Podcast Episode 78: Bonnie Yee

Alison: Don’t make me laugh already. Okay.

Jean: Alrighty. Well,

Alison: Here we are.  Here we are again. And today, um… Well, first of all, little buddy’s here.

Jean: Yeah, but he just left the the, uh, closet, so we’re  good, and, uh, so today we get to speak to a really wonderful, beautiful person, her name is Bonnie Yee.

Alison: If you say so, i don’t know her. You know her?

Jean: Yes. I met Bonnie on a trip to Egypt when my son Matthew and I went to Egypt in April…. Oh, no. No, it was March of 2022, and, um… And I…

Alison: You hit it off

Jean:  yeah, we got along really well. And then we continued our friendship. And she has really, uh, grown into new spiritual gifts.

Alison: I love that.

Jean: SHe is going to share some of her experience and what it’s about for her.

Alison: Fantastic.

Jean: Yeah,

Alison: I have nothing else to say. Do you? Shall we do it?

Jean: Okay, let’s do it.

Alison: Here we go, here’s Bonnie.

Jean: Bonnie, Hi.

Bonnie: Hi.. How are you?  It’s good to see you again, Jean and hi, Alison… Nice to meet you.

Alison: Nice to meet you, Bonnie. I’ve heard such wonderful things about you.

Bonnie: Well, thank you. I’ve heard about you, too.

Jean: we are really happy you’re here with us today.

Bonnie: Well, I am so happy too. And I’m very grateful  for both of you. For taking, you know, taking the time to make this space so that people can have a place to tune in to where they can receive what they need. So thank you. Ladies, both of you.

Alison: We’re excited. I love I love your website and I, I love what you what you do And maybe you could just tell me, because I’m unfamiliar with you the way you know, jean knows you. Um. What began your journey? Like what?

Bonnie: Oh, goodness. Here. Uh, well, I was just reflecting earlier today.  it’s been like, 12 years. I just started getting little bits and pieces and hints. I was just normal, Jane, and I say just going through life. I had three children and a husband, and we co-owned a business. And just doing the day to day doing what I thought was, you know, what you’re supposed to be doing in this life, this world. Um, and I found myself, even though I had been successful in business and had acquired what most considered, you know, nice things and, and achieved, you know, a certain level, I felt unsatisfied, and I found myself feeling guilty for not being more appreciative. And that sensation became stronger and stronger. And that led to me just starting to ask questions, you know, what am I missing? What’s you know, what’s lacking? And I thought it was something to do with church or religion. So I asked about that. And instead of being guided to a church, I was guided to go within. And and then that led to and I wasn’t actively looking, i didn’t even know what that meant. But I found myself just being drawn to books, podcasts, YouTube. And that trail started, you know, that goes where you just take one step and there it goes. So I first I was guided to Doctor Wayne Dyer. Um, he mentioned Abraham Hicks. it just it was a trail that just went. And so I was learning, you know, how to meditate, how to, you know, uh, you know, apply the law of attraction, just, you know, the beginning, basic stuff.

Bonnie: And I didn’t, you know, have any, um, idea of where this was going or I just, you know, I knew that it felt good and it felt, you know, real. And so I just continued the trail. Um, but I it was a number of years of just kind of, you know, being in that place. I remember I got very lonely there because I didn’t know anybody else that I personally knew that was going through what I was. And my husband, bless his heart, didn’t get it. And so so he wasn’t really somebody I could talk through this with. He tried to, you know, be patient, but it didn’t always work. And so I one day I just said a prayer and I said, I either stopped this or bring me people that, that I can, you know, be with and share this with. And the very next day, two people that I already knew from way back when that I hadn’t seen for years, just appeared. One of them walked in to where I was at, and the other one texted me and both of them, and it was a sentence out of each one of us, and we automatically knew that we were on the same journey. And it was just so it was it was magical. So it just spent a series of just a long series of serendipitous things that have occurred. Um. Nothing planned. Nothing foreseen. Just surprises and and just follow the trail.

Jean: So, Bonnie, when. When I met you in Egypt. So you already were doing some reading on your own, right? You weren’t… Because that was just, like four years.

Bonnie: Reading as far as books?

Jean:  yeah, reading. You know, uh, Wayne Dyer and…

Bonnie: Well, yeah… There was a series of events that took place about seven years ago. My eldest son left this Earth, and that was catastrophic. And and so I had these points where I was thrust into more accelerated awakening. It was slow going for a number of years. But yes, I was reading, i was listening to things. I wasn’t actively doing anything with it, but just observing it. And and it was fascinating. And I was curious as to why I was so fascinated by it, because I didn’t… It was outside… Nobody else in  my family, my realm. No one else I knew was was receiving this or interested in it. So it was it that was unique.

Alison: I think it’s so interesting that you said, um, uh, doing what I thought I was supposed to do and also that, um, you you felt unsatisfied because, I think that I think a lot of people feel that, I don’t know. Do you live in Idaho?

Bonnie: I do, yes.

Alison: Because I saw that on the website that your center was there. And I know here in LA there are so many people that are so successful.

Bonnie: Right.

Alison: And yet they have a real feeling, I think, of, um, discontent or or still this like odd external searching. Is that is that what you meant by?

Bonnie: Yes I spent 30 years chasing a dream, a material, financial, you know, I thought there was an end, you know, an end goal. And that once I arrived there, you know. Ta da!

Alison: Yeah.

Bonnie: And and it it didn’t matter how much I acquired, um, nothing. It just it wasn’t filling a void. And I felt guilty about that. I didn’t know how to deal with it,  so it wasn’t until I kind of started asking. Well, it was when I started asking, going within. Why? Why do I feel like this? That I started to be led to these other resources. And so, yeah, you can acquire all the bobbles and doodles and all the grandeur and, um, it’s it doesn’t feel for me, it did not fill that void, um, and and it wasn’t, and I can say this, looking back from where I’m at now, there is none of that material stuff, none of that, i want awards and accolades from a company, none of that, um, compares to what I feel now when I have the ability to help someone, to truly connect with someone, there is a just a beautiful, beautiful, loving, warm elation that you get when when you’re truly of service. And so I did ask, you know, I was asking for a while. Let me be of service. Let me fill my purpose, fulfill my purpose. And and so it just kept evolving.

Alison: So after you were doing the readings and things, um,  where did that eventually take you? Because what you’re doing now is so involved. Like, how did you make that leap?

Bonnie: I’m,  it was just none of it was planned here it was. I just found, I learned from what I was observing and reading about just to keep following your, you know, following the pull, following the draw, follow what feels… And so I got better and better at not resisting. I was a master resister. I was constantly. I realized now that all of my life I’ve been getting, you know, messages and hints. But I was, you know, it was to do things that were opposite of what everyone else was doing. And so I would push back from that and I would have a, you know, something would draw me in a certain direction. But then everybody else wanted to go over there, and I didn’t want to rock the boat or, you know, seem like the odd person out. So I would make myself go over there with them. And so I spent, you know, decades forcing myself to do what didn’t feel true for me. And I finally was able to let you know bit by bit, it wasn’t an overnight thing, but bit by bit you start, you know, letting go of that and just following your pull.

Alison: Bonnie, it sounds to me that you went through a period of, um, a hard time.

Bonnie: It was, Yeah. I first, um, Oh our, eldest son ended his life. It was sudden, no warning. And so that was a shock. And that day was a huge turning point. I, I was in a surreal, um, he, he, he communicated, he texted me goodbye and we raced out to where we knew he was and, um, found him and it, um, it was it’s just something you can’t even I, I won’t go into it.  But, I found, um, my husband and my daughter were with me when we found him. And there’s a just a trauma that, um… What was interesting is I could see how they were responding and reacting, and I went into a different space. I, um, it was as I, it wasn’t as though I was numb. It was an aspect of me– i was removed from the human body, and I was like a step back and I could witness and see all that was going on. But I was literally in a place of neutrality… It was really unique and strange. And I remember at one point, because people began to gather pretty quickly and there was quite a crowd. Of course, you know, the authorities, and I remember I was the only one that could communicate with them, answer questions, deal with them, because everybody else was just a mess. And I understand that. But I remember questioning myself going, what is going on? I thought, you know, I asked, am I in shock? I literally took my pulse and respiration. I went, no, I’m not showing symptoms. But I it was explained to me later that, well, what happened that day before that is, when I asked, you know what’s going on with me? Why am I like this? I immediately felt-  it felt, you know, you know, if someone holds you up under your arms and holds you up, i literally felt hands underneath, holding me up and hands on my shoulders. And I had a knowing that I was surrounded by angels… That’s all I can tell you. I just knew for a fact that there was an angelic team holding me up, and that got me through that day, and then it just carried it continued. And the things I was guided to, things to, like mantras— i was guided to say things and do things that would help me through this period, and also assist my husband, who wasn’t feeling well with it at all, and it was just looking back now, it was fascinating, it was a very difficult thing to go through, but fascinating. Later I was told by my higher self that I had this lifetime was I had designed this lifetime so that I would definitely fully awaken and I wouldn’t miss this opportunity in this one. And they went, what my higher self said was I had put measures in place. They said you had arranged for us to, you know, hit you in the head with one by ones. So these nudges I had early on were, you know, the smaller board, the one by one. And it said, and if that didn’t work, you’d put it, you’d put into place the use of two by fours. So we were using two by fours. And they said, and they said, and if that didn’t work, then you had  the final thing was you had arranged for a hit in the head with a 4×4.

Alison: Yeah.

Bonnie: And they said, that that day that your son left was the 4×4 in the head. And and that’s what there was no going back as far as. Not that I wanted to, but it was I was so quickly thrust into, um, receiving things and understanding things in my deepest grief. Um, about two months, 2 or 3 months after he passed, I was just in a really, really deep place. And he, I felt him for the first time. He came to me and wrapped himself around me. And we had about a 30 minute, um, conversation, engagement… Um, and when he left, um, he literally when we parted, um, he took my grief with him. It was just surreal. It was. And and he’s… Yeah. So. Yeah. So yeah, there’s been a series.

Alison: This brings tears to my eyes because the thought…that is so, it’s it’s just as very emotional and, and I look at you as being brave and and yet you seem so like me, like ordinary.

Bonnie: and I question, you know, why I was handling it, if you want to call it so well, I mean, yes,  there were many rough moments for a while, but when I was shown later or told later was that, I there was a choice. There was a crossroad when that happened, and because I was asking, why didn’t I go into that, you know, deeper grief that people normally do. And it said, because if you had gone down that lane, there was no coming back. And so, in a nutshell, if I, if I had gone the traditional, you know, really deep grief lane, I wouldn’t have veered back over to this spiritual awakening… So there was a choice that had to be made.

Alison: Did you feel, this might be a weird question, did sometimes I feel like, uh, in my life, there are reactions I’m supposed to have, And if I don’t like, like you obviously did not…. Is there a sense of guilt or anxiety that comes up during that choice?..

Bonnie: Well,yeah,  I questioned, I um, I question I wonder but also I.. Something inside of me told me, you don’t need to go there. You don’t. In other words, there was just, I know the encounter with my son and I, it was hard for folks that haven’t experienced to understand it. But when you’re I’m sitting on my couch and I feel something, I feel something electric coming at me and I question is I should or should I fear this? And as soon as I question it, the next thing I knew is , he put his head in my neck and wrapped himself around me. And you, you knew with every cell of your being that that was him. And and I literally put my arms out like I was… I held my arms out like this. You know, in a hugging position for 15 solid minutes. And normally I can’t hold my arms up that long. And there was no reason. I had no residual effect afterwards. I was not sore in the back. I wasn’t, you know, my muscles. I literally was in a suspended state and we had, you know, a hug session for 15 minutes. Conversation went on for almost a half an hour. It was all telepathic, but it was just the most beautiful, healing, cathartic thing. And so when you, um. —Oh, help me. What was your original question? I’m sorry.  haha

Alison: Sort of the the fear or guilt of not going a certain way and…

Bonnie: Yes, and you do. But but I had so many of these profound things, like I just described occur, that I knew that that there I knew he was okay. I knew, you know, he was he was in a good place. I knew, um, and, a he told me, he said, you didn’t do anything wrong. It was nothing you could have done. This was, you know, he was only going to live a live half life, he said. Originally that was his plan and it was going to be, if it wasn’t this way, it was going to be a car accident or illness or something. And so I was assured, I mean, it literally, um, so the only thing that I really struggled with was that other’s perception of how I went through it was challenging, um, because they didn’t like it.

Alison: Really?

Bonnie: Yeah. And people would ask, oh, how’s your son? And if I didn’t, you know, want to have to tell him he was gone. But if I did, their immediate reaction was to go into, you know, oh, you know, pity. And they would um, and they expected me to be, you know, something other than, you know, pleasant, you know, and and sunny about it,  for them, they needed me to be in that lower level. And I couldn’t go there. Um, yeah and so, so it’s been interesting navigating that it’s others expectations. But I learned just to stay true to what you know, my heart kept telling me this is right for you and I just learned in Egypt, Jean, I was on… we were on the Nile on that boat, and I was hanging over the ridge, i was leaning on the rail one day, just looking at the water, and and I wasn’t, you know, actively receiving things back then, but there was a phrase that went through my awareness that stunned me, and the words were, stop dimming your light so that it makes other people more comfortable. And then and then and then it added at the end of it and said, you’re done doing that. And it was a command is that you’re done doing that. And I was a changed person coming back from Egypt.

Alison: Wow.

Bonnie: For many reasons.

Jean: Yeah, yeah.

Bonnie: But um, but all I can say is when you get into the vein or the lane that’s right for you, there and just tune into that knowing, um, it is so powerful and and you just trust. I mean, I began early on, you know, talking to my angelic teams. I was, you know, in my readings, i learned to do that. So I just kept trusting the angelic teams and asking for their support and guidance. And it came and it came and it was beautiful. And I just learned to, I was part of what I learned was to let go of the steering wheel. I was shown in meditation, my hands just white knuckle gripping a steering wheel and fighting– you know, I’m trying to pull the wheel to the left and the wheels trying to go to the right, and I’m fighting it. And I literally was shown to let go of the wheel. In other words, my angelic team has the wheel. Stop trying to turn the car in the opposite direction because you’re making it too hard. And so I literally was shown take your hands off that wheel. You don’t have to struggle to go through this life. And and so when we begin following that inner knowing, it just it’s miraculous where it takes..like to Egypt and to meet, Jean.

Jean: I think it’s, like when you’re able to connect with the unseen side of life and I think many people are starting to be able to do that?  Right, Bonnie?

Bonnie: And I want to put it out there… I don’t, “channel the deceased here.” I mean, I’ve had my son come through  me and I’ve had Alex…and Yet my path has taken me in a different direction when it comes to tapping into…

Alison: What do you do now? Like where is your path?

Bonnie: Well, I started being drawn to modalities… So I first learned to do-  it’s called you know we call it energy alignment work. So it’s a kind of a morphed version of Reiki with additional things. So I first trained in that, was drawn to that. And um, just love that. So it’s hands above, hands on and just energy work and was having just profound experiences. And then I got diverted. I just get diverted on these trails and they come out of nowhere. And I got drawn to, um, Dolores Cannon. Have you heard of her in Quantum Healing hypnosis? Oh, that came on like a I was listening to an interview on Gaia. I heard two women talk about a book. I had to order that book right now. Pulled it up. Um, on audible of the 19 books she wrote. I think I devoured 15 of them in a month. I’m not kidding you. I was I go down these obsessive trails and it’s it’s but it’s actually it’s I can’t stop it. It’s just fascinating. And so and halfway through her books, something said, you’ve got to take the course. So sorry. I trained in quantum healing hypnosis and very quickly and then began practicing that. Shortly though after I was doing that, I got a download that said, um, you’re not going to be doing this very long. I went, what?

Bonnie: Then why did  I, you know, go through all this time and expands to, you know, to do this, cause I’m loving it. And it said, because it was just a means to get you to where you needed to be. And so with all these modalities, they’re a means. So what’s been shared with me as of recent is, that it literally I um… I came here, I’m a very, very old soul, I come here,  I hold a key, um, I hold a key, and it’s a key that allows people to… It unlocks a lock where they can begin their or continue their remembrance. And so it’s, there isn’t anything that I really actively have to do just being in their presence.   For the first year after my husband left, it was really odd. I would no matter where I went, I was running into widows everywhere. They would approach me grocery stores, post office. You know the bank? I was widows nonstop and I was put, you know, I was guided in a store to go down a certain aisle where I didn’t need to be on, and it’s because there’s somebody down there and they would mention to me out of nowhere, to a stranger, that they were a widow and having difficulties not dealing well with it. And I was there to-  you know, we could be engaged in conversation over pickles. And while I was with them for the 3 to 5 to ten minutes here they were getting energetic alignment and healing for what they needed just from my, my energy. And so yeah.

Bonnie: that’s the best way I can describe it.

Alison: if someone’s listening to this and they don’t live…. I kind of want to live in your produce. But if I’m not in like Idaho, is there something that you can tell them, that they can do on their own to sort of gain some traction and where you are?

Bonnie: Well absolutely here. Um, well, first of all, this this type of what’s happening is in the quantum field, it’s not, you don’t have to be local to someone or hands on with someone, or in their physical space to receive this. So just I’ll put it out there. We, you know, I do do things remotely too so, you know, through a phone call, through, um, zoom or through also, um, just it doesn’t even have to be, you know, face to face…. It can, you know, just a pre-arranged session. But, yes, there’s many things that people can do here for themselves here. Um, they can just start to start by asking. You have a higher self, do you all understand what a higher self is? So there’s you in…

Jean: Can you go over that?

Bonnie: Okay. So there’s we— I spent decades thinking that I was this little body human. And that’s all there was to me. And I’d been taught from, you know, religious training that I had, you know, a soul and that there was a, you know, a God force here that oversaw us and that we needed to behave in a certain way to be able to earn favors and be able to go to the afterlife that was desired afterwards. So I had that basic training that a lot of us have, and that got flipped on me. And there was a variety of things. I did go through the Course in Miracles after my son passed, and so that was a huge adjustment. You know, so but what I’ve come to understand is that we aren’t that basic human, and that’s all there is. We are a soul who’s decided and chosen to have a human experience, and the soul is just a part of the One, the Source, the God. And so we’re basically God incarnate in human form, having a human experience so that we can bring what we’ve learned back to the whole. And in order to have a human experience on this planet, which is a 3D planet, three dimensions height, width and depth, we have to be in a human bodysuit and it comes with five basic senses. You know, it’s the basic model. But what’s happening right now is that, again, things are shifting and we’re moving.

Bonnie: Some of us are moving out of 3D and into the higher dimensions, fourth and fifth dimension. And so we in those dimensions you tap into these higher frequencies and more abilities like sensory abilities come online. But what happens in basic human 3D? Um, you you just believe that you’re solo and alone and and that can be frightening and scary. And you have, you know, the ego mind that is trying to run the ship. And most people just stay tapped into that. And and so they have limited ability to get, you know, higher level answers. The ego can be very controlling and misleading because it’s very fear based. And so once you learn that there’s, uh, again, more aspects of you, so above, above you on the human level in 3D, there’s what’s called the higher self. And it’s you with Just imagine you sitting at the top of the trees in the forest and you’ve got a better view. So you can see above the tree line and you can see, oh, that’s a shorter route to get over there, or be easier if I go this way. And so it’s just the higher per view of you. And then after the higher self there is the Oversoul or Oversoul collective which is a just a higher,  each time it’s a higher per view you have, you’re closer to if you want to call, you know, the grand computer mainframe and so, so and then above that, recently in the last three months here I’ve discovered that above that is what’s called the Monad.

Bonnie: And I was introduced to my Monad. So I’d been for the last couple of years, I’ve been communicating with my higher self and probably the Oversoul too. I wasn’t calling it that. And so I would receive,  if I sat down and wrote a question and had a on a pad, um, I could get profound answers that I knew weren’t coming from human body because I didn’t know this stuff. I didn’t know even a lot of the words they were putting down. So I, and it became really fascinating to me to go back and read these. But so you’ve got your human in 3D with the ego, you’ve got the again, higher self, the oversoul. And then there’s the Monad. And what was explained to me is that the Monad is the highest level of your, if you want to call it higher self, before you get to the Divine. And the beauty of going to the higher levels is is there,  it’s not being filtered through the ego. So when you’re with the oversoul, it or you’re in the Oversoul essence here, you can still get ego interference. Does that make sense? So the ego can still creep in there and kind of tweak or alter or misinterpret what they’re trying to deliver because they aren’t speaking to you in terms of words, it’s just a download impressions. Yeah, it’s all frequency. And when you get up into the again Oversoul, it’s a little less, you know, ego involved.

Bonnie: But it was explained to me that once you’re with the Monad, you’re communicating with a Monad, there is no ego involvement. And so the difference that I’ve noticed since it, you know, allowed me to function at that level is the beauty and the purity and the love and the, the, um, the way I think is completely changed. Um, I’ll be texting somebody and I find that I’m backing words… I’m not doing it on purpose, but all of a sudden, a word, a word that I’m texting or typing in is being backed out at a, in other words, being inserted, and it’s and I go, oh, well, that’s a more beautiful way to explain that. And so they’re kind of, you know, helping course correct, you know, my language. But it’s just it’s the most loving, comforting, peaceful, um, knowing. And so I encourage everyone and everyone here, anyone can, can elevate to these levels here. It isn’t a hierarchy thing? It’s just a bandwidth is what it is. It’s just like tuning a dial. And the best way to do that is through meditation. Um, you going in and quieting and and also set the intention. Um, set the intention. Uh, there’s a quantity of books, there’s podcasts, there’s tons of stuff on Gaia TV. There’s resources out there, there’s practitioners, there’s, um, so you just you have to if you ask, what’s the best path for me, go within an asset or set that intention before meditation.

Bonnie: Um, and you’ll be you’ll be guided. The most common thing, when I do the quantum healing hypnosis sessions with clients and a very common question that they have me ask their higher self — in those sessions, you come with a list of questions that you want your Higher Self to answer for you, and then you’re the channel for your higher self. So I’m the facilitator that just ask the questions and then you channel it for yourself under hypnosis. And the most common question is am I on the right path? What is my spiritual path? What can I do to improve or better? You know, this experience and the number one thing that the higher self mentions is meditate. And yeah, meditate and people aren’t meditating enough. They’re not doing it regularly there. Yeah. And it’s become literally a, a it’s not only a daily but multiple times a day for me. And it doesn’t have anything lengthy. But eventually what happens when you practice enough, is that you literally can become just a walking, constant meditation, if that makes sense…. But yeah, so it’s not like you don’t have to formally go into things. You can just it’s like you can just turn a switch and you can shut down the monkey mind and just go into, yeah, and you’re able to tune in and then you can receive the most profound guidance. And, and what it’s done for me is it releases fear, because I didn’t realize how fearful I was all my life because I didn’t, you know, I felt so alone and so inadequate and so incapable on my own. And so it’s been a big shift since my husband’s left, and I’m. And, uh, but but being alone is also helped me to have that quiet.

Jean: Yeah.

Bonnie: that Quiet time. So hopefully that answers your question.

Alison: Yes. That was great. Thank you very much. Because I want to just make sure people know that it’s accessible.

Bonnie: Oh, anyway, I never could have imagined. I was told at some point that the path I was going to be going down, that I could not even imagine where it was going to go. And it isn’t done by any means here. This is an ever evolving thing for all of us, but mainly if we’re willing to be open and and to trust, um, to just trust that once you’ve had enough experiences and you’ve witnessed enough miracles. Um. you just learned that I can trust this. And so I’ve been sent, you know, Egypt was the first of the magical trips here, since then, I’ve been sent to…. in downloads, i’ll get told to go places. There’s a relationship that you can form with these higher levels of yourself, and it’s so beautiful and it’s so freeing and it’s so loving, and there is nothing to fear and there’s, um, it’s it’s you just know it. It’s so pure and so I encourage everyone, um, to, you know, first ask and then reach out and find resources. You’ll be drawn if you start asking.

Alison: And I think what you said earlier about trusting and, you know, letting go, um, I think that’s I think people can do that and, and, and the fact that you were open and sending love to people, I think we can do that without even being there.

Bonnie:  You don’t have to know what you’re doing.  Just, you know, you literally,  I have a practice every morning the first thing before I get out of bed, the first thing when I’m awake, I. I start, um, saying I love you to myself. Because that is so… Most people do not love themselves. They are, you know, they think atrocious things about themselves, and so I lay there and I say, I love you and thank you to myself until I feel it, until I feel it. And there’s a point where you get emotional. And so I feel it. And, and I also I just make the statement, I say, I wonder how happy I’m going to be today?  Thank you.   And then I say, I wonder what wonderful new things I’m going to get surprised with today?  Thank you.

Bonnie: And so I’m setting the tone for,  I’m going to have a happy day and a day of surprises. And they’re beautiful surprises. And if I do desire something, I will, you know, I’ll say I, you know, bring me this or something better, because what happens is I don’t even know what the best version of this thing is. And I’m limiting myself. We all are, if we, you know, well, I need that, you know? Um, if we if we say, well, I desire this, bring me this or something even better that’s out there and you’ll be amazed at what you get that..

Alison: You’re a lovely surprise for me today, Bonnie.

Bonnie:  Well, I am just so, so, like I said, so happy. Um, you know, for everyone that’s able to tap into this, this journey, I encourage it a spiritual awakening, i will be up front, it can, um, be very messy, uh, but also very miraculous. And you have to be willing to go through the messy periods. And by messy, there’s a lot of shifting and adjusting that we have to go through. And it’s because our whole belief for me, my whole belief system, I was trained, I was trained to be afraid. Um, not only my family, you know, did that, you know, not intentionally, but that’s, you know, be a good girl or else.. I need to be a good girl, otherwise there were going to be consequences. And. And I’ve come to understand that, no, there’s no right or wrong….. It’s just there’s experiences and we’re here to learn. And we are loved unconditionally. When you tap into in these higher states,  we can all tap into source God, you know, the creator, whatever you want to call it, we can tap into and actually connect into that. It’s the most electrifying, beautiful, loving. If anyone gets a chance to, you know, work with Doctor Joe Dispenza and his work, I got to go to one of his seven day seminars and just had the most profound experiences there. But you you tap into a that that source level, and there’s a love that we don’t experience in the human realm, but you can tap into it through deep meditation, and he teaches that. So it’s profound and it’s it’s life changing. And you realize, yeah, that we don’t need to suffer.

Alison: Yeah,

Jean: Right.

Bonnie: There’s no need for that.

Alison: So I think the other thing you said that’s so perfect is you don’t have to…. The best thing that you feel is when you’re in service that can pull people out of, uh, anxious feelings, depressive feeling like if you’re serving someone or helping someone else, I think that’s like a miracle.

Bonnie: It is. It’s  the best way. Just it takes your focus off of yourself and you get and you’ll completely, yeah, be removed from whatever you were dwelling in, is to go and serve others and just and and do it without expectation of anything in return.

Alison: Yeah.

Bonnie: Just give from the heart and and just lose yourself in it. And so that that’s what makes you know, I didn’t foresee,  I had a business in a space and it got converted to this, you know what it’s called, Oasis of Light Healing Center. I, I was told this was going to happen. I couldn’t even imagine how it was going to. And then how it unfolded was surreal. And and it’s, it’s now um, it actually has been what I’ve been shown and told, and it’s turned into this physical space, which is a business, it’s a space and a business building. It’s been turned into what’s called a crystalline temple. I knew nothing about any of this stuff, but, so what it is, is, you know, the temples we went into in Egypt, Jean?  Uh, you know, you walk in and there’s just a reverence. You just you’re just awestruck. And you just stand there in silence because you feel something when you, but you can’t name it. Um, that’s what happens, is there… There’s grids that have aligned in those, there’s ley lines and grids that have formed at what’s called a crystalline temple. These are all very sacred spaces. And they had practices in there where they kept this going. So what’s happened, and not by my intentionally doing it, but this space that I’m in is, I’ve been informed, has become a crystalline temple. And, um, when people walk in, it’s stunning. They walk in and the minute they walk in, they can just walk in and just be in there and, you know, walking around looking or sitting there and they’re being worked on by the temple. It’s fascinating to watch people, literally, um, they just dissolve there, you can see their shoulders relax, you can see their face change.

Alison: like an exhale.

Bonnie: Is the UPS guy comes in with a box and he makes it like four feet in the door, and he just stops in his tracks and he goes, what is this place? The UPS guy that has no idea what’s going on feels the difference.

Alison: Yeah.

Bonnie: And so it’s been really, um, fascinating to watch this evolve. And I’m so honored I’ve been told that I’m the, um, basically the steward of this. And so my job is to is to keep it safe and protected and to, to help people that come in to be able to access what they need. So I, I’m very honored and I’m so grateful. And, uh, so.

Jean: I mean, you’re just such an emanation of pure love and light, and I feel the same about Allison.  And, um.  It’s just truly a blessing to be to be together here on this very, um, this powerful time of transition. And, uh, and that part about trust and surrender, we really can’t control the outer, it’s it’s out of our hands in a and we can only stay in our truth, stay in our love, emanate that and and know that that in and of itself is is so powerful.

Bonnie: When we work on ourselves and heal from within, it’s not just us we’re affecting… It ripples out where we’re at, and you don’t have to even understand it…. just trust it. Yeah.

Bonnie: There’s so many miraculous things that that will occur, so it just just it frees you. We we have been trained to believe that we’re in this space of limitation and constraint and and it’s not. We are the creator of our reality. And we can we, you know, by trusting we can we will be guided. Just ask.

Bonnie: And yeah ask. And there was a little parting message that my higher self had given that they wanted to share…is it okay I share this real quick? They want folks to know that, no one is lost, you aren’t lost. So if you’re going through spiritual awakening, you’re not lost. Don’t be afraid of it. Um, you’re actually recalibrating. Everything about your awareness has to shift. And so there’s going to be a lot of chunkiness that goes on in that,  but just trust that you will come out of it here. Um, far better, uh, with a clear understanding here also that everything you’re seeking is already within you. It’s already within you. It’s whispering at you here so it’s safe to listen to it. Trust that inner knowing you’ve always had it. You just have been trained to tune it out. So start trusting it and asking for it to speak louder. I used to say, please speak loud enough and clear enough that I can hear you and understand you , shouted at me if you have to.

Bonnie: I don’t want to miss anything yeah…. So just start to have conversation. Talk. Talk to your higher self and your inner knowing. Like you like we’re talking… And  it’ll speak back.  Yeah.

Jean: That’s great.

Alison: We usually do two end questions.  And our first one is, um, what do you think our our podcast is called Inside Wink. What do you think that means?

Bonnie: Uh, well, I asked my higher self a little earlier, so here’s what I have… Because it was more eloquent than what I was going to say. So it said,  inside wink is that subtle moment of knowing we share with the universe, like an inner nod or smile that says, I see you, I feel you. I understand it’s the quiet connection between souls and the reminder that there’s more going on than meets the eye.

Alison: Oh, yes. Bonnie.

Alison: Fantastic.

Bonnie: Well, I thank my higher self for bringing that through. Okay.

Alison: That’s right.

Bonnie: I can send it to you.

Alison: That’s beautiful.

Jean: Oh, that’s so beautiful.   And I have probably the most important question –  You know, riveting question. Do you prefer cake, pie or ice cream?

Bonnie: That was a tough one, because I love them all. But it came through the other day. It was and  it’s mint chocolate chip ice cream!

Jean: And that is what I have in my freezer, Bonnie.

Bonnie: Oh my gosh.

Jean: You have to learn to bi-locate

Alison: That’s right.

Bonnie: Oh my. Gosh. Well, after  that came through I ended up buying a tub. And unfortunately, Jean,  ate the tub already.

Bonnie: So….But it was a mint chocolate chip.

Alison: I love that.

Alison: Thank you so much. You’re such a treat.

Bonnie: Oh, well.  Thank you. Thank you. So I can’t wait to meet you in person someday, Alison,

Alison: I would love that, I would love that.

Bonnie: Thank you again, Jean. You’re so shiny and bright and both of you, and so it translates very well. So. Thank you.

Bonnie: Oh, what an honor.

Jean: We love you. And thank you for all that you’re doing.

Bonnie: well, thank you for what you do. So take care.

Bonnie: Alrighty.

Alison: Talk Soon. Bye.

Alison: Oh, I really enjoyed her.

Jean: I thought you would.

Alison: Right? Yeah. I just really enjoyed her. And she’s just like, um, an every woman. And yet really, um, has really done, like, a 180, right?

Jean: But, you know, she, she said some really key points. I love that she said to follow what makes you what interests you? And and it takes such courage to break free from the pack that tells us what to do to be good, a good girl, or whatever that means, or be, you know, be anything than just what truly lights our own heart.

Alison: Exactly. And sometimes I feel myself going, oh, you know, no, you really should do this. Yeah. And maybe I don’t need to listen to that. Maybe I can just really ask, you know, and I love that she says what surprises her in store for me today?

Jean: Yes, Alison.

Alison: What good surprises. I love that, right?

Jean: Right. And I think, um, you know…It’s so great to know that there is a force for good that we can access and that it just takes asking, right? You know, like, please help me with this situation, right? You know, and.

Alison: Just the way I would ask you, I can ask me or and I can ask my higher self. Yeah. Right.

Jean: Yeah.

Alison: I love that. So in case you’re busy.

Jean: In case I’m busy,, okay…Then go to the Monad, if I’m too…

Alison: exactly.

Alison:  That’s right. Well, we hope you enjoyed Bonnie. We really, uh, she’s very special. And we hope you can take some tips.

Jean:  yes.

Alison: and Relax into your own gifts.

Jean: Absolutely.

Alison: Have a wonderful day.

Jean: Have a great day.

Alison: Bye.