without some experiencing some level of grief.

Amy : Mhm.

Jean: Otherwise you’re really you’re missing out, you know, there’s a depth to it that shows, as you just said, Amy, the love that’s there.

Amy : Um, well, and it’s also amazing just to think about, right, like in one moment– and I think this happens so often in our lives. Right? One moment that you could either feel fear, feel like such pure joy or such depth of, like sadness, like in in a moment that she opened the email, it was complete joy. But the other could have also been true like that, that she could have not gotten in. And then it would have been like sitting in that sadness of what was lost, right? Like all the loss of what she had envisioned, maybe her life would have been like, or where she had thought she was going to end up that she didn’t like. It’s just so much in these one tiny moments.

Alison: Yeah. It’s a lot like when you’re, uh, trying to get pregnant and you take that test.

Amy : Oh, yes.

Alison: You know, you’re looking at that stick like, uh, you know what I mean?

Amy : Right, right. It’s like you’re, like, trying to project onto.

Alison:  And then there are people that look at that stick that don’t want it. So, you know, there are these things that, you know, anything, you know, and, you know, we’re just, you know, this is this, this this, um, podcast won’t air right now, but we’re just going through and witnessing these fires.

Amy : Yes, I know, and how how are you both doing?

Alison: Okay.

Jean: We’re good. We’re not in the direct path, but  we’re sort of in the middle of.

Alison: Yeah, we’re in the middle.

Jean: And and, um, you know, we’re miles away from it, but you can definitely smell it in the air. And there is this sense of like, um… Unsettledness.

Alison: Yeah.

Amy : And how could there not be?

Alison: Yeah. And just the fact that, you know, you hear these people and what becomes important. Like there was one moment where, um, there was a fire started right near me. Like, literally, I could see it. So we were all out on the street looking, and, uh, we were on the– get set, get set, like, to evacuate. And so you’re walking around your house, and in the same moment, everything becomes meaningful, all these objects. And at the same time, meaningless.

Amy : Mhm.

Alison: you’re like, okay, I need this, I need this. Wait, why am I taking this? Okay, I need that. I don’t need that. And then it’s like it was right. It was the sense of what, what is important. What is meaningful to me. It’s very….

Amy : it’s surreal. It’s surreal to have those those experiences in life where it’s like these decision points. I mean, I said to my husband and my kids too, I said, what would you guys take? Like, what would it what would be the things you would take with you? And it’s so interesting because everybody’s first response, mine included, this is a this is a very, um, intimate disclosure. Here was my blankie and their blankies. Oh, I still I still sleep with a transitional object.

Alison: I, I love that.

Jean: That’s so sweet.

Amy : But but they were like, we would take our blankies. Yeah. And I thought that’s like, their most, like, comforting possession.

Jean: I did think about that because I, I was on like the third evacuation actually, Allison told me, Jean, you might have to evacuate. And I was…

Alison: For a different fire. For a different fire? Yeah.

Jean: And, um. I can feel it in my throat. In the air here. So I right away took the passports, social security, things like that. And then to Allison’s point, I was looking around and going, God, what do I take? And and I left with very few items, some pictures. I took, some pictures. I took no jewelry.

Alison: Yeah.

Jean: Yeah,  I just took sort of sentimental things, a few and that was it. And then, you know, it’s a great point to recognize, you know, what’s really important to you.

Amy : Mhm.

Jean: You know so, and not that that jewelry isn’t I love some of the pieces that my Alex had Alex had given me over the years, you know -but it wasn’t like, you know, I didn’t run for that. Right. I ran for a few of the photos. And then, you know, because everything is so digital now.

Amy : Right. Which is crazy, right? Like, now everything is just stored on, like, this little device that’s stored up there.

Jean: So it’s so it’s like, grab your phone, grab a few older photos of, you know, wedding photos. And then, um, I took my, you know, just passport and stuff like that.

Alison: And the amount of prayers, you know, to just, you know, you were you were talking the last time we talked about spirituality and we wanted to talk to you about that because you had said that that was really something. I also have to tell you something. Uh, we have, um, friends that listen to our podcast. Um, one of my friends was so taken with you. They’re like.. “Hi Vinnie”  They’re like fans of you. They want to know all about you. They’re listening to you. They had so many feelings about all your interviews. And, like, I just wanted to tell you that whenever I came across was so powerful that this this high school friend called me up like, oh, my God. Amy Robbins, huh? You got to just you got.

Amy : When I come hang out with you ladies, you’ll invite your friend.

Alison: Okay. Yeah, right. He was like, you got to get her back. I’m like, we are Friday.

Amy : Oh, I love that. Thank you. So that was. That means a lot. Thank you.

Alison: So tell me, like, what are your thoughts surrounding this year, which there is so much going on right now and how does spirituality play into it for you.

Amy : So I’m not like an astrologer or I follow that lightly because honestly, like for whatever reason, it doesn’t seem to sink in really with me, But for a long time, I think what they’ve been saying is that it was really like until and maybe through 2025, things are still going to be a little chaotic and then things are going to start to settle down, which it feels like we need.  And I have found and continue to find I have some crazy side stories, even just for what we were just talking about earlier with my daughter, that even I, I was too scared to even think that they could actually really be signs to believe it. And I feel like I heard my guides talking to me, being like, what is it going to take to get you to trust that these are real? But I find that, like really leaning into that has been helpful for me. Not just signs, not magical thinking, but leaning into trusting. And in a time where it’s I mean, look, it’s really hard to say to anybody… Oh, just trust that this is for the highest and best good like that to me, feels like spiritual bypassing, we’re in there is a lot of traumatic things happening in this world right now.

Amy : And I see spirituality is a way of helping ease some of the suffering around that. I mean, Jean, last time we talked so much about A Course in Miracles and how that has been so healing and I just and that’s a spiritual text, right? It’s not, it’s it’s a very spiritual text. And I think those connections to something bigger than us can bring us tremendous comfort in these times. And we know, based on a lot of the research from Lisa Miller out of her lab at Columbia, that spirituality is really a protective factor against many mental health issues as well. So when we have this belief system, it doesn’t insulate you from it, but it pads you a little against it, against feeling so overwhelmed by the state of everything. And I think it feels to me like so many people are just their nerves are just like raw and exposed. First of all, I think when you have a belief that there’s something bigger than just you, then you can connect to the humanity in other people… Like that you can, i mean, let’s take the fires, right? Like for those of us who, me being someone who wasn’t there but feeling like a deep connection to people that I knew that were there, even people I didn’t know.

Amy : I just had a woman on the podcast last week who was a friend of a friend that I met through the podcast, and she lost everything. She’s a psychologist and I’ve been able to… I had her tell her story on the podcast, um, I’ve helped share GoFundMe stuff for her, a wish list for her. And that to me feels so meaningful, to be able to help someone else. And I think that when we can see ourselves in someone else, and when we can have that connection to another human being, it’s it’s transformative. It’s what makes us human. It’s what makes us feel alive. And more, I think, more than anything else, is being able to just give back in that way, to be there for another person. I’m so lucky. I have a career where I constantly am able to see have that connection and that meaning making and people’s lives, and it’s so incredibly rewarding. I don’t know if I answered your question. I’m like still, like, floating up here. So I’m just allowing whatever’s coming through to come through.

Jean: No, your points were well spoken and to the point. And I do think spirituality is where people go when they are suffering in life. It’s usually the path… I know it was for me. You know, it’s something people look to because the outer world is not is no longer satisfying. It’s, they’ve been betrayed. There’s been something big and so, you know, and there’s so many different types and the whole smorgasbord of spiritual paths, you know, and you find your one, the one that speaks to you… It rings true…. And and you work with it. And you, um, like you said, Amy, I think you come to realize that your life ultimately in the beginning is about you, but then it’s about the other people that were engaged with. So but you got to get yourself together and get your thinking and get, you know, get your priorities right. And, um, there’s this beautiful quote that says, “you first have to become selfish, to become selfless.” … If you put the if you do it the other way around, it, it it can kind of backfire. So, um, you know, I think we are all in the whole, well, the United States, let’s just say, you know, we are we are missing that element, that we are spiritual beings. We’re, we’re we’re in such a a mindset of materialistic, you know, get it from the outside, then I’ll be fulfilled within. And spirituality turns that around.

Amy : Mhm. Yeah.

Jean: It’s not you know it’s a day to day choice.

Amy : Yes. Yeah. And I think it’s such a shame. And part of I feel like my quest is that it doesn’t, you don’t have to get you don’t need to be brought to your knees in order to find spirituality. Mhm. Don’t wait for that.  Start before you get to that point. Because there’s so much more excitement and joy in life when you can play… I’ll give you the examples from this week with my daughter that I didn’t want to trust.

Amy : So I’m a huge signs person. I am always speaking to the universe in signs like that’s how I communicate. And I always ask in my meditations when I’m connecting with my guides, I always ask for really concrete signs. So obviously my daughter got into school today. I’m very excited about this, and I and I think I feel like my guides are kind of always teasing me. Like, how obvious do you want us to make this for you?  Like, do we need to, like, beat you over the head with it? I’m like, yes, you do. So and it was funny because last night I was talking to a girlfriend about something, and I was saying my sister was saying she had this sign and that sign. And I said to my girlfriend, those are not signs. And she goes, when the sign lady is telling you they’re not signs, they’re not signs like that. I’m saying, like, those are not signs. Those are just other things. So I go, I’m like, in my bath last night, it’s my favorite place to just, like, decompress, and I am looking through emails and this I have an online course and this woman from my course reaches out to me and I haven’t, I haven’t been,  the course is on hiatus right now and I’m getting ready to start a new cohort.

Amy : And so we’re sort of like in this in-between, and I hadn’t heard from her, and she reached out to say, you know, something that she was struggling with with the course, and then, um, she’s headed to Ann Arbor this weekend for, for this festival. She thinks I’m familiar with the Hill auditorium and, like, kind of like a wink. And I’m thinking, okay, I don’t want to get overexcited here, but but if this comes to fruition, don’t tell me that the universe doesn’t try to communicate with us in all kinds of ways. And then my pictures on my phone today for the memories of today popped up. It was a picture of my daughter from eighth grade with her friend, and she’s fully decked in Michigan gear like head to toe hat, jersey, everything. And I’m like, okay, I might be listening. I’m not sure I’m listening yet. I’ll know for sure once it happens, right? And it’s just like, it’s those those experiences that to me, make life so playful and awe inspiring. I mean, there’s so much awe in that. It’s like, how did it happen? And it doesn’t make… And my husband, I told him last night because I didn’t tell any, I really told only my friend who I said who said this isn’t a sign, i was like, I think this might actually be a sign. So I sent her that screenshot, but I didn’t say anything because I was too nervous to jinx anything. And I sent it to my I told my husband about it and he’s like, that’s nonsense. Like, I don’t buy into that. I haven’t asked him yet if he buys into it now.

Jean: Do you ask for signs all the time, Amy?

Amy : All the time? All the time.

Jean: I think if you’re if you’re someone that does not. I think it’s a cute, like, a entertaining type thing. I mean, I asked for a sign once, and, um and I totally got it. And I wasn’t into signs asking, you know, show me a sign. Show me a sign. And when I got it, it’s like, wow, you’re so right. There is something else going on, and it’s mind blowing. It’s like, kind of bow to it. Yes, I’m I hear you.

Amy : You’re like, I surrender, I surrender to what is. It’s the most amazing fun if you want to try to create like just those little bits of joy that we were talking about earlier, like to bottle them up. Having a conversation with whatever it is the universe, a loved one, spirit guide, higher Self, and playing with the universe in that way. It’s so. It’s a mind blowing experience. I was going to say something else, but I don’t know. It’s a it’s such a mind blowing experience. Like even as we’re talking, I’m thinking about how a couple weeks ago, my daughter was like freaking out because she was so anxious about this and I had just gotten in the car and I was talking to my mom and I was thinking, God help me. Like, I, how am I going to survive this next two weeks, two months, six months? I didn’t know how long it was going to be until we knew and you know, and the ups and downs and, you know, bracing myself for the for the emotion. And I look up and the license plate in front of me also was, like it said, like Michigan Wolverines. And and I was like, hmm, is it possible? Is it right? Right. That’s not good enough. Come on. Show me more. Um. And and I wish I knew how to explain it all. I think there are people who are better at explaining it all, but I think that there’s still this this, um, experience of, there are things that we just don’t know.  And that is magical in itself. I love talking about this. I get so excited.

Jean: Yeah. No, because it is exciting. Because it’s beyond our to do, you know? It really is… You know, I can only imagine… Well, it was like this movie, um, with Amy Adams  and she’s talking, she’s communicating with the extraterrestrial.

Alison: Oh, CONTACT.

Jean: Contact.

Amy : Oh. With Jodie Foster. Wait, was Amy Adams?

Alison: No. Not contact. Um, there was those big silver beans. Those big silver beans. They were so great.

Amy : Wait, it was Contact but I think it was Jodie Foster. No, unless it’s a different movie.

Alison: I’m gonna Look it up.

Jean: It, um. She’s a pretty. Very pretty Irish actress.

Alison: Um, but go on with your story.

Jean: So. Yeah. And so she’s now communicating with these, and she’s like, oh, my God… Like there’s intelligence- like, actually, it makes you go, wow- uh, there’s this power that I can actually use.

Alison: Arrival.

Amy : Oh, I never saw that.

Alison: It’s good. It’s really good.

Amy : Okay. Maybe tonight, I don’t know, I feel like I’m like, going to wander in circles or something tonight. I don’t know what to do with my….

Alison: So when you guys are talking about signs, when you say ask for signs. Like what? What happens if you ask for a sign and don’t? Do you ever not get it? Or do you get a sign explaining another path? Or like, do you understand my question?

Amy : Yeah. So what I usually do is and how I like when I’m in a meditation is typically when I will say like, can you? Well, now it’s actually I feel like I’m constantly in conversation in that way. But, um, sometimes I’m very specific, like in this situation, I was just I didn’t even ask for anything with my daughter, i just was sort of I was praying, frankly and trying to manifest. And I don’t think that’s, you know, on its own, i don’t think I could have manifested this had she not, um, been qualified for it. Right. But also I every day was like, I pray for what is for her highest and best good. Like, I don’t know that it’s that. But I trust that whatever is for her highest and best good will unfold in time. And then I’ll say something like, and please validate this for me in concrete ways. So, I mean, I think that there are, because again, I’m so concrete, I need something concrete. And I do think the more you cultivate the relationship, the stronger it gets, the more I think signs show up. So now, I feel like I’m getting signs all the time and like they feel like little winks and I’m just like, okay, got you. Like I’m on the right path. I’m headed in the right direction. Um, I don’t like, freak out if I don’t see things. And I think I’m sure that there are people who might be watching and saying, like, you’re just loony, and this is just like you’re creating things, and that’s why when I was talking to my friend and she was like, the signs lady thinks it’s not a sign.

Amy : I’m also very clear. Like I pay attention to that feeling inside of me. Yeah, that’s like just in that split second. You’re like, hmm. It’s that intuitive knowing that makes you feel like, okay, there’s something more to this, and it goes away very quickly. And that’s why I think a meditation practice or any sort of practice where you are more conscious, you don’t miss the signs. Like the license plate in front of me, I could have very easily not seen that. As soon as I looked up and it was in front of me, the car turned and was gone.  And so when we’re not, um, when we’re not really present and in tune with life, we can miss kind of the breadcrumbs. I call them the lily pads that, like, pop up for you, that show you. Yes, this is the right thing. And no, it’s not. I also think when it’s your Her own stuff often. Like if someone says, show me a sign that this guy is right for me, you’re going to maybe look for the things that show you that he’s right for you. It’s hard to get out of your head in that way. And that’s, again, not to keep bringing this back to meditation, but I feel like that is where a meditation practices can be so helpful is because you can detach a little bit from what you want the outcome to be and allow things to unfold, or be honest with yourself about what is and isn’t possible. And it’s still hard. I mean, even me with all these signs that I just shared was like, I don’t think this is going to happen.

Alison: Um, and that could have been protection, mental protection for you just in case.

Amy : Right. Right. Because I also feel like I live in a human… I mean, I feel like I live in a human world where Ah, I can’t just be like, oh, everything’s a sign. And this means that, and like, throw out my human experience with with the bathwater. But I also feel like these continue to be lessons even for me to trust, trust, trust, trust, trust. And that’s really hard.

Jean: Trusting yourselves. We so were were not raised that way. Trusting yourself. Trust your intuition.  And you know the clarity that brings is really is a priceless gift.

Jean: I was talking to a friend about clarity the other day. And you know I think when you’re someone like myself who is sensitive to other people, it’s sometimes hard to hone in on my own inner clarity. And back to your point, uh, it it is, you know, calming the mind down and going, no, this is true for me.

Amy : Mhm.

Jean: You know, and because the world is so full of different, different polls, different tidbits, different maybe it’s this, maybe it’s that, maybe it’s what Amy said, maybe it’s what your mother said, maybe it’s what you know, and and you’re just like, oh my God, stop the noise. And and what’s true for me?

Amy : Yeah. Right.

Amy : And we don’t tune in to that. So often we do not tune in to.

Jean: And I do think it’s important if you’re someone that is… I mean, we’re all sensitive, but if you’re more empathetic and empathic.

Jean: Mhm.

Jean: Good to have that kind of grounding. Grounding into the earth.

Alison: Right.

Jean: Grounding into your own core.

Alison: And I think what you said about outcomes is so important. Like don’t like, Because you’re right. If I want to look out and see, you know, ugliness, hate, fear, I’m going to see it. If I want to look at and see love and I’m going to see it. So I think it’s very interesting what you said, do not like once you remove yourself from the outcome, what is for the ultimate best and highest good that I may not even be aware of?  Do you know there were times with with with my son, that he wanted to school, he didn’t he didn’t get into a school and it was disappointing. And now when I look back, I think, thank God.   for various things that happened. I was like, oh my gosh.

Jean: You know, today’s lesson in A Course in Miracles is, “I don’t perceive my own best interests.”

Amy : Mhm.

Jean: Meaning like we think oh I want this to happen then I want that and then I want that… But we don’t, we’re… That’s such a limited… The universe has something much more grand.

Amy : And and it’s so hard. I think it’s so hard as a human to to trust that.

Jean: I think it would be nice to talk something that Alison and I talk about a lot lately is and I know it’s it’s it’s a buzzword now. It’s authenticity. Um, you know, and, and, um, especially in our age group, you know, you look at your identity as how you were in the past and you go, you know what? I, I did a lot of people pleasing or I did a lot of, you know, keeping the peace, which is, which has its own merit, which is fine, and then and, then you kind of look at your life and you go, where am I not congruent  with how I feel about something and saying yes to something versus hurting someone’s feelings. And, um, and I do think that’s part of the spiritual path.

Amy : Totally.

Jean: Is being congruent with your thought words and deeds. Easy, not really, but doable. It is doable. Um, so what are your thoughts about that?

Amy : Yeah, I think so. When you were talking, what came into my mind was this notion of, like, how you show up. Um, and I always thought about this very early in my clinical practice, actually, because there’s ,in therapy, they say you’re I mean, you’re the ethics are like, you have these very firm boundaries and that the client doesn’t really you know, you’re a blank slate. I mean, this is the therapy that I practice more traditional. You’re a blank slate, and the patient projects onto you who they think you are –  but there was something about that that didn’t feel authentic to me. It didn’t feel like a relationship. Right? And one of the things that always felt. So important was that my patients, if they saw me outside of therapy, they would never think this woman is not who she claims to be. Like she’s, you know, look like in the office she’s one way, but in life, she’s totally different. That feels not in alignment. Right. And I think of that often as as like a way of really framing, and it’s hard for people, it’s so difficult for people who have- i mean, we don’t know people’s early childhood experiences who they felt like they needed to, be throughout their lives to be loved, to be cared for, and so they became chameleons to other people. They I always referenced that in the movie Runaway Bride, remember, with Richard Gere and Julia Roberts, where he asks her what eggs she likes and she doesn’t know because she’s only always like the eggs that the person she was with liked. Yeah. And I think so often we have morphed ourselves for all kinds of reasons, usually based on early childhood, to protect ourselves from different threats, and that as we become middle aged adults, what are we still protecting ourselves from? And how do we step more into saying yes to ourselves and no to everything that doesn’t feel good? And recognizing that just because you set a boundary doesn’t mean that boundary….

Amy : I hear this all the time. It doesn’t– i’m not finishing sentences here— it doesn’t mean that boundary needs to be harsh, or I hear so much from women… I don’t like conflict and then I explore with them, what in your mind, what does conflict look like? Because people often have such a negative view of what conflict is, that it has to be confrontational, that it has to be like harsh and aggressive.  And I’m like, can you have conflict in a loving way? Can you have communication that you are expressing what you truly need in a way that doesn’t feel conflictual, that doesn’t feel hurtful, or it doesn’t mean the other person might not be hurt by what you say, but if you are saying it in a way that’s loving and that’s compassionate, you can’t control whether or not they’re hurt by that. That might be all their stuff that’s getting stirred up. And it’s so hard for people to stay in their authenticity because they they’re so worried about conflict, how the other person is going to feel, what they’re going to think, how they’re going to respond to them. And it’s not about that. I mean, that’s part of it. And there are relationships that need to be handled carefully. But also, what kind of a relationship are you in, including the relationship with yourself? If you can’t be true to who you are.

Jean: Right.

Alison: That’s beautiful. I hadn’t, I hadn’t really I hadn’t really thought about that. Like in the world, if someone sees you, they wanted to make sense. They don’t want you out in the world, like for a therapist or a doctor or, you know, they don’t want you out in the world, like, you know, rolling around on a hill, you know, you know, with, you know, cards in your hand. I mean, like, they wanted to make sense, right? And yet sometimes we don’t take the time to make how I am out in the world with myself make sense? Do you know, I never really I never really thought of it like that. That’s really great. You know, the the thing about being kind and being authentic are sometimes feel very disparate and there…. But you’re saying they don’t have to be.

Amy : Well, I think when you say like, be kind, I, I would I’m curious like what that means, right? Because I think that people have all different kinds of interpretations of this. The word like be kind or be nice. That doesn’t mean you don’t set a boundary or you don’t say no sometimes– I don’t think my kids would think I’m unkind, but they certainly hear no often. Right. Because it’s a boundary. And a boundary can be set very lovingly. Right?

Jean: I love, I love that the two can coexist. You know, if if you see your child doing something hurtful, you say, Come inside, come inside. You know, And it’s a loving thing to do. You see a child with matches and and yet it’s so interesting as you get older, again, to your point, Amy. Like, what are we protecting within ourselves where we feel we have to give away our authenticity?

Alison: But like right now, we’re living in a time, right? You guys, that is like, um, people feel this need to have, I think, very strong stance on what they think is “right”. I’m using air quotes.  They feel that they really need to say no, no, no, no-    so are you saying that then you do you can have those you can have that belief in what you think is right, but it really is just how you say it? Is that is that really what you’re saying?

Amy : Yeah, I think that’s part of it. But also how you’re listening to the other person, like, you know, I can I can look at a lot of what’s happening and say, I could see that side and I could see that side and I could see that side. Like, can you perspective take to be able to see other people’s sides? And it doesn’t mean that you have to cave on yours or believe that your side is wrong and the other side is right. But can you say, and this is where I think we’ve lost like all sense of humanness, we used to be able to say, oh, I could kind of see that…. I can see that perspective. I can understand where you might be coming from in that, I don’t agree with it, but I can understand where you’re coming from. Now we’ve just like, I don’t agree with what you’re saying, so it must be you, you’re the problem. And, and and I think you can you should still be very authentic with what you believe and how you believe it, but also willing and open to Open to listen to someone else’s perspective, to hear how they believe it. What do they think? And when we get so, I mean the fear–  I remember this during 2020 ,and I took a sabbatical this summer because I felt like I knew what was coming. And the fear that took hold in 2020. And again, I understand why it did. There were a lot of reasons for people to be scared.

Amy : But then it became like a soup that people just stirred and stirred and stirred and stirred in. And again, I’m very lucky. I don’t have to worry that I’m going to be deported. And so I recognize like, I don’t there’s I have I’m coming from a place of privilege in many ways. And I see so many people getting pulled into fear. And it’s like, if you do come from a place of privilege, then what are What are things you can do to help stabilize things so you don’t get pulled into that fear with everybody else because you’re no good, i’m no good in helping, if I’m pulled right into the fear of everything, because then I’m just swimming in this fear soup, right? And, you know, in 2020, as my role as a therapist, I couldn’t be in that fear because I couldn’t join– i can be empathic, but joining someone in their soup of whatever it could be fear, it could be anxiety, it could be anger, it’s not productive. And so it’s not staying, i do believe that our authentic selves are here– this is I don’t study A Course in Miracles, but A Course in Miracles is all about love and forgiveness, right? Like that, that we are all here to love one another. And we get so I mean, in, in a tweet or whatever they’re called now in an X thing, people just boom, they’re like sucked right in. Like it’s like, it’s like a vortex.

Alison: Yeah. Yeah, yeah. And how does spirituality keep you from that? Do you have any, any ideas on that? Like how does how does that help you?

Amy : Well I think it helps in a lot of ways because I can recognize like that a lot of what…. Well, I think spirituality and psychology, a lot of what’s happening, I feel like, is just people’s projections in many ways. Um, and so people like you, I can step back and watch and say, oh, well, that’s curious. Like what’s getting projected here and what’s getting projected here. And you know, what’s getting projected onto this person from that person and just kind of stepping back and watching. But I also think, one- I focus on the things that matter and that I can control and the difference I can make in this world. And it can it is it a sometimes a very like tiny  micro, very micro level of just feeling connection to other people and doing one small thing that could make a ripple that ripples out, and it might just be like buying someone a cup of coffee, or smiling at someone in the grocery store and saying hello, or calling a friend and checking in on them just to say hi, how are you? I’ve missed talking to you– like all of those things are spiritual.

Jean: Yeah, right.

Amy : It doesn’t have to be this grand. Like I’m sitting in prayer and meditation for hours a day. Connection with another human being is probably the most powerful spiritual experience you can have. I mean, the three of us love talking.

Jean: That’s so well said.

Alison: Yeah,

Jean: my husband used to say, oh, Jeannie, I’m not spiritual. I’m not. That’s you. And I’d say, Alex, you are so spiritual. You’re always connecting, bringing people together. You know, it just looks cloaked. It’s it’s like because I go to a spiritual center, so it just looks obvious because the of the word… But what your platform is– it’s exactly what you said when we’re unified and we can have different feelings, preferences, and yet we don’t separate ourselves from someone. Um, I love that you said that… Here’s a saying that I heard on a podcast, when you’re feeling, um, your your thoughts are different than someone else’s, you can just say, oh, “I think differently about that.”

Jean: I think differently about.  You know, and stay curious.

Amy : Right. And then a great thing for someone to say back is,  tell me more about how you think about it?

Alison: Yeah. Right.

Amy : Yeah. I mean, I started following watching the other side. I’m not even, i don’t even know what the other side is anymore because every side feels like another side. But but just because I was, like, curious, like, what are what are both sides saying? Like, I can’t live in the echo chamber of what I think is right because, i don’t I want to hear, I want to understand, and there’s nothing, again, more spiritual than sitting down and maybe understanding where someone else is coming from. You don’t know their story, right? And so to hear someone’s story, to witness someone’s story, to listen to them again, one of the most spiritual things you can do is be in connection with another person. Talk about something that fills your heart up. I mean, what fills your heart up more than that? I’m thinking about this retreat I hosted in November and it was like the most, it was exhausting because I don’t hold space for that many people at once. But it and it was a totally different experience for me. I’m not, i mean, I hold space for 20 people a week, but it’s one on one.  And to hold it in like a big space was a completely different experience. But oh my gosh, did my heart feel full? Like never felt fuller. And that is such a spiritual experience. Like all of these little moments, the moment that you we had I had before I got on with you today, like that was the most spiritual experience. It was pure, elated joy. Like I said when we started, I want to bottle it up because we have those moments in life and they’re so fleeting. And when we’re not conscious and we’re not connected, it’s like it didn’t even happen. Even when we are. It’s like it didn’t even happen. But when we’re not, we can’t experience like, my sister is so upset with us that we didn’t videotape it. She’s like videotape. I’m really dating myself here that we didn’t record exactly. We didn’t take out our camcorder, um, that we didn’t record the opening of this thing, but it was like we were, so in the moment of it all, it was just Joy!

Alison:  It’s amazing.

Jean: Well, Amy, we’ve come full circle and, uh, ending with the joy of your beautiful family, having this joyful experience, being in the moment. Um, I can’t thank you enough for your time, your wisdom, um, your grace, that you, you so generously give to us and to all your viewers.

Alison: Yeah. Thank you. We really love.  You so much.

Amy : I love you guys, too. I’ll do this any time. I love talking to you. And I feel like every time.

Alison: Wow. We caught her on a big day, huh?

Jean: We did. I remember those those days for Matthew and Emily. Finding out where they were going to go to college. And… Yeah, but this had a real significance for her and her husband…

Alison: Right – Because no one went back to my alma mater or anything of my kids.

Jean: Same. Same with me.

Alison: But it was, um, just seeing that joy, and we were just saying, you know, our energy was different being here. And yet, you know, we were able to really connect. I thought, she’s just wonderful.

Jean: She is she is doing such good work in the world. And she’s the perfect bridge for the human mind, the human experience and bringing in spirituality. I, I just am so grateful that we found her. And and she’s she’s our friend. Yeah.

Alison: And listen to her podcast. She’s fantastic.

Jean: Oh my God. She has interviewed so many amazing people. So, um, however you get to listen to Amy just do it. It’s she’s she’s such a gift.

Alison: And again, um, love and and…

Jean: Love and prayers… Knowing that everyone is surrounded by love. Yes. Even when it doesn’t look that way.

Alison: That’s right. And that’s it. Thanks.

Podcast Episode 55: Jean Trebek & Alison Martin interviewed on This Is My Silver Lining

insidewink co-hosts, Jean Trebek & Alison Martin, were thrilled to be interviewed by Ingrid Busson-Hall and Kathleen Merrigan on the “This Is My Silver Lining” Podcast. So, get to know our hosts – Jean and Alison – a little better as they talk about their friendship, their experiences and their passion to Share The Good. Also, please check out “This is My Silver Lining” Podcast https://thisismysilverlining.com/

Transcript

Alison : What are you whispering? What are you saying? We have a treat.

Jean : We do. We have a treat because we are going to showcase an interview that we actually were the interviewee, right? We were not the interviewers.

Alison : With, um, Ingrid and Kathleen.

Jean : Right, And they have a gorgeous podcast called , “This Is My Silver Lining.” And I love the title.

Alison : Me too.

Alison : And this was aired on their podcast, but they’ve given us permission to air it on ours, just so that, I don’t know, maybe you can get to know us a little bit better. And they were just lovely too. And they’re, they’re doing they’re exactly in our wheelhouse of doing exactly what we’re doing.

Alison : And so…

Jean : Sharing, sharing inspiring stories.

Alison : Right. So you we hope you enjoy us. Yeah.

Jean : And if you don’t, just push delete.

Alison : Yeah. Or listen to them then. Thank you. Bye.

Ingrid: I’m Ingrid Hall.

Kathleen : And I’m Kathleen Merrigan.

Ingrid: Welcome to, This is My silver Lining, the show where we pull together the strongest threads of our humanity courage, kindness, compassion, and gratitude.

Kathleen : Our guests explore their toughest moments and how rising to the challenges led them to discover unexpected opportunities, connection, and community.

Ingrid: My daughter started a new school a few weeks ago, her third in four years. She’s a confident, brave eight year old, but naturally she was nervous about making new friends as I dropped her off on her first day, holding back my own tears, I looked at her new classmates and wondered who among them will become her friend and imagine the joy, laughter and beauty they will bring into one another’s lives. The French American writer Anais Nin once wrote, each friend represents a world in us. A world not born until they arrive. And it is only by this meeting that a new world is born. Today on this is my silver lining. We are delighted to speak with Jean Trebek and Alison Martin, to explore friendship and how the combination of two friends energy ripples out into the world to serve the greater good. Alison is a prolific actor and writer. She won an Emmy Award for the children’s TV series, A Likely Story. She has had numerous guest star and recurring roles in comedies such as Grace and Frankie, The Big Bang Theory, All Rise, and Mad Men.

Ingrid: And she’s also been featured in dozens of TV ads. Jean is a Religious Science practitioner, Reiki master, and sound healer. For the past 15 years, she has taught the principles of Religious Science and the application of various spiritual techniques such as meditation, sound healing, and affirmative prayer. Jean is the widow of Alex Trebek, the globally revered, long time game show host of, Jeopardy! Jean is committed to numerous philanthropic causes, including education and crisis intervention. After Alex’s death from stage four pancreatic cancer, Jean established the Alex Trebek Fund to accelerate critical pancreatic cancer research. The deep friendship Jean and Alison share has carried them through many of life’s deepest sorrows and the highest peaks of joy. It also led them to pursue their creative passions together through Insidewink, a website and now podcast for sharing what is good in the world. Jean and Alison have interviewed some of the most fascinating thinkers and practitioners in the fields of spirituality, healing, empathy, and the neuroscience of happiness. It’s a really terrific show. Jean and Alison, thank you so much for joining us on, This is My Silver Lining.

Alison : Wow. We sound so nice and good, Ingrid.

Ingrid: We are very important.

Alison : Right, Very fancy.

Ingrid: Well, thank you both so much for joining us. That was…. I don’t think Ingrid even, you know, scratches the tip of the iceberg with that, with that introduction and all that you have done.

Alison : You got the whole iceberg in there, Ingrid.

Ingrid: Listening to Jean, I’m like, she sounds great.

Kathleen : But she is great.

Jean : And vice versa. And and you know, what you wrote about our friendship is so true. It’s yeah, it’s, um, I do think that’s like, what a marriage is about, you know, coming together and being an even greater force for good in the world.

Alison : Yeah. Well, that was definitely you and Alex.

Jean : And you and Dan, right? But yeah.  And like what you two do, you know Ingrid and Kathleen.

Ingrid: We wouldn’t be here without this amazing friendship that we have. Kathleen and I, 100%.

Kathleen : Absolutely. I think one thing I’ve noticed, too, there are so many parallels between how we both came to this podcasting world and our, um, motivation to kind of shine a light on the best of the human experience and celebrate the good in the world. So I’m wondering if you two dear friends could tell us how you each have or how you each what you think about when you hear the saying that every cloud has a silver lining, and maybe how those have appeared in each of your lives?

Jean : Wow. The big one for me was going through Alex’s chemo treatment. Knowing Alison was there was wonderful, but also the way she navigated my relationship to Alex… She didn’t overstep into it, and yet she knew when to hold back a little bit. She knew when I really needed more support and I and I couldn’t ask for it, but she intuitively sensed that… So I think the knowingness of someone, the intimacy grows in a friendship when you’re in a crisis situation. So I am forever grateful to this woman. And not only that, but the great joy we have together. So it is, it is going into dark nights of the soul and huge joy. And yeah, I mean, I think Silver Lining is such a great perception because if you can always ,if you can take time to find the silver lining, that’s really a high level way of being in the world.

Alison : And I think when someone invites you in to be present during a crisis, I actually think it’s an honor, because so many of us are not invited in, and I think we’re trained to have this front and everything’s fine and don’t ask for help. And so when someone invites you in, or you happen to be standing in a place where you are in… To have that is truly like a gift. So I think that’s sort of the silver lining. You know, it’s so funny because there were so many times these past few years that Jea, helped me with stuff that was going on in my family, and we were just saying, I think the thing that the most important thing when someone is in a cloudy situation or in a dire situation is just the act of actively listening without judgment. I think so many people want to give you a million things to do or tell you, you don’t need to feel that way or tell you it’s all fine. And the great thing about Jean and a few of our friends, right, are they just will be present and listen and hold you in, in a moment of love. And I think that’s the silver lining, that even through it all, like tough stuff, like you have this presence of love and that’s sort of the silver lining. I mean, that’s the whole thing about life, right? That we’re going to go through… Crap happens.

Ingrid: a lot of it. Right. And and who do we find in those moments? Who, who, who does the Universe send to us to help us through those moments that otherwise might never– either they’re in our lives and we discover something about them through that moment, or new people come in, which often happens.

Alison : Yes.

Kathleen : Sometimes I think, you know people, I should say, sometimes I think I don’t really know the best thing to do in that situation, or I worry I’m not doing enough or I’m not doing the right thing. But it’s such a good reminder that just being there is really so important, because it certainly is for me in those situations. But for some reason, when I’m on the other side and  I want to be helping… I always feel like, oh, I want to be doing more. And then, you know, but just just being there, just just show up. As one of my friends always says, just show up. It’s so important to remember.

Ingrid: I guess I want to probe a little bit with you, Alison, this notion of like, optimism and positivity in the world and finding silver linings. I read one of your posts on the Insidewink website, where you tell a story about how your then 24 year old daughter moved home during the pandemic, which of course is a shared experience for for so many parents. And you were walking by and you just you asked her to be more grateful. I’m not sure if I’m going to get all the details right, but she kind of challenged you on that and was like, I am grateful just because I’m not like, super positive about this shitty pandemic. Like I am grateful.

Alison : Well, the pandemic, a lot happened in my family for us during the pandemic. Em who is the person you’re talking about came out during the pandemic, is non-binary, and we’re all living together in this very small house. And that was a huge learning for me.   My child, Em,  does not want to be told to have an emotional response, which is what I think I was told. Well, be happy, don’t worry. Em doesn’t want that. EM wants me to allow their emotions fully and presently, and allow my curiosity to really guide the conversation, as opposed to me fixing or being wise. And as EM has come out to us, which was a big change for my family, i realized I had a woman that, um, worked with parents whose children were just coming out, and this woman said to me, her name is Veronica.. she’s on the East Coast. Fantastic. She said, you’re letting your steaming lack of understanding get in the way of your love. And I thought, wow. I was like, well, what is non-binary? I don’t even understand that. What is that? And I realized I just love Em. I just love that person. And I love who they are and their authentic self. And I now am very careful to say, would you like me to offer something? Would you like me to offer a solution? And sometimes Em will say, no, …just  hear me, and it’s taught me a lot how to be more present in the in the world. I think it’s a very interesting thing because my parents used to fix your parents try to fix or or like squelch down or say, get over that. Do you know what I mean? Right.

Kathleen : Right. You’re fine. You’re fine.

Jean : I think the whole part of feelings and my children are a little older than Alison’s..They’re 34 and 31…. But to Alison’s point, and your child EM taught me also, I will say to my Emily, do you want to be held, heard, or hugged? RAnd that really helps because that honors what she really needs. Because I want to I want to jump in and make sure I help her fix her, and that when we leave where she’s feeling so much better. And sometimes it’s just not that, right.

Alison : Sometimes it’s just not that. So I remember that post. Like it’s so funny. Like when I think back to that time, it was when I think back, there was so much going on for Em then, right? And must have been frightened, scared in a moment of transition, not knowing what they were going to do, how they were going to be accepted…. We were in a pandemic, they’re stuck at our house, their younger brother is there, my son…. It just was… And their bravery to come out in a way is inspiring to me. You know, it’s never really, they’re very smart, kid. They’re really, if you met them, you’d fall in love with them. Like, they’re just, they’re just great. So. Yeah. So and it’s interesting that you bring that up because I was reading that the other day thinking, wow, look at that. Like Em was really teaching me something there.

Ingrid: Maybe I can ask you a question about miracles, since the book that brought you together initially Was a book entitled, A Course in Miracles, which is a book from 1976 by Helen Schucman. And the underlying premise of that book, as I understand it, is that the greatest miracle in life is the act of simply gaining a full awareness of love’s presence in a person’s life. So that leads me to ask you, do you believe in miracles? And what makes a miracle?

Jean : Well, that’s such a beautiful question, Ingrid. And I definitely believe in miracles. I feel, and through the teachings of A Course in Miracles, that a miracle is a shift in your perception. So if something’s bothering you, it’s usually because you’re judging it. So to recognize that you’re in judgment and then to just go, you know, I want to see this differently. And sometimes it happens automatically. Sometimes it takes a little time. But that sincere desire to see, to see the love within a situation, it brings forth miracle. And the miracle is peace of mind. You know more joy. And that energy builds and it starts reflecting that in your outer world. So it starts within, the shift of perception, and we know we’re off of our love perception when we’re not feeling happy or when we’re feeling fear or something.., and and that’s okay, it’s not judging that either. You know, it’s just going, okay… Wow, I got so much fear around this, and just not judging that, just being like, oh, you have a lot of fear. Okay. Take a breath. You know and like to to what, we are coming full circle to your question, like finding the silver lining, finding the love in there…. So what do you think?

Alison : So how do you want me to follow that? I mean, oh, yeah, but she’s, I think, a miracle….is…..hahahahah

Jean : eating a box Donuts and not gaining weight.

Alison : That’s exactly for me. That’s exactly it. I’m like, duh. Yeah… Chocolate is a miracle. I mean, yes, yes to all that. And I think that the miracle has is such a loaded word. Right. Because people think in the Virgin Mary has to land or you see something or like, you know what I mean? But those can be, um, can be just small wonders, you know, or small moments of gratitude or small moments of feeling very connected. I think those are like miracles.

Jean : And this is a miracle. Yeah, I mean the fact that we can be together on this, on this technical device, that I don’t even know how it works. The fact that we figured out how to get through Chrome.

Ingrid:  my daughter asked me yesterday, how does the text come to your phone? And I was like, that’s a daddy question.

Jean : My mother would say, um, how was your flight? Because she lives in New York and I live in LA, and she’s like, so tell me about your flight. And I’m like, mom, it was a miracle, right? I got from LAX to JFK in the big metal tube. Yeah.

Ingrid: Seriously? I mean, do you look at planes and wonder, like, every once in a while, like the at the airport?

Alison : It’s such a massive, heavy thing, and yet someone thought of that. Yeah. Someone said, you know let’s do that.  I have a friend and they had to have a medical test, like an ultrasound or an MRI, and they said someone thought of that. Like someone said, I’m going to send a sound wave through you. You’re not going to feel it, but I’m going to see your insides-   People are miracles, right?

Kathleen : Like, I have to say that for our listeners who can’t see us all right, now that, um. Well, first I should say that Allison and Jean are together, and it’s adorable. They’re sitting next to each other, but you two are laughing and looking at each other. It’s like it’s.. just seeing i could see your friendship right there on the screen. And it’s so wonderful. And I’m wondering, could you tell us about maybe how I believe you met in a book club, but tell us about that first time you met and kind of how your friendship grew from there.

Alison : Okay, so Jean and I were in a book club, our friend Maureen Muldoon, she was running this book club on, A Course in Miracles, and we met and Jean owned a flower shop, and I just knew that, you know, this was Jean, and she seemed lovely. And we’d say hi and chat and I had no idea who she was. You know, it was just a whole bunch of people that Maureen knew. And one day, um, Jean was sitting down and we were chatting and catching up, and Jean says, you know, um, I really want to talk about the, um, the Emmys, the Daytime Emmys or the nighttime Emmys. And I was like, oh, in my mind, I’m thinking, that’s interesting. And she says, and did you see what Alex wore? And I’m thinking, what the hell. I like, you know, but you know, the tie and and and then she was talking about his speech, and I turned to my other friend, and I said, man, she really likes Alex Trebek. Like, you know, how does she feel about Pat Sajak? You know what’s going on. And so here’s this person that was completely unaffected by any of that, and we just started becoming friends. And I was amazed that I had no idea that this person was somehow connected to that other person, that you would have a lot of thoughts about. Do you know? Jean is so down to earth and funny and smart? She makes me laugh harder, I think, than anybody, right? We laugh. We laugh till we, like, it’s sick. She cracks me up and slowly but surely Jean took over the Course in Miracles at Jean’s house. And then, slowly but surely. I don’t even know. It just felt like this natural progression. We just sort of found each other again this lifetime, you know what I mean? Yeah. What do you think? Like, I don’t even know what you thought of me when you saw me?

Jean : I thought Allison would ask great questions during the course of miracles. The reading, when we were reading the text together and we were like six women dedicated. Every Monday morning, they would meet at my home and we would read this text. And this is a huge book. It’s like two inches thick and and it’s dense. It’s written in, in a very in a Shakespearean language. And it’s very, um, it’s not easy to decipher, really a lot to swallow. And yet it’s it’s very beautiful. Again, the premise is not to judge and to forgive. And Allison would ask such poignant questions. And I just remember thinking, wow, she’s so smart. And seriously, I did think, really think that. And then Maureen told me that she was an actress and and I just thought-  I did see her once on TV, on a commercial, and I don’t watch a lot of TV, and I thought, that’s, you know, she’s becoming my friend. But I do think it’s when I told Allison I was working on a film about forgiveness. So I have a friend, his name is Ike, and We were going around and filming people that that had forgiveness lessons, and something happened and we got to interview some great people. And we changed directions. And so I said to Allison, wow, we’ve got all this footage of really beautiful testimonials about how, you know something happened … Life didn’t go the way I wanted it to. And I had to forgive a certain person and and what forgiveness meant. And Alison was there, sort of. Yeah, I can see it, let’s do something with that. And so that became, I think, our project and as we got to know each other through that project, she truly is one of my most dearest friends.

Alison : And but you know what’s funny? Remember that first secret Santa that we had at your house during the course of miracles? Yeah, we had a Secret Santa, and you got to pick out, and I got Jean’s gift that she was giving to anyone. And it’s a heart, a floral heart that I still have. How many years ago is that? 15. 20. 20. 20 years. Hanging in my room and and so, like, you know, sometimes it just is meant…. Do you know what I mean? Like, sometimes you go like. Like we barely knew each other then ,I think it was like the first times I’m in Jean’s house and I got this heart like… Don’t you think that’s kind of cool? Yeah. And then just, it’s just still hanging.

Jean : And I do remember there was one time, well alison was very dedicated, she would show up all the time Monday. There was a couple of times when she couldn’t show up, either for an audition or something. And I remember she’s the one person that I was like, oh, Alison’s not here in the morning. So, I mean, I love all the other ones, they were great. Um, truly great, but I it was something that Alison would bring to the group and I was like, oh, okay, well, we’re great. And all the other women are amazing. Yeah. So.

Alison : And we just kept laughing a lot. Yeah. Through it all, like all the things that now we’ve gone through. Like when I think to myself. All the stuff that we’ve gone through. And it just we would laugh and just. We were just goofy together.

Kathleen : Jean, can I ask you a question that just kind of came to my mind earlier today when I was thinking about this, but I was thinking about owning a flower shop and just how, like, I was driving by a flower shop in my town. And I was thinking how, like, you really see people at their happiest and at their most sad moments. And like, I mean, 17 years is a long time to own any business. Is that…. Tell me about that. And if you if you felt that way. I know it’s also a stressful business and working with perishables is always, always an added stress too. But tell me a little about that.

Jean : Well, I did it with my very dear friend Janet, who we are still to this day super close and I adore her. So to your point, it is, flowers are such a celebration of life and life as you both know, as our listeners know, there are highs and lows and it’s just everything– flowers just celebrate life.  You know that this physical incarnation, it has a time frame like flowers do– you know they don’t last forever. There’s a circle of life. And, um, I think that’s one of the reasons I do love flowers is to me, they just symbolize the circle of life. And wow, that that was another whole chapter of learning to just honor people where they’re at. So there were many celebrations, many birthdays, many holidays that we were super busy. You know, there were funerals and things like that. So it ran the gamut. I looked back, that was such a honor to run that with my my friend, Janet. I love her, and she was a great teacher and still a very dear friend.

Alison : Did you make deliveries?

Jean : Yes, I made deliveries. My husband made a couple of deliveries. I would ask him while on his way home.

Ingrid: Premium delivery, they thought won the lottery .

Alison : Wait a minute. He would go to the door with the flowers.

Jean : He had 1 or 2 deliveries for me,I rarely did that, but I was like, could you just drop this off on the way home from the studio? And I don’t know, people must have thought they won the…

Ingrid: The publisher’s clearing house. Yeah.

Kathleen : Or something amazing…. Ed McMahon is sick today. Here’s Alex Trebek.

Jean : Does anyone tell you that you look like Alex Trebek?  hahah

Alison : Are people ever sad to get flowers? Like, did you ever feel or is it always like they open the door like, ohhhh.

Jean : I think it’s always oh yea!!. Yeah.

Alison : I love that.

Jean : And there was one time that I delivered flowers and I was, um, going to a hospital, and the lady asked me to read the card. It was an older lady in bed. And at that time, you could go into the hospital room. Now, you know, you have to leave everything, like at a front desk. But I went in and, um, and I had to read this long card from…. And thank God  i wrote the card out, at the flower shop, I wrote the card out and I thought it was a very deep, meaningful card that I was reading to this woman in the bed. And she had some type of like a spiritual book from Buddha or Buddhism or something. And I just remember reading this card and getting choked up. And so the flower shop was great. It was it was beautiful.

Kathleen : And I think it ties ties to sort of what you’re doing now with, you know, your focus on healing. And, um, I know you’re a professional religious science practitioner and, uh, Reiki master and sound healer. So you really have focused on healing for so much of your career. Can you tell us sort of, when you realized that that was your focus and how you came to focus on that?

Jean : Well, I had I had a brother growing up who passed away at 20 years old in a car accident. So I think when you have a traumatic childhood or something that happens, that’s not the the quote, normal way of the progression, you know, so I think for a lot of people, not all people, but it it sort of makes you wonder if you will, like what’s going on, why why him? Why? Where is he now? And I just remember being very fascinated with metaphysics in my late 20s. I also had a really big eating disorder. Um, that was very hard for me to get over for a long time. So my brother’s passing in the car accident, my eating disorder, really challenged me to look for something beyond my personality self. To be more in this world than than than just the obvious. So I think I directly experienced healing from Reiki, from a person that did Reiki on me, and I was released from the addiction of purging my food, and I was so grateful, so grateful for that release that I wanted to help people in that way. That was the catalyst.

Ingrid: So beautiful to know. Take your own experience and infuse it and take it to help others.

Alison : Jean always tries to uplift people and that’s like a healing in itself. Jean, for a while, uh, wanted to work in a department store, and so she took, like, a little Christmas job in a department store, and women would come up and say, oh, I feel like I need creams on my face, and Jean would say, you don’t … You are so beautiful.

Ingrid: The management was not so thrilled. hahah

Alison : Because Jean’s whole thing is about, and that’s like, that’s what she does to all her friends. Like it’s like, so that healing thing I think was just it’s just a part of her daily way. She moves in the world, you know.

Jean : You too.

Ingrid: I was going to say it feels like the way you, you both and certainly together are moving in the world. And I wonder if you could take us into InsideWink, as it were, and that creative project that really is born of of your friendship. It didn’t start as a podcast, but it it became this beautiful, beautiful podcast. So tell us about that.

Alison : We started from what Jean was saying about the forgiveness movie, and then we tried to think of a place that all the interviews that Jean and our friend Trish Geiger had done and Trish, Trish was great.  And she did all the, she’s just a bright, energetic spirit. And Jean had all these wonderful interviews and we couldn’t figure out a place to, like, hang them. Like, where are they going to live? And we thought of ideas for movies, but it all seemed very forced and weird. And there were a lot of these talking head movies out there. So we thought, well, maybe we could do a website and house them there. And, um, we worked with Patti and Steve setting up the website, and they did a great job, and the website was there, and it was a lot of work and…

Ingrid: So then you decided to make a podcast, which is, you know, easy breezy. hahah

Alison : You know, I think there were so many moving pieces in the website. We had all these writers and all these people submitting and Patti and Steve and us and then the films that we wanted something that was just kind of us that we could write, that we think that we could sort of manage. So I sort of do the best I can with the editing. We have Eddie, who still helps us, and Emma, who helps us with social media, and that’s it. It’s really just the four of us, which is so much…. It’s just a smaller thing. Do you think. Do you think that’s it?

Jean : Yeah. I think what you said is absolutely the journey of insidewink and, um, you know, it is a labour of love. Yeah. We don’t have any sponsors, so we just… And also I’m busy…. Allison’s super busy, so we just wanted something that that wasn’t overwhelming, that we didn’t lose the joy that we we felt… Oh, I’m looking forward to this. Rather than, oh, God, we still have to work on this. We wanted to make sure the energy behind this uplifting website stayed up, not  heavy.

Jean : Like, I kid you not, we have the nicest, uh, interviews.  It’s just, it’s so uplifting. So I still get nervous doing the interviews. I think one of the things I admire and love about Alison, I guess love and appreciate about Alison, she she does have this great driving force in a way… Like she’s… I don’t want to say the alpha, but she she does, no, no not pushy, but I think also given that she has an acting background, she easily engages with people in a very heart centered way. I’m a little bit more of the observer, like pull back and I, I think that it forces me to grow, to step up and ask questions. And Alison has such a good read on me. She knows when I’m. Oh, I feel like Jean wants to say something. So yeah, because I do enjoy being more behind the scene, but I am enjoying this whole process of interviewing and talking with these great people.

Alison : And Jean has always, um, we’re so different that our questions are always really different. Do you find that between you two?

Kathleen : Absolutely. Yes. Yeah.

Ingrid: Yeah, yeah. We can we can relate to just about every single thing that you’ve just said. Like it is… It is such a labor of love. Right. And if if you can’t approach and the whole point is to be positive in the world and tell these great stories, and we too have met such unbelievable people who, and there’s no way we would.. We would never have met you if we weren’t doing this. So it’s it’s such a gift.

Jean : I have to say, when I saw these two women are doing,  “My silver lining”, I right away thought, what a great title. Yeah.

Kathleen : Oh, thank you.

Jean : that is so in alignment with what we’re doing.

Alison : And I think, I think there’s just such room for women, you know, that are maturing and friends and, um, doing their own thing. I think that’s like it gives me chills the fact that you’re doing it. I wish more people would hear this and say, hey, I’ve got a friend. I could talk to people because I think all these voices I think are, are creating a shift. I really think that.

Ingrid:  I totally agree with you. What this is all about is having more conversations with people, with strangers, with or deeper conversations with the people that you already know, to better understand their life’s experience. You know, we very often go back to that quote from Robin Williams, you never know what another person is going through, be kind and you just don’t know. And the magic is in the discovery. So I quite agree with you. I mean, having more women do this and have these conversations and men as well, of course, is is really additive. There’s a lot of noise out there. There’s a we were told by any number of people like why would you do a podcast? It’s oversaturated. There are millions of podcasts. They’re like, how many listeners are you going to get? And I don’t know… Of course, we’d love to… You know, everybody wants to go viral…. Everybody wants hundreds of thousands or millions of of listeners. But we know we’re doing a good thing. The people who do listen tell us the out of the woodwork, people we’ve never encountered come to us and say, like, I heard that episode, like, that’s really great what you’re doing. So there’s a reward in that.

Alison : And our guests seem to have fun. And I think, well, that’s good. You know, if they’re only if their mother or sister listens, I’m like, happy.

Kathleen : Exactly. Yes.

Alison : You know, we had fun, and I feel like I’ve learned so much. And yet I think Jean and I talk about this all the time. Everybody says the same thing. You know, it’s all boils down to love, compassion, kindness. It’s just so moving to me, you know?  Miracle.

Ingrid: Yeah. And it helps you realize that we’re all, you know, even though we’re saying we might not have met someone. They’re so different than us that. Then once you start talking, you realize that you have so many similarities that it really brings… I think helps to bring people together.

Alison : And I think we’re inundated, you know, as we all, everyone says we’re inundated right now with such disparate views on TV news. And it can be so frightening. And I think, you know, I think the world is actually a place of goodness and learning and opportunity to to teach each other the meaning of like, loving each other. I understand everyone has very different beliefs and there’s a lot of stuff going on right now, but I think we all want basically the same thing. We want to be heard and seen. We want to be treated in an authentic, kind, honest way. And if you have a different belief than me, I think a more positive choice is to listen. You know, I don’t know, just, you know, to uplift, I think would be the thing. You know, and I think that’s what you guys are doing and that’s hopefully what, you know, we’re doing.

Ingrid: Definitely. Do you want to talk about the power of thoughts, Kathleen.

Kathleen : Well, so I know that was in, um, episode that I had just listened to that, uh, about where they were talking about the tapping. One of the things that, that you were talking about is just that your thoughts have power and how to try to change. You have to be careful about what you’re thinking and how how to actually control that and change that and make sure that we’re thinking positively about ourselves and about others. And so I wonder, how you both stay optimistic and grounded and if you have any practices, do you meditate? How do you think about that power of thought and keeping your thoughts positive?

Jean : Well, okay. So yeah, thoughts are really powerful. I don’t think people really realize that. We think that I can be thinking something negative and it doesn’t affect me. But if I’m looking at someone and going, oh, you’re such a loser. It’s a boomerang effect to me. We’re first and foremost souls that are vibratory beings, and we we emit this feeling, you know, and thoughts have have a feeling to them. So when you are thinking negative, it’s to really catch that and to go, why am I feeling so sad today? You know. What am I? What am I thinking?  and it’s challenging because this world is very distracting. It’s it’s pulls you out, and you always think it’s something outside of yourself. And and it is something that I’m, I have to really be conscious of every day. My thoughts, it’s not like, oh, I’m always in gratitude. And no, I because I am sensitive, I, I need to prime myself every morning. So I don’t really meditate per say, but I do read the course of miracles, which just  reminds me. Okay, I’m in charge of my thinking. That’s what I’m in charge of. I’m in charge of how I want to perceive the situation. That’s what I can… And it’s sort of when I do, when I do that, my day Does unfold with more flow. Is it always goes my way? No, no definitely not. But I’m a little more buoyant and and and I feel more grateful. And I feel that is a gift to everyone around me.

Alison : You know? And I think too, that when we say positive thoughts. Right…. I think for me, I’m trying to move away from that because, I know thoughts are very powerful. But I think A Course in Miracles, for me, that line it’s either love or a call for love takes away the judgment of positive and negative, which I think for me, I get trapped in sometimes. Oh, don’t think that that’s a bad thought. And then I can either get down on myself or I. So I’m really trying for the past few years, trying to focus on it’s either love or a call for love. So when I’m having a feeling that would be considered negative and not positive. I try to think so, what is the call for love here? What is that person looking for? What am I looking for? And then it kind of removes the judgment of positive and negative because, I think sometimes that’s hard… Like, do you know what I mean? Yeah. Like.

Jean : I will just go, wow, Gene, you have a really strong judgment over that. Yeah. And I try not to judge that. I just go, yeah. And then go to that.. I need to love that part of myself that is thinking that.

Alison : And it’s like what we were saying before about Em. Right. That, um, you know, wanting to be able to experience all these thoughts and feelings, get them out, not judge them. And I hired a therapist when you used to say and put them over here and then let’s, like, look at them like we’re in a lab, you know. And I think that for me, it’s so hard because, I think I live in a very judgmental world.

Ingrid: what a great way to think about it.

Alison : Yeah, good. You’re bad. You’re wrong. You’re right, you’re fat.

Ingrid: You got it. You didn’t get it, you know?

Alison : Yeah. And and trying to live a life that an authentic life of of being kind and loving in that kind of arena has moved me to stop judging those thoughts. Does that make sense to you? Do you know what I mean?

Ingrid: Oh my gosh. I mean, I think this I think what you’re talking about takes so much practice and active… I don’t know if this is the right way to put it, but active intervention, because we can just gravitate to the negative. There’s a self-help book that Kathleen and I both read years ago called, Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway. And one of the there’s so many things in that book that I think are resonant and so incredibly helpful. But one of the things that she really pauses on is, why is it?… Just think for a moment…. Why is it that when you have a situation, the and you tell someone what’s going on and the immediate reaction tends to the negative, as against the positive, like  regardless of circumstance, like let’s just say like there’s a 50/50 chance of positive or negative. Why do we automatically gravitate to the negative and kind of belittle the folks who gravitate to the positive? Like, oh, you know, you’ve got rosy colored glasses on.

Kathleen : Like like saying like, I’m sure I won’t get that part. Like, oh, it was- I think it went well, but I’m sure I won’t get it.

Alison : I actually think it’s in our like, this DNA. Right? So like when we were walking around, you know, as Neanderthal, you know, hairy beings, you know, we had to focus on the scary, you know, look over there. I think it was almost a survival. And I think that part of that lizard brain is still there, and that the classroom that we’re in is somehow figuring out how to let that reptilian, primitive brain go. And we don’t really talk like that to each other anymore.

Jean : Like, it almost feels poisonous, actually. Literally. I’m like, oh, angels… I’m like, I, I feel heavy and not great… You know, there’s always a difference of opinion, but it’s that great Rumi quote that, you know, “beyond right and wrong, I will I will meet you there.”  or something like that.

Alison : Yeah. That’s right. Yeah.

Alison : I love that. Yeah. That’s so that’s true. I mean, I think that you’re right. It’s a lot of catching yourself. And there were plenty of times that, you know, we don’t do it. And that’s why it’s good to have someone or a friend or a partner or a pet that you can kind of talk to and be like, oh, you know, I’m frightened or I’m scared or I’m angry or I’m frustrated and have someone say, you know, I hear you, I hear you, and that’s all. Those are all valid feelings. And yet, you know, can we bring in some light into that? Because I think the whole key of why community is so important.

Ingrid: I feel like it’s hard to have this conversation with the two of you without taking a pause on and talk about grief and how we process grief. And you both experienced deep losses. And, um, Jean, yours had the added layer of being quite public. It’s not often that, you know, you’re you have a loved one who’s going through cancer, and the rest of the world knows about it and and very well intentioned, i’m sure you had all kinds of outpourings of support and help from folks from all over the world because Alex was so beloved. But tell us a little bit about and this is for, for for both of you… Can you give us your thoughts on on grief in the context of the conversation we’ve been having about managing our negative thoughts, our feelings of loss and compassion?

Jean : Well, there was this beautiful saying that I think Queen Elizabeth the Second said when Prince Philip passed away. I’m going to paraphrase, but it really spoke to how I felt- is that where there is great love, there is always grief, because this world, as we spoke about before, isn’t isn’t a forever existence, you know? And I think my biggest takeaway is how precious life is. And for me, the grieving process is it’s still there. Someone said it’s first the absence of presence and then it’s the presence of absence. So for Alex, his- I do think about him a lot still. I can’t even… Doesn’t feel like he’s been gone almost four years. But I feel his Presence, not all the time, but certainly when I’m in a more quiet space and I really desire to connect with him, I right away my shoulders get a little tingly or I’ll get a little emotional. I have his photo on my desk right now.. So I, I see him and talking about him is really beautiful because, it’s ongoing. You know, you just get used to it. And there are there are days that I miss him more than other days… And there’s no recipe to grief. It’s as our A person, a beautiful person that we interviewed yesterday, Chaz Ebert said, it’s very individual. So it also depends, I think, on on the relationship you had with that person. Mm. What do you think Alison?

Alison : I love you.

Jean : I love you.

Alison : It’s okay. You know, it cracks open your heart. Grief. Yeah. And yet, you know, a Jill Bolte Taylor, a woman that, um, Doctor Jill that we interviewed, she had a stroke, and she lost the power to use part of her brain. And, um, her fate… And she she’s a neuroscientist. She’s just amazing. And discusses your right side and left side, and one is just completely ethereal, and the other is, uh, work and very tactile and very human. And that her favorite emotion she felt after having this really life changing experience was grief, because it’s so intense. And as Jean says, a sign of love. And it kind of can make you sick. And it can, it just lets it out. I don’t know. So in some ways, you know, I’ve, I’ve grown to admire the emotion of grief because it becomes meaningful. It’s a very, very powerful thing. And I think when my father died, many, many, many, many years ago, like I’ve lived most of my life without my father and I would just before this, I was just saying to Jean, you know, I wish that I could have known my dad as an adult at all. Like, I wish I could have known him. And that’s grief. I’m not crying. But there’s a moment of grief, and it’s. It’s okay. Like, it’s like an opening to love. So, you know and my mother was very much in Jean situation, like a young widow and watching someone maneuver that from a child’s viewpoint, and then as a friend viewpoint, you just really see that, you know, it’s just part of this and, you know, there must be an opportunity in that for growth then, you know, so…

Jean : That’s the biggest thing I think too, is, is the the growth that happens.

Ingrid: What do you think for you, your biggest, biggest changes have been.

Jean : With Alex not being in my life, it’s definitely being more responsible for more of the day to day things because, he took care of all that. We had a very traditional, old fashioned — the man goes to work, he makes the money, the woman raises the children and has the dinner. So that is how we operated very well as a couple. And then with his transition, I had to take over managing the finances, managing the house, things that I was like, oh, there was a sprinkler system?  What is this?  A pool system, you open the cover when it rains, like….

Alison : Yeah.

Jean : So because I was in a way because of Alex’s job and when the kids became when we became empty nesters, I, I really could delve into more of the spiritual world. And now it’s taking all of that spiritual knowledge and actually applying it to the everyday, ordinary life. And I know he’s with me and I know he’s going, you can do this, and don’t get overwhelmed and get out of your head and stop doubting yourself. So I think that’s the other thing when you lose a spouse, after we were married almost 31 years, I knew him even before that. But, there’s another part of you that has to emerge. And that doubt, like I’m like, oh, is this– I’m not strong in this area, and so having beautiful friends like Allison, you know, sort of buoy me as I go kicking and screaming into things that I don’t want to do.

Alison : Yeah, that’s a lot. It’s a lot. You know, it’s a big change.

Jean : We have a minister friend who would say, oh, that’s another AFCO. And it means, the acronym is –  Another Fine Growth Opportunity.

Kathleen : I like it.

Ingrid: I think we all need to think that. Yeah.

Kathleen : Well, thank you for sharing that. I know that’s not easy to talk about..

Jean : I don’t mind talking about it, it just does bring up… you know…

Kathleen :  of course. Of course it does. Um, and you’re helping people just by talking about it,

Jean : And myself.

Kathleen : That’s wonderful. Um, I hadn’t thought of it that way, but, yeah, you’re also helping people through, um, your Foundation. Could you tell us a little bit about the work you’re doing through your Foundation?

Jean : Well, it’s called the Trebek Family Foundation, and Alex and I started it like 15 years ago or something like that. And, um, you know, we don’t have a specific, um… Oh, we we only focus on education or we focus on childhood illness. You know, we we sort of are a big arc of just uplifting where we where we feel inspired to. Um, right now we’re very dedicated to Helen Keller International, World Vision, Hope the mission, which is our, um, homelessness here in the Los Angeles County. Uh, so so we’re sort of in very different places. We do a lot of work in Harlem, New York. That’s where my son Matthew lives. Emily, my daughter, she loves,  Baby to Baby. And her alma mater of Campbell Hall – in low income families. So there’s many, many different areas that we love to support. And, uh, it’s just a beautiful, actually extension of Alex’s heart and his great spirit… That’s all about giving back and and not really seeing others as less than but seeing just, hey, you know, we can all give each other a hand up.

Ingrid: You know, I listened to a speech, actually, you both spoke at Fordham when you received a Founder’s Award. Um, I think your son Matthew went to Fordham. And one of the things that Alex said was, if you have compassion in your heart, everything is possible. And I wonder if we could close this out by talking about the importance of having compassion and and just asking you to share with our listeners how how you think we can all find ways to be more compassionate.

Alison : I guess it’s, um, knowing that actually the love that I feel for Jean or Dan or my children, Brady and Em,  that love is the same love that I could feel for anyone if I opened up and allowed myself to actually be and see them in their shoes and in their life. And sometimes I have met people and I think, oh man, that is not my person. And then you see that you you never know what’s going on, you know. And you see them and then all of a sudden you, like, fall in love with them because you realize, oh, that was totally a story I told myself because of my error thinking. And, you know, I can immediately change that. And I think that for me, I really try to remember that and see people the way I would want to be seen the first time. You know, I’m I’m loud or whatever, or, you know, there’s sides of me where I, you know, be abrasive or loud or opinionated and yet, like, I’m very soft and and a little frightened and tiny, I feel tiny. And so maybe that’s part of it. And I want like, so I would like people… I want to give honor them by allowing them… i’m going to think positively about them first off.

Jean : We don’t know what someone is going through,  at all.. Ever.

Alison : No.

Alison : And I just take it upon myself now, and I think sometimes it drives my kids crazy or sometimes they like it. I will talk to like everyone and ask them how their day is going or what they’re doing or who they are, or, and my kids will be like, everybody in that elevator, like, did you And, like I’ll be like online and see like online the other day with Brady and I’ll be like, hey, I like your shirt, and we started talking and this woman was between jobs and we were talking and I said, well, you know, maybe you could reach out to this thing or that thing. And Brady’s like, what are you like, how do you do that? Like, mom, you know, and I’m really trying to make that effort because, uh, Chaz Ebert, who’s Roger Ebert’s wife, which is, you know, um, she was saying that the next step when you have compassion is kindness, which is really the act of doing something. So, yeah, I think that’s I think that’s where I’m trying to step towards. Right. What about you?

Jean : Well, yes, Everything you said.. and you know, when I think of the word compassion, and this is exactly what you said, it’s that –  do unto others as you would have done unto you.

Jean : And I,  do think just acknowledging someone is is huge. Just saying, ” hi” to someone in the market. Uh, we interviewed a lady that has these cards that says, “you matter” and she leaves them around everywhere she goes. And, you know, it’s such, it’s so simple. It doesn’t have to be a big deal. You know, you you don’t need money to show compassion. It’s just a smile, holding the door open, asking someone if they want a drink. So I do think compassion is what the soul really … I cannot think of a more compassionate person than my friend Alison sitting next to me, and I’m also, I just am so grateful that we have this website together And your website too–  I mean podcast, right. that are generating acts of compassion . But, you know, going back to thoughts, it is that, those thoughts of kindness, you know, and it’s and it’s or just our verbiage.

Alison : Yeah, exactly.

Jean : My goodness, we really put ourselves through the wringer. So thank you Ingrid and Katherine for saying..

Alison : That’s right. We’re doing our best.

Kathleen : Absolutely. That’s all we can do. It’s all any of us are doing. Absolutely. Ladies, thank you so, so much.

Alison : Thank you guys so much. We wish you lived nearby so we could go out.

Ingrid: Wouldn’t that be awesome?

Kathleen : All right, be careful what you wish for, right?

Alison : I know we’re kindred spirits. You guys are so wonderful and sweet and so gentle. Thank you so much.

Kathleen : Thank you so much.

Jean : Thank you both.

Kathleen :  that was fabulous. I feel like we made two new friends.

Ingrid: I don’t think I’ve ever laughed that much on on one of our episodes. And we talked about this before, before recording. If you listen to their show, you can’t not have a smile on your face. They laugh all the time. Their friendship is really, their friendship is infectious.

Kathleen : I think it’s also there is something about and we should think about this, because there is something about seeing them together in the same room and a dynamic of, you know, you could see their sense of humor and how they play off of each other and answer each other’s questions or kind of nudge one another when when one person might be better suited to answer a question. So that was really nice to see, too.

Ingrid: And I don’t know this for certain, and I meant to ask, but the way some of their episodes started, it really does feel like some of their guests come over, which is just it just lends a different kind of intimacy and engagement for the conversation. So as wonderful as this technology is and it is, you do lose something from it. But what a beautiful conversation and a lot for us to think about in terms of the power of our own thoughts. Pause and think about the power that you have on the conversations you have in your own mind about yourself. That negative reel that says you can’t or you shouldn’t, and those judgments that you then transfer onto others. It doesn’t have to be quite like that. I really appreciate that. So Kathleen…

Kathleen : Thank you so much. It was another great, great hour spent together and making new friends.

Ingrid: Excellent. Until next time, keep looking for those silver linings.

Kathleen : Thank you.

Ingrid: Bye bye. Thanks for Thanks for listening to. This is my silver Lining- with us, your hosts, Ingrid Burchinal and Kathleen Merrigan.

Kathleen : This show is edited and produced by the amazing John Cor at Wayfare Recordings. And our original show art is by Alyssa Love. We hope you enjoyed this episode. If you love hearing these inspirational stories, please follow, rate and review our podcast on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever you listen to your podcasts.

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Kathleen : Have a great week! And until next time, keep finding those silver linings.

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